I'm A Drug Addict. What's Your Drug Of Choice?

I've come to the realization that I'm a drug addict. For me, I think it's best at this juncture to not try and dissect what my drug of choice is or what drugs I may or may not be able to 'function' on. I think for the time being, they are potentially all detrimental to me and probably not benefitting me.

I'm not taking an anti-drug stance as a philosophy, I think many drugs have tremendous upsides and benefits for those who can use them responsibly and with proper intentions and I would like to explore them again eventually. However I see the current path I'm on as self destructive and inching closer to Cosmoknot type abuse, which those of us who knew him saw how that ended. However in typical justified addict sense, I will likely still have a drink here and there.

 

I have a few.. Though it depends a lot on what is happening around me.

 

I think I have a mild version of it, and it mainly involves two things, my keys and my wallet. I'm constantly checking my wallet for my drivers license and ATM card, even at home when my wallet has been sitting in plain view for hours. I just keep checking. And when I'm out somewhere, like a store, my hand is constantly going to my pocket to feel for my keys, which I'm sure looks suspicious to any employee who happens to be watching. I just can't help myself. I'm kind of the same way about my stove and oven. Before going to bed I have to verify my stove is off 5-6 times sometimes before I can relax and go to bed. I've seen worse though. I remember watching a documentary on the subject once and there was this poor guy who never got a good nights sleep because he was constantly getting up to make sure the fringes on a particular rug were absolutely straight. I remember thinking, why not just get rid of that rug and get one with no fringes to worry about?

 

mine are tea nicotine and love.

 

this is a very powerful insight gurillabedlam. i wish you all the best

 

My drug of choice is alcohol, but I’m trying to recover now. At the moment I'm seeking for treatment. I've been reading a lot of websites, searching some stuff about treatment program, but still undecided whether I should take a treatment outside hometown in order to avoid distraction or just attend some Alcoholic Treatment Addiction program here in our place. I'm just hoping for the best right now. But determination is all I need right? I kind a want somebody to cheer me because I want a better life than this.

 

Weed
Booze
MDMA
2cb

 

My drug of choice would definitely be pot but I would be hesitant to call myself an "addict". That word to be implies that it interferes with your life and it has a degree of control over you. I am able to stop smoking when I want (although I still think of being stoned) and I don't have any of the withdraws other people describe such as a lack of appetite.

I've used pretty much every drug there is but heroin and meth. And I probably for a bit of meth at times in all the ecstasy pills I have taken and did my fair share of Oxy so basically heroin. I like to occasionally use a psychedelic or roll but nothing keeps me coming back like weed.

The good stuff would amaze you. But you don't see the good stuff unless you are real close in the chain to Mexicans. I've had women offer me all sorts of "favors" we shall say for coke. People get high and they just never want to come down. I've seen people spend hundreds in a night. I sort of helped some one sell it for a short time and you see some things. I still regret doing it to this day. I genuinely worried if these people would OD. I was sad to see them come back 2 hours later for more but also happy to see they are not dead.

 

I'm a checker.
Takes me a long time to feel comfortable in leaving the house etc.

 

COFFEE!

 

I'm a checker too. Before leaving I have to make sure (a few times) the tv is on and a couple lights, so it looks like someone is home. That's because of the kind of town I live in. Also, if I go somewhere at night, when I get to the parking lot I always look back several times to make sure my headlights are off. As for drug of choice, I guess Hydrocodone, which I take for pain. I have degenerative disc disease, arthritis, diabetic neuropathy and gout, and the Hydro's and other meds such as Gabapentin and Tramadol improve my quality of life somewhat.

 

So you are a rich person. Cocaine is for the rich

 

I am addicted to coffee and my tobacco pipe. Been thinking of vaping lately, but it's not the same maoi Rush. I used to use cannabis and psycadelics much, even some cocaine. I miss those days!

 

I guess Hydro's. I take them for pain, but one side effect of them is a warm, glowing feeling of euphoria that I'd be lying if I said I didn't love. It's a two-sided coin, though. A warm blissful feeling but also kind of like a mousetrap for humans.

 

Cafeine, Nicotine, Alcohol.