I This What I'm Looking For!?

Hey everyone,

I'm not good with introductions.

I am a young person seeking answers to the past. A big part of what has had a defining effect on me growing up has been: THE COUNTER-CULTURE, and any and all who really dared to ask questions, and fathom a world not like this.

And honestly, I am finding myself in a time in my life where I just feel so alone.

I have never liked, nor could relate or make sense of 'society'

and to what now I would label "the status quo" and honestly, this is the best way to describe. It's a way of being and thinking that has largely, without evne questioning been accpeting by in large, and the mass majority of people I have encountered, and even places, as simply "the way things are" or "reality"

and when I used to always struggle with this? what? "just the way things are?" what does that even mean....wait! there's no such thing, isn't there? that is the epitome of ignorance. Nothing is ever simply just "the way things are" wow, the world has really lost any sort of on going debate or discussion or any real voices of change, outside of the box thinking, or new ideas.

And god help me, I feel so stifled ,and alone in this.

Becaue all I ever find is "this is just the way things are" and I won't accept that. But because of things like this, I feel really stuck in life.

Is this really a place where I can bring fourth my curiosity with a great number of questions...?

Please help. And thanks.

Yeah, I guess I'm new.

 

I hope so; and how young are you?

 

Erm, well I am not that young actually.

I am 24. So maybe I sound retarded. I suppose what I really meant to get at was that I feel as though I am coming into myself as a person, and am at this point where for once I feel like my real voice is being awakened inside of me, but it`s a really fragile thing right now. Don`t get me wrong, I`ve always had it, but`s been one more so of...a way sign, or the sense when things weren;t right.

And the thing is...It`s never been right. And that`s because I`ve had to own it, you know. Ì`ve had to own my inner voice. The part that society wants to stamp out and silence inside of me; but for whatever reason can`t. I can`t let this all go because for the time things have felt right inside me.

And I am still trying to sort out my values a bit, and I felt like this place might be a really good place for that. Because that``s the thing...I don`t think most people even know where I`m coming from half the time when I am explaing, or even just being myself...

So I suppose I am looking for a more solidified, sense of self. But before I can own myself, it seems like the world is always trying to make me into somebody I am not. It`s so frustating.


But see, I wouldn`t even be able to talk about half of the stuff in most places without just being completely written off (or at least in the way that I write it, and go about explaing and expressing myself. (Because, you know it`s nor overly formal, or `proper)

 

You don't sound retarded at all.

This is a good place to your curiosity. Even if you don't ask a lot of questions you'll be exposed to a lot of different ideas.

 

And welcome to hf

 

Also, my keyboard is broken. I can`t type properly.

 

Lol, my keyboard is working fine, but I can't type properly most of the time.

 

So, is it fair to say that some of the posters know a bit about `counter-culture`and just in general àlternative`type stuff.

Because that`s basically what it is I wanted to talk about (not here of course)

and I don`t mean just in a sense, historical facts, or in a superifical, fashion, niche way.

 

Haha, this even feels like one of the only àlternative`sites on the internet, besides actual self proclaimed alternative music magazine and zines.

 

You'll likely find at least one member for each topic of discussion that you can imagine.

I'm guessing you'll find what you want, or you'll find that you want something different.

 

Now was that;

This is what im looking for

Or

Is this what I'm looking for

??

 

Welcome to HF GhostShadow you can be yourself on here.

 

erm

man i hate that "word"



welcome to hipforum eh

 

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