This is a tough one to answer. While I do enjoy my bisexuality, it it does cause me to be conflicted at times. I have learned over time my desires for both men and women won’t be ignored even though I have tried to live strictly as a straight man. The desire to be with a man always returns. Always. I suppose it would be easier if I wasn’t married, then it just wouldn’t be an issue. But as a married man whose wife would never understand it causes me to constantly be on guard to never let that side of me be visible to others. And from that point of view it might be easier to not have the desires I have. But if that were the case I would likely not have any sex at all since the wife isn’t interested in it at all. I have found it to be a double edged sword, I enjoy sex. And having it with a man feels good too. It does however have its downside for me.
I was married to a woman for 8 years, I'm 61 and I've been with my hubby for nearly 30 years. I thought I was bi, but I'm not, I'm gay and prefer it that way. Being gay hasn't brought me any pain, heartache, aggravation or hatred. I've never been a victim of hate crime, or made to feel anything other than accepted. 30 years ago I came out properly and stayed out. I'm not consciously 'straight acting' (I hate that phrase with a passion), I'm just me, and no one has ever had a problem with that. I wouldn't swap the last 30 years for anything. I definitely wouldn't want to be straight even if I could be.
........what it all boils down to, is, you ARE what you ARE.......and if "straight society" is ignorant enough and narrow-minded enough to frown upon your gay/bi liffestyle. well, that is THEIR problem, NOT yours. Despite many twists, turns, and unexpected detours, simply be YOURSELF and live your life with PRIDE and with DIGNITY.........