my life sucks...

I hate being alone, I hate not knowing any one, I hate always having to be by my self when I'm not at either work or school(well I'm mostly by my self at work and school though, well my vocational school I know some people there ), I hate not having a life, I hate not being able to go places(I have no where to go or any one to go with, and if I do find some where to go my mom always has to be a prick about driving me, like it's that hard to dive 10 minutes to some where, once in a wile), and I hate not having any one to go any where with or just hang out with... damn that felt good to get that off my chest, well my life sucks... and it's like no one has any idea what it feels like to be me, alone all the time it really sucks, I mean I look forward to going to my vocational school just so I can be with some people I know for the 2 hours I'm there...I guess I don't have it that bad, I have a roof over my head and there's always food on the table, I try to make the best out of every thing but it just keeps getting harder to do, I just wish I had some where to go once in a while, and someone to go there with...when I get my car it will be different, I'll just go out to find something to do, I can't just sit around and wait for fun to come to me I have to go out and find it, but that's not till August :-(...well any way I'm sorry for wasting your time with reading this, if anyone even bothers to read it. I'll just go back to my fucked up life now.........

 

I recommend suicide...

You big baby... grow the fuck up!

 

join me in my lifelong road trip then! we take any passengers who are open-minded hippies. what say you my man? cruising europe, asia and africa on a coach, spending what little money we have on petrol earned from busking. eating the crops we grow at the back of the coach..... its a good life

 

why wait till august? so you can't drive yet and your mom doesn't like giving you rides... do you have a bike? if not, check out bike rental places and thrift shops, used bikes are cheap. what about a skateboard? how's the public transportation around there? or have people over to your house to chill, so that you don't have to get a ride out there. don't think things are going to magically burst with color once you get your license... get out and find something to do now. wherever you'd go in a car, go before you get your car. you're right, you've gotta find the fun, don't just sit there and hope it arrives at the end of the summer. even if you were trying to go to a far away city, bus tickets can cost less than driving yourself, with gas and tolls (plus less pollution! ). just start doing stuff now, don't wait for a car or fun or whatever to find you. make it good.

 

you can turn any negative aspect of your life into a good one...you just gotta think! The Hippie message wasn't to make a difference by being negative, but being a positive person...you have the ability to do so much more! Turn all that negative energy into positive energy....btw, since you're 17, you'll probably be graduating soon, and then you won't be lonley....btw, where in Jersey are you?

 

Your parents are probally a little harsh and have different views than you do. When I was in highschool my parents didn't let me hang out with my friends b/c they were all guys. Not having a car bites but there's still plenty to do without one. I know b/c mine is broke right now. everyone's got troubles but we all learn to deal. In my life I still live at home with a very prejudice stepdad, I go to college and work. But I have my co-workers to commune with at least. Just make the best of it, it will all work out. - peace

 

hey jesikhaviolet, i'll join you in your lifelong road trip!!!

seriously.

 

everyone's life sucks...get over it.

 

i know how you feel. i get really depressed because i tend to feel alone too. the best thing to do is to keep on thinkin positive and remember that things change and life gets better...high school years can really suck..hope you feel better soon Peace and love

 

I sometimes feel lonely during the weekends because I can't get to school. Sounds weird but most of my best friends live very far from me and I almost only see them at school. But I'm preparing to go live in the town of my university and then I'll be much closer to some of them and I'd be albe to see them out of their school context much more often. So if you want things to change you've got to make them change, not wait until they change out of themselves. You're the only one who can do something about your situation. Good luck!

 

If I would be 17 and my mom would drive me to school, I would probably drown myself, or cut myself ( well this is a thing that I allready did... but let's just get over it) My ,om stopped driving me 2 school since I was 8 or 9! I mean Jesus Christ Superstar, tell her 2 leave you alone... moms r just like dogs: if you really want you can train them... It's quite hard... but it worked at me! Comme on you have to do something!

 

sounds like fun...tell me if you ever get it going...

I do have a bike and a skate board, but mostly every thing there is to do is out of riding distance, it may be 10 min. in a car, but that's with going on the parkway or something...and still I would have no one to go there with...

I do that all the time, try to make the best out of every thing, and think positively, but it's just like it keeps getting harder to do, it's like every time my life start to get a little bit better, there's always something there to knock me back down and my life sucks again...how will I be less lonely when I'm out of school, then all I have to look forward to is going to my stupid job...oh I live in Monmouth county, by the shore, U?

I feel that way all the time, because I go to a vocational school, people came from all over the county, so the people I talk to there live far away, I only go for like 2 hours, I wish I could go there all day, at lease I know some people there

I'll try to get to know more people, I have tried a lot before, but maybe I wasn't trying hard enough...

 

not to be callous, but if you have no one to go to fun places with now, you don't think they'll magically appear once you get a license, right? things aren't just going to get better unless you work on it and make them better. if something is out of biking distance, isn't there a bus or public transportation you could use? i mean, you live in jersey! i know there's some sort of public transportation out there!

anyway my point was that you need to stop waiting for things to suddenly get good. nothing will change unless you cause that change to occur. not having a car is a convenient excuse, but really, when you get that car, and things haven't changed, you're gonna feel even worse. and besides, you won't get your license till the very end of the summer, it would suck to spend your whole summer miserable.

 

awesome stuff - just come up north and join us we save up our money

 

big yawn

 

If You can't have friendship with people, have pets! Dogs are best friends for people.
Be optimistic, life is interesting because there is so much to do! don't waste the time in waiting till august or till next year.. Try to find hobbies and don't care about relationships or situations. Be free in everything and I'm sure, you will find friends.
Good luck!

 

North Jersey...by New York

 

There was a time in my life that I was depressed and I got out of it just by meditating and clearing my mind of everything. I'd listen to music that made me happy and then I'd just chill out. If you get to the point where you want to die, i would definitly recomend you talk to someone.

 

You are right, without music life would really suck!
Music is our best friend. When Radiohead occupied my mind, my only dream was to live in the desert island with CDplayer and their CDs.
So.. with pets music is best way to feel good!

 

as soon as i'm free (school, etc) and have learnt to drive and stuff i'll be there lol