Cum in mouth first time

First time I sucked a cock i was 28, responded to a Craigslist ad and we agreed to meet not too far from where I was working at the time.
I got there and got into his car, he already had it out and mostly hard. I had never really seen another guys dick up before, other than maybe the odd time a quick glimpse in a locker room.
I leaned over and took it in my mouth, sucked on it for probably 4-5 minutes, had every intent of swallowing his cum, but he spoke up that he wanted to see mine, and for some reason I freaked out and split....
Swore up and down to myself that it wasn't for me and never doing that again
Fast forward about 1.5 years and I had the courage to try again. Same guy still had an ad up. Went to his place this time, he sat in a chair and I blew him until he came and I swallowed it down. He wanted to reciprocate but I want interested in that...
I left, my head was in the clouds, but the it hit me again.... "not for me, never again doing that"
For the sake of trying to keep this short, that was nearly 10 years ago and I suck cock every chance I get lol

 

I love it when a guy says that he's never going to do that again and... he can't stop doing it.

 

Your story of your special friend had me almost blowing my load; it is so hot! Thank you so much for sharing it with all of us. That kind of relationship is exactly what I dream of all the time.

The first cock I ever sucked and cum I ever swallowed was with my childhood best friend: we had sex over many years. But then I repressed all my gay desires. So when I started up again at 30, it was like I was starting all over again. Then the first time I ever took a guy's cum in my mouth and swallowed, I hadn't even realized he had cum in my mouth until afterwards. I had been deepthroating him, with his cockhead rapidly moving from my mouth to the bottom of my throat, back-and-forth. So I think what happened was initially he was quietly shooting his load into me from deep within my throat, with his cum still shooting when his cockhead was back in my mouth, back-and-forth. So only afterwards I realized I had a taste of semen in my mouth, and had understood what had happened. I finally swallowed another guy's cum again for "the first time", and I was overjoyed.

That "first time again" was in a bathhouse, where I had already sucked dozens of cocks and learned to deepthroat even, over many visits. But two things were at play that prevented me from finally taking a guy's cum load into my mouth, and swallowing of course, for such a long time. First, I had an unfounded fear of catching something if I swallowed a guy's cum (it's not true). And secondly, guys in bathhouses always want to save themselves, so I never tasted cum for a long time.

Now at 62, I can't tell you how much I super love the taste and texture of another man's cum. And swallowing his seed essence, for it to merge with my body, is the greatest high. I feel really close to a guy when I know his very essence has become part of me. And this enjoyment happens every time I'm with a guy, because I now only (almost only) get together with guys in each other's homes, for that greater intimacy. And, to all you bi guys out there, that special man-to-man intimacy doesn't mean you're gay: it's just an awesome masculine intimacy that just feels great. Men are meant to suck cock and drink semen, period.

 

Yeah, I'm pretty sure many guys say "Never again" to find themselves continuing to suck cock. I know I couldn't stop, didn't want to stop either as I found myself doing something I never thought I would ever do in my life. I don't regret it at all either as I found out it was something most likely hidden deep inside me that finally escaped.

 

Luckily your regrets were on things you didn't get to try, I stead of on the things you did try? So that is a positive.
Most guys have the post nut clarity regret and want to get out of there. I think it's an instinctual left over of when we were more primitive animals. Think about it, you just made a lot of noise, and expended a lot of energy? So you just announced yourself to predators, and are temporarily wiped out of energy - that equals you being lunch! And biologically, you did your part 'mating' wise by releasing your sperm. Until we became social animals and pair bonding, you were done, it was the females responsibility to be pregnant, give birth, nurse until the young could fend on their own. So of course your instincts want you to get out of there and not be vulnerable to be coming prey?!

You were nervous on your first time, amped up by the novelty of it and risk you might get caught? Definitely bump into that guy and try again. See if he is able to host at his place where you can take your time, not be as rushed?
Enjoy a session without regrets this time? Just force yourself not to try and leave right after you cum, so you can enjoy more fun?

 

Having those "Why didn't I do what I wanted to do?" regrets seem to be pretty normal and, yeah, more so after busting a nut. I've had a few guys who, after their first time, asked me why didn't they do what they wanted to do and how do they deal with the regrets over not doing whatever they wanted to do, usually, let me cum in their mouth, not letting me finish them off in my mouth, stuff like that. I've told them that having regrets over something that's now in the past doesn't make sense; you didn't do... something and now you realize that you should but that time has passed... but if/when you have a next time, that's your moment to do whatever you're regretting.

Some guys have that level of regret before even touching another guy's prick, so you get big-time points for engaging with the guy and, yeah, you now know that you should have sucked him off and then time proved to not be your friend and there were other things left undone and you had to get yourself off. I'd tell you to not beat yourself up over what didn't happen and the thing to do is the next time you get to suck dick, you do the things you didn't do that first time - and keep having fun doing it.

 

I have posted this before but I was very surprised at how much semen there was. I swallowed as fast as I could but it kept cumming, my girlfriend was laughing and it began running down my chin. It was the suddenness of the situation. One moment I was working on his cock unaware that he was about to cum, then I was in shock, kind of a sensory overload.

 

I've always enjoyed heavy cummers...Mmmm.

 

My first time I chose a guy I knew who was bi curious and been told he was well rigged, we were in a bar ordering at the same time and I said to him, is it true about you he looked me in the eyes and said find out for yourself friend, I placed my hinde on his shorts as he became semi hard, then he simply said suck it and see how much cum you can take, his cock was about 9” and thick uncut and belle X was huge but I managed to get it in my mouth, I was surprised how fast he came just a few licks and shot a sweet huge load into my mouth, loved every moment of it before swallowing.

 

I'll have to comment on this from a different perspective because the only cock that I've ever sucked was my own. When I was much younger, thinner and much more flexible I could actually get half my cock into my mouth. That being said, sucking my own cock was one of the most pleasurable experiences that I've had. Feeling my lips on my cock was wonderful. Feeling my cock twitch and jerk between my lips when I reached orgasm was amazing. Feeling my cum shoot into my mouth was shocking, thrilling and intoxicating!!! Once I felt the first squirts of that salty, warm, slimy fluid hit my tongue I was hooked. Surprisingly, it wasn't gross or disgusting. I hungrily gulped it down and milked every tasty drop from my cock. Nobody knows how to suck your cock better than you do!!!

 

I m envy!

 

Unfortunately I lost that ability a long time ago. I can only dream about doing it these days!!!!

 

Ah true that, I don't regret the things I did do that day. Looking for ways to repeat the experience and get more out of it. Also for the other guy as I was pretty focused on me except for playing with, and sucking his cock for a while.

 

Reading comments like this made me let go of the regret and focus on new possibilities...

 

A lot has to do with the refractory period after orgasm. If I’m at an abs video booth and all amped up with a hard dick in hand , I would love for someone to come into my booth and give me a hj or bj. Hell, if horny enough, his dick might be in my mouth.
But 2 seconds after I cum from stroking, I think “ what was thinking “

it’s like ficking my wife. I plan to clean her pussy with my tongue of any cum… but 2 seconds after i cum, I think “Naw”

 

It's called Post Orgasm Dysphoria. It's when all the chemicals which build up during sexual arousal are dumped into the body causing an extreme rush of pleasure and euphoria before the ultimate crash and withdrawal. It's basically a mild form of depression and melancholy.

 

I'm someone who has come to understand the internalized homophobia that has been running my life since I was a little kid, preventing and repressing my same sex desires for the longest time, and then creating cognitive dissonance in me once I allowed myself to have gay thoughts and fantasies, with strong gay oral, anal and even romantic desires while watching gay porn and fantasizing, that would continuously drive me out looking for the real thing, only to lose all my desires for the naked guy in front of me, or his cock or ass, but still sucking his cock out of politeness. Back at home all the gay desires would always come flooding back, only to drive me out again, only to again disappoint myself. This kept happening over a period of 21 years and many hundreds of cocks in the bathhouses etc. And I also would experience the Post Orgasm Dysphoria, when I couldn't wait to get out of those places after cumming. I'd also experience it after cumming while jerking off to gay porn, feeling shame and having absolutely no desire to finish watching the video I had been watching, no desire to lie there imagining I was cuddling with a guy, and no desire to dive in to taste my cum which I always wanted to do pre-orgasm.

It was only when I was thousands of miles from home in a Berlin bathhouse that I allowed myself to experience intense desires for another guy's ass and finally losing my gay virginity, as a top. It actually turned out to be the greatest sexual experience of my life. It was all because I stopped repressing the gay side of my bisexuality. In fact, it was that event that allowed me to truly accept that gay side, and even loving it. I stopped all anonymous encounters and I've just been getting together with guys in each other's homes, always keeping my gay desires for them throughout the sex we enjoyed.

But even through all this it's taken me quite a while to allow my repressed desires for the rest of his body to manifest. But that has gradually improved as well. In fact, in the last two years I've even developed romantic crushes on a couple different guys, though unrequited. And I no longer experience any Post Orgasm Dysphoria. I love to cuddle with the guy I just had sex with, if he lets me. I have no problems passionately kissing him, sucking his cock and drinking his amazing cum after I have cum, and with intense desire. My gay desires stay just as strong after orgasm with a guy, just like my straight desires always did with a woman after orgasm. I can even go a second time with a guy after a little rest.

 

I really hope to get to be at peace with my desires for the same sex as you have become. Congratulations. It looks like it took some time and effort.

 

Yes I would

 

Was such a turn on, feeling him swell and my mouth filling with his cum, (he was a big cummer) I let it flow down his cock then kept sucking, tasted good actually which suprised me.
Next time I just swallowed every drop and di to this day, only had two that were not great taste, one was not good, the other I think was more me not fully into it on the day, but still swallowed both.