I’m a married 39 year old male with an only average sex life. I have one sister who is five years older who I get on very well with.I won’t reveal her real name but let’s call her Laura. When I was fifteen I saw her almost fully naked. She was wearing only a very sexy satin knickers. It was a very brief encounter and we both were very embarrassed I recall at the time. Nothing was ever said between us however as a very hormonal teenager it generated enormous sexual arousal for me. (For me it was as good as coming face to face with a sexy Page 3 model that I frequently masturbated to at that time.) It led to me doing very inappropriate things with her lingerie when ever the opportunity safely presented itself. After a few years I eventually grew out of it and Laura and her sexy lingerie were no longer part of my sexual habits. Move on 25 years. I came across a photo of Laura on her class of 97 Facebook page. She is with some friends on a beach in swimwear. Looking at the picture of my then 19 year old sister in a very attractive swimsuit immediately transported me back to the very erotic time mentioned above. Before I knew it I was masturbating to that very picture. Recently I have discovered some old photos of her in my parents house, one in particular where she is not wearing a single piece swimsuit (like the Facebook pic) but a very sexy two piece bikini. This particular photo provides very intense orgasms, however they are only equaled by the enormous guilt felt thereafter. Seeing that picture of her on Facebook recently seems to have triggered something that I now find difficult to let go of. Almost all of my masturbation fantasy’s today involve my sister as a sexy young woman in her late teens / early twenties. The fantasy never involves me having sex with her but simply visualising her in sexy lingerie or her simply getting undressed in her bedroom across the hall as she did all those years ago. A recent low point was had when having sex with my wife I helped my arousal my thinking of my 20 year old sister. I would like to know if this is in any way common or in your opinion is it a very unhealthy fantasy? My relationship with my 45 year old sister today is still the same strong and healthy one it’s always been. I seem to have a good mechanism for separating 45 year old Laura from 20 year old Laura. I'm not at all attracted to her today and I never feel strange around her since this all started. I would love to know your thoughts on this. Thanks for reading. T
You're not that abnormal, but that's coming from someone who fantasizes off the chart stuff! I'm obsessed with hairy vulvas' and here of late...with dark colored labia! This stems from an encounter with a Thai hottie, whose vulva I orally assulted (consentually of course...) for several hours. I was utterly mesmerized by her chocolate colored little labia. But back to your sister issues....with no disrespect, I can only imagine she tastes heavenly. Not that you should persue that avenue. I see no harm with fond memories helping you achieve pleasure. I hope that helps.
I'm sure we have all seen family members nude, or close to nude. Never turned on by immediate family members. I had an aunt, first woman I ever seen completely naked. Except a bit of playing dr. with a cousin and neighbor girl, show me yours and I'll show you mine. I had many impure thoughts about my aunt. Plus, my uncle made sure he showed her off to me. Later I had a couple of nieces, that flirted and would be nude in front of me, in a seducing manor. I never acted on their advances, even though they were 18. I thought about them many times, even dreamed about one of them, but always woke up before anything happened. This one still gives me her mischievous smile today, she is in her middle 50's.
You're not abnormal at all. Kinky, perhaps. Check out the Consanguinamory website for first-rate info about what you're feeling. If you and she want to fuck like crazed weasels, it's okay. I can tell you from experience that you're not going to be struck by a lightning bolt.
I don't think it's abnormal at all. It's just something we don't usually talk about in "regular" conversation.
Is there actually a website? I did a Google search (and my Google-fu is usually pretty good), but could find nothing but definitions and discussions on reddit.
I'd be happy to help, and answer any questions you have. Mucho experience. Feel free to PM me. Or ask here.
When I was first exploring masturbation, I did it to anything with a pulse. And since it would be a few years until I would see a female friend or love interest nude, the only women I saw naked regularly were my mom and sister. So, I rubbed one out while thinking of them naked and, like you, I eventually found nude photos of my mom in her 20s and some nude photos of my sister as a teen in family albums and for about a week or two, I rushed home from school every day to masturbate while looking at the photos. I even masturbated in front of my sister a few times. Not trying to be gross. I was just a horny as fuck teenage (what I thought at the time was a boy) who was really really into this neat new thing I was having fun doing. Sometimes, I'd need to do it while she and I were watching TV and in the fugue of teenage horniness, didn't want to get up and go to my room. So I would do my best to rub one out secretly inside my jeans, or under a blanket, or using the back of the couch as cover. But she knew full-well what I was doing. Now, in my 40s, when I'm experiencing an upswing of intense horniness, it can take something that pings off a much deeper place inside my psyche to move the needle. It's not rare that I turn to fantasies of my sister and I masturbating together. Or real memories of us being nude together, showering together or showing each other our private parts as teens. But that's all it is, a little fantasy inside my head that I'm using for a very specific purpose (I would personally go as far to call it a "need" at times.) Nobody's getting hurt by it. And just like yourself, I'm not training my brain to desire anything IRL nor would I ever do any of these things IRL, because I'm really not physically attracted to her at all. Long story short: You're fine. Do what you do. As long as it's just your own little fantasy it needn't be of concern.
I remember swimming with a cousin who was clad in panties and a white t-shirt; both essentially transparent when wet. Like any pubescent boy, I jacked off to that mental image repeatedly through my teenage years, but like most fantasies never acted upon it. Fantasy is the mind's amusement park; I wouldn't worry about "unhealthy" fantasies unless they involved hurting others. I wouldn't want to condition my mind to equate inflicting suffering with sexual gratification.
I wouldn’t say much of what is being discussed here is unhealthy, maybe immoral or against societal norms in many cultures.
So I saw my mom and her sisters husband having sex. First of all my mind was blown at what I was seeing but was captivated and turned on by what I was seeing. Mom on all fours and watching his dick disappearing into her. Honestly I don’t know how she was taking it. I have since experienced him and want to be fucked by him in with my mom and her sisters husband watching.
I would love to hear how that works out. Mom will be proud of you. But how does dad fit into the picture?
