This is an interesting forum. I’ve had bi curious thoughts before but haven’t acted on them because I’m married.
Many of us have been in your shoes. Some refrained from acting upon them but many of us did so in secret. It's an individual choice to be made. I personally wasn't proud for doing so behind my 1st wife's back but it happened.
Yes, my partner knows I play. No secrets. If a guy’s partner does not know, we do not play. I do not cross that line. This is a big deal to me.
I still remember my first time i thought he was going to hurt me with his huge cock but when he pushed that baby in me oh did it feel good and it didn't hurt a bit! I came several times that night something I had never done when fucking my wife! After he came he went limb but only for a short time then he fucked me again! Wow I loved it! I became his pussy for sometime after that night!
First guy to fuck me was my boss when I was 18. He had a nice sized cock. Didn't measure it but figure on about 9 inches. It was a show-er.
First time I played with another guy it was an older guy ( about 15 yrs older) on craigslist. I went to his house and freaked out and left. Later that night I thought to myself "dont be such a pussy call him back and get him to meet public" so I did. He showed up and sucked my cock like I have never had before. It was amazing. He asked if I wanted to fuck him? I said no as I was still a bit hesitant and surprised not only that I went through with it but I had been missing out on the blow jobs of my life!!!! He swallows my load and we go our separate ways. About a a week and a half later I knew I need more. I call him again and he said sure I remember you but how about you come back to my place again as we will have more time and privacy. I said sure and met him there. He started again to suck my balls except this time he started to lick my ass aswell from time to time. That's when I thought wow. This is great what have I really missed out on. He swallows my load and I leave pretty soon after. About 2 weeks go by. I'm getting pretty full again so I call him up and he says come around. I get there and we go through the same thing nut this time he starts to finger my ass. At first I shy away and he stopped and goes back to working my cock in his mouth. I'm in heaven!!!! Then he asked again if I wanted to fuck him and that he had condoms. A said fuck yes!!!!!. I fuck him and when I slide in I'm really seeing what if been missing. I want more I must have more is all tjat went through my head. After meeting him for months of this we decided to get rid of the condoms and I'm proud to say that I have seeded his ass ever since. I makes it really fun when the wife wants to be a prude!
I'm a older guy in my sixties and the guys I've been with are way younger then me the youngest was in his thirties wow he fucked me like I never been fucked before! Younger guys seem to go after me I don't know why but they do! I've gone black several times and dam are they big real big at least the ones I've been with are and they know how to fuck a guy and with out hurting me and can they cum big time but I manage to swallow every drop they give me!