Many years ago, I knew a woman who had a similar history. She was raped in high school and couldn't get anyone to believe that it happened (not even her parents!) After that, she still enjoyed sex, but only if her partners were brutal and pretended to rape her again. I never had sex with her personally (which is a pity, as she was a beautiful sexy woman) I was told by more than one guy that she was an amazing fuck, but they generally felt like real shits for treating her the way she demanded. (Once, she arranged for a small gang bang with half a dozen guys and they abused her sexually until she was black and blue, and could barely walk afterwards!)
Oh my gosh Traveller! Your post is so sad, and I feel so sorry! I am just starting out sort of, I'm not able at this time to have any lovers because I live at home still with my mom & dad, but I'm mid-twenties and I LOVE SEX and can't wait to do it some more! I love holding a guy and kissing him and his hands and his lips ... I had a great childhood & I think that's what your wife is missing
. just from reading your post here I can tell you're a quality man Buzz gunner and I bet you treat your partner good
I have a friend who worked as a prostitute right after graduating from high school. Later in life, she ran a house with a lot of girls. At some point, she got in trouble with the law and today is a server at a restaurant. She went from needing and loving sex to just providing sex to not enjoying anything sexual at all for a while. For example, she always told me that giving a blowjob was sexual but in itself was not sexy. It was just a thing that women did. She always admitted though (and I know from experience) that she got wet giving head. So she believed that she had just done it too many times and it was more muscle memory than anything else. What she kind of had to relearn when she met her current guy was everything else around sucking a cock. From being undressed to being fondled and having her nipples sucked and licked and her pussy licked and the feeling of skin on skin. The excitement just before being penetrated and the flush prior to her orgasm. The feeling of her man in her arms as he's giving up and releasing. So, for her, sucking cock was just a sexual act and she had to re-learn the rest mid way through her life. Love that gal and yes, she gave superior blowjobs. Not just good. Superior. I miss them!
I try to be. I haven't had very many different partners, compared to a lot of men, but they're all precious to me. Whether we're making love or just fucking for fun, I love all of them and I've always tried to make sure that they all know it!