No More

Yeah... but maybe she'll stumble upon an epiphany while drunk that'll give her a new lease on life.

 

You're going to have to be blunt, I'm too dumb to parle your metaphor talk...

 

it is much more than heartbreak

heartbreak i can get over, but my soul will eventually shatter

 

Lets hope so... I'm just hoping I didn't make things worse already...

Sooty's awesome.

 

Maybe the death of your soul will be your evolution...

 

BTDT...

It's too bad he doesn't give a shit about you, me, or anyone else for that matter...I tried to get through, but I can only give so much.

I'll even let you join my "I loved him so damn much it fucking took over my world, then he fucking spit in my face for no reason club". I am the god damn president! We can sit up all night talking about all the cute things he said that made us fall for him! WOO!

Swallow your tears and move on...

I did.

It is all you can do...he is going to do what he does. Don't let him drag you down with him.

And yes, "J", I do still care for you, but I lost you long ago and there is nothing I can do except say that I wish you the best.

 

i dont belong in that club. im sorry for what happened to you but i do not feel the same way.

 

Exactly my point. Except I prefer swallowing beers to swallowing tears

 

Then, how do you feel? Nothing's incurable, ya know?

 

Or nyquil if you're outta beer.

 

You are lucky you don't know everything there is to know about what has happened in the past 6 months. Ignorance is bliss. And I don't mean that in an offensive way. I respect you, but I don't think you understand. I am actually glad you don't have any bad feelings toward him. It really saves you in the pain department...trust me.

 

this is incurable

 

I don't really care what happened in the past 6 months, i can guess but it doesnt change a thing to me anyway. im sorry that you harbour ill will but its really nothing to do with me. i dont judge people on things that occured in their past.

 

how so?

I appreciate you wanting to be vague and poetic, but I'd like to help.

 

So you're kinda broken, but I still think you're really cool.

... And too strong to be broken forever... whether you believe it or not.

 

Yep. She's tough.

But look, Sooty, if you depend upon a person, and re-evaluate your memories with that person to determine your own worth/conscience/whatever, it is a sign of a dependent self-consciousness.

(I'm not sure if that's what you're doing, but you wouldn't tell me, so I took a guess)

 

nothing you can do or say can help me and nothing i can do or say can help me either. all i can do is attempt to guard myself and become colder inside which usually i am skilled at. but this even is too much for me to guard from and ive already failed in concealing my emotions physically and mentally.

 

So you're still human... It happens to the best of us.

There are still things it better to be apart of...

I dunno if you believe me, and whats worked for me might not work for you.

And you can give up all hope if you want to... just believe in yourself.

 

sometimes and now quite often i wish i wasnt

 

becoming cold does you no good, becoming wiser does you a lot better.

Coldness doesn't do it... what you need is vivacity for life and alacrity toward achieving your goals (and since you're an ambitious Uni student in an ambitious program, I assume that your goals go beyond just getting married and having kids, etc)

And you can interpret the tragedy as a learning experience, and it can be interpreted as such only if it is analysed in a purely rational retrospect, which means cleansing yourself of residual emotion. It is a hard process but everytime they creep into your head, you must say to yourself that they wil not affect your present mood , for I am rational and sane, and I will try my best to preserve my rationality and sanity. Then you can analyse them and learn from it, and the lessons vary from person to person, and tragedy to tragedy.

Just remember that human emotionality is something to be trancended and not something to wallow in...

..and don't hide your emotions. When you lie to others, you might be lying to yourself as well, and we are usually such self-convincing liars, that we mistake the lie for truth and confuse the heck out of ourself, we might not do this consciously but our unconscious is very easily fooled.And always align your emotions to match your best interests.

Lastly, don't despair, despair is the ultimate breach of rationality.