tripping out on that i am a person, that i exist

this sux, its no fun, im trpping out big time on the fact that i exist and am a person and eventually wont be and will d.. some day, i cant stand it, it sux its really gonna happen, this is gonna be horrible omg!



i was shaking/trembling, dont feel right, body is wierd, odd, heart was racing, felt kinda like mind or something was maybe trying to separate from body?? got up and took a while to walk alot of it off, but just feel odd

now my hearing went ringy and my ears warmed up my face is hot, hearing is changing again

crazy,,


:/


oh yeah and i just smoked three real fat hitters of real nice stuff, weeeeeeeeeeeeee


should i just crash out for the night, or will i even wake up ?

 

dont go to sleep! you might have an overdose and never wake up!

 

oi

 

Lol....

I don't think I have ever thought that. If I was stoned and someone said that to me I would probably say something like, "Eh.... I've had a good run, don't touch my stuff when I'm gone!" then procede to fall asleep without missing a beat.


On the subject, yeah it is weird to think about actually being alive.... the only thing like that, that brings me down is thinking that I only exist for at most 95 years (After that I wanna be shot out of a cannon into the sun.) There has been Billions of years before me, and there will be Billions more after me, so in essence my existance has no real possible effect on the universe as a whole. Kind of a buzz kill when ya think about that kinda shit to hard.