I have developed an eating disorder

I’m not sure my mom got another cat after rocky died I did not want another cat and my mom knew that

 

How is everyone doing?

 

Iv taken a break from the edibles all they are doing is giving me panic attacks now that I’m on a couple new anxiety meds better let me do it’s job I might do some chocolate on new years eve thinking about it but
Probe not I’m taking ride too the casino on new year eve getting away from my mom for the night will do me some good

 

I just don’t know what happened I got off my Ativan for a few months doing just edibles now they make me freak out then my mom found out I was doing them and her comments I went down for my birthday too see my sister and brothers in law I did all kinds of his gummy’s and this thc infuse oil with everclear strong shit and I didn’t freak out once but I was away from my mom and in a relaxed chilled environment away from my mom

 

Jennifer - the day is going well I’m doing some laundry ..listening to music …which I I did listen to randy Travis after you mentioned it…I love that song too ….

I Hope you are having a nice day today

 

This was my dads favorite movie and the song you are my sunshine it’s a screenshot I took check it out a very sad song

 

Yes I love that movie !

 

I'm good. I've really been enjoying the cold.

 

Hugs Jennifer

 

Thanks guys

 

HAPPIEST NEW YEAR

EAT EAT EAT BE MERRY

 

I’m not feeling well I have shortness of breath chest congestion I told my mom I was short of breath her suggested was turn up my oxygen and do my nebs

 

I’m going too the walk in clinic my shortness of breath is only getting worse and I have chest congestion took a COVID test it was negative

 

i eat tomany take aways i went from 14 stone to 17 stone not sure if i have an eating disorder

 

They sent me too the ER I’m a more complex patient then they could handle they got me on antibiotics and steroids I had RSV now I have lingering effects keep with my nebs and vest if not getting any better come back

 

What is tomany? And 14 stones

 

lol like 4 mcdonalds a week, once i found out mcdonalds deliver i was fked i weigh about 230 lbs now, guess 14 stone is about 170 ish

 

My highest weight was 170 but then I worked hard at losing weight I needed lose bunch of weight but Know I’m keep losing weight and thst not good I feel horrible eveytime time I eat now I feel bad about myself when I eat

 

Yeh im getting like that feeling bad, ive started starving myself, i feel as if now that i have a big stomache people talk to me different, i feel so ugly, i remember when i was skinny that fat people werent attractive, now i am that fat person sorta.

 

I’m so sorry you feel that way I do too