As of today …I owned up to it …i was literally fooling myself. I have been seing this amazing sexy Latino hunk, we dated and had amazing mm encounters, our encounter and dates became intimate and passionate for another …we clicked in many ways. Recently he admitted he was in love with me and wanted to be in a long term relationship. I wasn’t ready to accept the word love ….as much as I had deep feeling for him …I wasn’t ready to commit…… Through this forum and help of my wife ….I was literally fooling myself. I was deeply in love with him but also want to play around and have open relationships… today we spoke and I confessed I’m in love ..but wasn’t ready to commit….we set up an arrangement that would work for us ….he agreed to have our relationship open but keeping each other primary in seeing other men..he also wanted join in my active hook ups or I join him …if he connects with anyone else ….biggest ask, I must spend once a week evening and sleep over at his place ….which wife would support I feel soo good that I was able to open up and release it out and have transparent relationships that benefits both of us … As much as seeing mutiple men and enjoying variety of mm sex….somehow yon have this Latino as my gay lover feels good. wow …never imagine being in love and having gay lover …..transitioned being straight to bi now more gay then bi….see where life takes us…,
Best wishes traveling your rocky road ahead... But - do this journey for yourself, not him. You are not gay because of him, you are now aware of this transition, and you have had a taste of gay relationships because of him. But at the end of this journey from straight to bi to more gay than bi, it is you who will settle on who you really are. Why these journeys take place is such a combination of so many things - lucky you, though, for coming to a place of knowing these things about you, and I hope you will embrace it, and take care of yourself while you manage to take care of those in your life that you also love and are responsible for.