Psychedelic Bump XXXIV

yeah..it's pretty amazing to look up at the night sky and be able to see the haze of the milky way. and on a head full of LSD, it's even more mindblowing.

 

I still haven't gotten the chance to trip since the lunar eclipse

Im now 2 weeks clean from amphetamines. As of late meth has been my DOC. Its been rough, especially since my GF and I have been arguing and everything has been pretty volatile. Anywho, she didn't want me home last night so I hung out with a couple of friends and was offered some Adderall which was insanely hard to turn down but I'm so glad that I did. I stayed out all night and ended up at my best friends place where he lives with 2 of my other good friends. I finally came clean to the other 2 that I've been using meth. That was a huge relief. So now all of my friends know as well as my father and my GFs mom. I dont want to think I can get away with it. The more people that know the better. I've been a frequent user of stims for 2 years and meth for a few months. Its been hard as hell but Im ready to take it head on. I'm 20 years old and I have a life to live

Guess Im posting this just to vent a bit. I want to use pretty bad right now but talking about it helps me see the light on the other side of the tunnel. To make it Psychedelic bump worthy:
Bump for about 30mg of MXE earlier on tonight when the cravings were unbearably strong.

 

good to see you back around the forums, man. and good to see that you are getting yourself clean from drugs that are no good for you. i'd wish you luck, but i don't think it's about luck - it's about staying strong and trying not to put yourself in situations where you'll be tempted to use.
but it's also pretty unrealistic to think that you're gonna stop being friends with your friends because they happen to use stimulants. that is if they are your TRUE friends.

anyways, stay strong man!


i think i might "bump" 2 or 3 hits of L this saturday. i REALLY wanna trip before all the colorful leaves are gone...and i think they are on the decline. so is the nice weather, so this weekend it may be

 

It's so nice to see that it is mostly the same people from years ago around here.

Btw, Superpsychme, If you ever need anyone to talk to that understands addiction feel free to HMU. I was a needle using Opiate/Heroin addict for years. I know it's not speed but recovery is still the same, A BITCH! lol

Anyway, Love you guys!

 

well, bump for not tripping again. my cat went missing late thursday night so i was obviously not in the emotional condition to trip. i DID consider taking 1/2 or even 1/3rd of a hit and going to look for him, since LSD seems to improve my visual sensitivity. but i decided that was probably a bad idea.

thankfully, he just returned home a few minutes ago. my wife and i went from heartbroken to elated!

 

Been busy with programming in College so I didn't have much time to post. Decided to quit my occasional opiate use too as my body can't handle it at random intervals. Also started a small RC shop that's not doing too bad at all for the first few weeks of operation.

Bump for arrival of: DPT freebase, DMT freebase, MET, 25i-NBOMe, 25C-NBOMe, 25G-NBOMe, Proscaline, Escaline, Methallylescaline, 4-AcO-DALT, 4-AcO-MET, 4-AcO-MiPT, 5-MeO-MiPT, 6-MAPB & Some Good ol Lucy as well as a couple of her sisters! Any recommendations to try on that list? I'm busy and can't get up to that much tripping except for at a Freakshow Carnivale in Toronto on Halloween. There'll be fire breathers, sword swallowers, trapeze artists, contortionists the lot! Very excited, never been to a Carnivale, let alone a spooky themed one!

Yay Porkstock, such a win! Happy he came back home! Good on ya too Superpsych, friends of mine quit meth a year or two ago and it was hard, but it's never worth it to be high on tweak for hours on end. As you probably know, those people that love you will disappear one by one if you continue to use, so I'm glad you were open with them and let them know what was going on so you can start healing.

 

Kids with her mom for haloween and she's been planning it out to take her somewhere or something, which will make it harder for her to ditch and get wasted at the last minute. I might try to find something out and about to do, and break my current lonely cycle of sitting around waiting for baby-momma to make some mess I have to clean up, to be rewarded with more vitriol. I'd be happy to even see anyone, and do something non-psychedelic like drink some beer.

Or, if I end up alone (as I assume I will) I might play with morning glory.

 

damn, roorshack..i didn't know you had a child. mine is gonna be here REAL soon.

i might end up tripping on halloween too, since the last two weekends didn't work out...

 

I read in a Vice article that since 2009 (the past 5 years) "243 new drugs have appeared." I guess that means drugs that have made it into some degree of circulation vs. ones that have been created, but not widely used, as in some of Shulgin's work.

I wonder how many have been discussed on this forum.

http://www.vice.com/read/good-news-drug-users--silk-road-is-back

 

ate a hit and a half of acid last sunday...was a pretty fun time. tripping feels so fleeting to me lately. even on something long lasting like LSD, it feels like the trip just flies by and i wanna do it again soon after it's over. i think this time the feeling was amplified by the fleeting hours of daylight. there wasn't a whole lot of time to play around outside before it got dark.

i had to go to lab on sunday and take care of my cells. i dosed when i still had about 30-40 minutes left at work...started feeling it kinda strong before i was done and went into a slight panic thinking "i gotta get the fuck outta here!"

then i rode my bike along the river trail to downtown, so that i could find the courthouse where i would have to report to jury duty the next morning haha.

then i just cruised around on my bike, went through the cemetery a little bit, admiring the fall colors, which was partly why i wanted to trip so bad recently. i posted some pictures in another thread here [taken the day of my trip]: http://www.hipforums.com/forum/topic/463640-recent-photographs-fall-edition/?p=7651935
and here [taken a couple days before]: http://www.hipforums.com/forum/topic/463640-recent-photographs-fall-edition/?p=7651298

soon it was getting dark, and i biked around a little more through these trails in the woods. i had to have my headlight on to even pretend to be able to see. then i made my way back home and had a pretty normal, chill night. until my "friend" came over to smoke some weed, offended my wife, and was called a "fucking piece of shit" by her in return. he decided to show himself out, and i don't think we are friends anymore.

 

Remember, jury nullification.

It is your duty, no matter what the judge or prosecutor tells you, to judge the law and it's application in that particular case - it's better to let someone who is guilty of something go free, than it is to apply the wrong or too harsh a penalty to someone - that's the only way to fight back on "tough on crime" bullshit - make it so they can't be "tough" if they want to prosecute successfully at all.

 

i got excused since my wife is 36 weeks pregnant. the defendant had allegedly punched a cop. i would have done my best to find him not guilty but the prosecutor would have likely figured that out in the interviews and dismissed me for it.

 

No big bumps for me except for a daily habit of kratom I have really grown to enjoy. 1.5-3g in the morning is a great way to start the day. Discovered that eating it in yoghurt is the best way I've tried thus far. Works really well with my overactive intestines (ibs) by constipating me a little.

Bump for spending considerable amount of time in a nursing home. Now that is psychedelic, let me tell you. Our society is FUCKED when it comes to ideas about death and dying; I wouldn't wish a nursing home on my worst enemy (and this is a GOOD one). It would be my honor, priviledge, and pleasure to take the life of a loved one or myself, and give them a good death when they decide the time has come. We do the same for our beloved pets, but deny our fellow humans this blessed option.

I have decided that, if things come to it, and I am able to, my last trip on this earth will be one of pure nitrogen gas through a gas mask (what the hell, while on heroin).

 

i had a "psychedelic" moment on my way to work this morning. as i was biking past a line of trees i couldn't help but notice their individuality. these trees are all the same species and were planted in an orderly arrangement. but as i passed each one, i was noticing their differences - mostly in the arrangement of their branches, and how the branches split from the main trunk. just figured i'd share that with you guys.

well that doesn't sound so fun. (i suppose that's what the last part is for.)

so are you working at the nursing home, writer?
sounds like you are finding your new career rewarding. good for you, man.

 

In a manner of speaking I am, though it is only a temporary position, I am still very much in search of work in my field. Tough time with that. It is still very rewarding though, and I'm doing volunteering at a hospital as well, which is amazing. I glow like an mdma high from just smiling at a patient and having them smile back, maybe the first time someone has made them smile in a few hours of painful treatment and lonely thoughts. It's highly addictive.

 

I'm glad you're enjoying that position writer. As far as the comment goes about not suffering at the end of your life I definitely see where you're coming from. I've definitely pondered the idea because on one hand it must be so confusing if you have a serious mental handicap like dementia or Alzheimer's or a debilitating physical condition, but then I also feel like it's really important to be present for that final moment of life. So much insight and realization comes from that moment. Of course, if you are basically a vegetable you may not have much of an experience so maybe the ethical route is a smart option. Hopefully I don't ever get to that point or die instantly from something because I really want to have that last moment before entering the unknown.

 

Honestly, for most people, that last moment comes when you're barely conscious or aware of your surroundings.

 

Yup, it's a fact. Pop, why do you think you'll suddenly gain some knowledge moments before your death? Moments before your death, when you're dying, it's just all kinds of mental nonsense going on from misfiring brain circuits and failing organs, a kind of hodgepodge of signals from busted transmitters finally dying.

 

Probably would have. I got dismissed because on the questionnaire I filled out I said "I look forward to saving an innocent citizen from corupt police". I knew that would ruffle some feather but it was true. I will believe the citizen before the cop every time. The women next to me was excused because she said the person looked like her nephew so she assumed he was a bad person. It doesn't take much.

 

...so where do you think I would've put my shit if I was really high at my grammas house last night?