The magic mushroom universe game

THE ETERNAL GAME 2​

Don't try too early in the trip experience,
After the halfway point when things start to get calmer and you mind starts to see things clearer,
Then sit down and begin your clearing meditation,
Too early and the mind will be racing,
(If your just experimenting with mushrooms, be aware that you might think the trip experience finishes after several hours, but it hasn't,
you'll still feel a mild effect for a few day's after, make the most of the drug while it's still inside you.
This is the best time to learn how to meditate.
Try not to give in to the pleasures of the flesh too early, I know life's fun with a million pleasures, but the day after taking is a really crucial time to learn how to hold your mind with stillness and to see your mind as a mirror),
Then at the absolute peak of the spiritual trip, before enlightenment,
at the point when your mind mirror is clearing of thoughts of the imaginitive mind,
when time is beginning to be transcended,
Your mind/mirror, should be reflecting, with a brightness, with an intensity that is so acute, if you reach this high state of spiritual consciousness.
you will know, that it is your mind reflecting the world, reflecting all senses, with an unbelievable intensity of perception.​

PATIENTLY WATCH,​

Patiently wait,​

Watch and control your mind,
You need to clean that mirror using clarity of vision,
I know holding stillness and holding the senses of perception, till you create tranquillity of mind and perfection of mirror, takes some doing, but the use of Shrooms will help you to this spiritual state of mind, and the ultimate spiritual experience of, entering Nirvana, will begin to happen,​

As mind clears and becomes free of the imperfections of the imaginative mind, and imaginative thought,
Original, Pure, Clarity of mind will open the gateway to enlightenment,
Watch the purity of the mirror turn into LOVE,​

Hold pureness of mind till it turns into LOVE,​

Because your mind is made from Nirvana, just let it return to it's natural state,​

You'll feel your body turning into the "BLACK PURE LOVE",​

It's intense, (and for me was sexual), keep cleaning your mind and focus on turning into the pureness,
Watch mind as love, begin to merge, with mind as universal LOVE,​

Turning to PURITY, entering, becoming Nirvana.​

You'll be seeing and feeling the clarity of senses turning into pure love,

Your whole body is on the cusp of turning into pure LOVE,

Don't be afraid of the "DARK LOVE"; Dip your toes in,​

You should be aware of your body beginning to disappear,​

It will be LOVE merging with LOVE,​

You'll be feeling the pureness of Nirvana, as it rises from beneath,

You'll feel it rising up your body,
(you can play with it at this stage, how far you let it up your body is up to you; you can send it, "NIRVANA", back down if you like,
Then you'll have to figure out just exactly how you managed to hold your mind, to accept it again, but once you've figured it out once, you'll "KNOW WHAT TO DO". So dip your toes in again, as much as you like, till you've played enough, till you come to the point where it reaches your mind,
Then you decide,​

DO I GO IN????? ​

Well of course you DO!!!!!!!!!!

Mind will be the last thing to enter,
to merge and become,
ONE with the pureness of Nirvana.

Don't be afraid of the unknown destination,
if your doing it right, you'll know it's right.
If it feels wrong, then be patient, keep trying, return to meditation, on the clarity of pureness.
You need to be prepared to give/release yourself to "IT".​

 

THE ETERNAL GAME 3

From a Transvestite perspective, because we're the universe,
manifesting as both sexualities, at the top of the tip of the wave of time;
at the height of material/spiritual evolution;
any sexual longing/urges you have, to be made love to, are all part of the creation process, and inherent within us, but, also designed to lead us to this spiritual union with Nirvana.
What happens in between, is only,
"Playing in the Burning House".
The evolution of a world;
is producing a mind capable of gaining enlightenment, and,
Living/experiencing all the events, prior to all that leads us to this point of enlightenment, and when we reach the "AGE/STAGE/LEVEL" when enlightenment is possible,
Then this is the realm of the "ETERNAL BURNING HOUSE",
and we play the games of life in the burning house level.
If you reach the "OH NO, NOT THIS AGAIN STAGE,"
then overcome the repetition of the "FAMILIAR ROOM," move on from this stage, by continually concentrating on LOVE,
When you reach the stage of a high end spiritual trip, (prior to enlightenment, (when you begin to walk in continuous time, with some sort of realisation,
that this is somehow always existing,
When travelling in a trip, through the wave of time,
In the direction of Nirvana,
To the highest spiritual level,
when your almost as far as you can get, to Nirvana, as a being, without gaining enlightenment,
As a being; When your at the point of seeing it;
As being a being,
that's somehow always eternally walking;
in a universe of eternal happenings and events.
The level as seeing all as "MIND ONLY",
or seeing all, as the eternal "FAMILIAR CITY",

or the "ETERNALLY EXISTING BURNING HOUSE LEVEL",

or, the corridor of experiencing this state of the clear everlasting timeless place,
or as,

"THE NEVER ENDING CYCLE OF ETERNITY",


THE NEVER ENDING EXPERIENCE, OF ARRIVING AT THIS, "FAMILIAR PLACE",


The eternal time of perpetually living in night and day.
Time here almost stands still,
It's the time of seeing the, "ANCIENT ETERNAL MIRROR",
Light reflects inside the mind with a bright, clear, clarity.

The CATHEDRAL LIKE, REFLECTIVITY OF WORLD INSIDE MIND,

This is the eternal realisation moment,
This is the point of seeing it, as GAME LEVEL,
This is the layer of time, the infinite point of time,
when as the universe, because we're sentient beings, created anew, throughout eternity,
we only ever perceive this stage of awareness, as the eternal GAME STAGE,
It just keeps creating, it's what's "always been,"
It always appears the same, in it's feeling of eternal timelessness and supreme clarity,
and is perceived with an eternal,
always arriving at this point/place/layer of time, feeling.
The point, at which we know, that we are part of eternal time.
Because the universal's multiply by infinity, every sight and every sound, that you see and hear, might feel like continuous repetition of events,
Your in the "INSTANT OF ETERNITY,"
In the almost timeless stage before enlightenment,
This is the point at which we know, that there's something special, that needs to be figured out.

WE ARE ALWAYS A NEW BEING, ARRIVING AT THIS POINT, FOR ETERNITY.

This is the eternal layer/stage of awareness.
The layer of perception of being a being, that's somehow eternally walking,

THE ETERNAL SPIRITUAL STAGE, OF BEING A SENTIENT BEING, ALWAYS BEING IN THIS LAYER OF TIME BEFORE ENLIGHTENMENT.

This is the point, when you'll figure out, that something truly magical is possible.
The ultimate reason for the journey into the feminine is spiritual union.
It is you as the female force in Spiritual/Material nature, joining with the purity of Nirvana.

Spiritual, "LOVEMAKING WITH THE UNIVERSE",

It is the Universe/Nirvana entering you,
You accept it, but will then realise it was you as the universe all along,
Because this is the way that it always happens,
It's been "this way," for ever, and ever, and ever.

 

THE ETERNAL GAME 4

Our eyes, that look out on the world,
are the eye's of the Universe/Nature looking out at itself,
Only ever cognitising the games of life in the body of a sentient being,
only ever perceiving existence at this ETERNAL stage of awareness,
in a sentient being,



ALWAYS ARRIVING, at this level/place, of awareness/time/becoming,
throughout infinite TIME.



It's what happens for infinity,
and once you've gained enlightenment, you'll know that when you look out at nature, you'll be looking at yourself.
Especially in those initial moments after enlightenment,
of experiencing Nirvana, when you've just been the infinite pure Ocean of LOVE,
and then come through/been the waterfall of time,
that gives birth to material nature,
and your seeing nature as absolute LOVE,
with absolute clear vision;

You'll just be a pair of eye's in nature,
Being part of the body of nature,

Looking out on yourself, as nature, as all you see.

Knowing that everything is made of bright, clear, translucent pure LOVE,
and it's the richest, greatest experience there is,

knowing your this for eternity.

Knowing your this cycle for eternity.

Knowing that this has existed for ever.

Knowing that this is what you always experiences and see, at his moment in time, as being the Universe, after gaining enlightenment.

Then you get up again, and then you walk,
like you always walk,
and then you live,
like you always live,
as best you can.

 

THE ETERNAL GAME 5

Of course, it's only what I think, and I'm trying to describe, what I've experienced and think I know, as best I can, (with my simple grasp of language, I'm well below average intelligence, the working cogs of the world leave me baffled,
I'm just a Transvestite since a very early age,
who grew up to know an overwhelming sensitivity of lightness of touch,
who experiences the joy of femininity,
who knows the power of the all female conquering horn, and it's SUPER NOVA like ejaculation, and of course,
who watches and holds stillness of mind and vision;
words ain't me, but,
It becomes a game of realising where you are,
It becomes a game of realising your in the same place you've always been.
There is no other place to be,
Your always in the same place,
There is nowhere else you could possibly be,
we've always been here,

going through the cycles of life for eternity.


THE PATH TO THE SPIRITUAL REALM IS FOUND; IF YOU MANAGE TO CLEAR YOUR MIND CORRECTLY, SO THAT IT SHINES WITH DIAMOND LIKE CLARITY, THEN

YOU ARE ALWAYS THE UNIVERSE, BEING A BEING, COMING TO THIS HIGH END OF CONCIOUSNESS, IN A MAGIC MUSHROOM UNIVERSE TRIP AND REALISING, YOUR HERE, AT THIS POINT IN TIME AGAIN.

THE MAGIC MUSHROOM TRIP NEVER ENDS; YOU ARE ETERNALY THE UNIVERSE, AS A BEING, INSIDE THE TRIP.

EVERY TIME YOU TAKE MAGIC MUSHROOMS AND ACHIEVE THE SPIRITUAL, "MIND ONLY" STATE, YOUR ENTERING THE ETERNAL GAME LAYER OF TIME. THE LAYER OF TIME BEFORE ENLIGHTENMENT.

ETERNALLY COMING THROUGH THE LAYER OF TIME, (FROM WORLD LEVEL), TO BE THE UNIVERSE, AS "A BEING," INSIDE A TRIP, IN THE "ETERNAL TIME" OF REALISATION, THAT YOUR IN THE SAME PLACE FOR ETERNITY.

Always at the point of immaculate perception of vision and time,
but always a new experience, for a new being.
It's all part of the cycle,
When you realise this, you'll get a sinking feeling in you guts,
you'll realise your back in this place again.
but realising your somehow, kind of, going through the life process for eternity is always a bit of a shock, (even when you experience it for the infenetest of times, it's always new).
It always has been,
True paranoia in a trip is this, (not just delusional, imaginative manifestation, hallucenegenic creation of mind paranoia),
It's experiencing the "FAMILIAR ROOM,"
If you get this far you'll probably forget what you've seen, when you come out of the trip,
That's just the way it works,
But I've seen, and I remember the game at the centre of the universe,
I remember the "FAMILIAR CITY LAYER OF TIME."
But like I've said, if your scared,
Remember the universe is LOVE,
what awaits you, is greater than great,
your gonna see that the universe is made of beautiful pure LOVE,
and there's nothing greater than,
Being that.

It's the ultimate true magic of returning to source,
Returning to the Ocean of unending purity, that's Nirvana,
The eternal game stage/level of a trip, is just before it's possible to gain enlightenment.
If you think your just a being,
being a being,
in linear time on a planet,
then think again,
your in/at the level/stage, of eternally being the universe, walking in the burning house,

Your the Universe, perpetually being a being,
perpetually existing at this stage/level,
walking through time for eternity.

We're not just actors in the shadows,
we're players in the light.
(Don't forget, that though your at the level, when all is seen as "MIND,"
your still a being that exists by the laws of the material world, and that your body, is still, a living breathing thing, susceptable to mortal frailties and mortality).
But, this is, when all is seen as mind,
when you'll be feeling spiritual love, surging through you,
waiting to burst out.
If your like me, then all the female energy, that's been overpowering you, throughout your life, comes to fruition at this time,
It's overpowering intensity is beyond words,
and that's the beauty of this stage,
you won't get "IN," unless your accepting of LOVE,
and of acceptance to make spiritual LOVE,

For a Transvestite the moments before enlightenment are like,
sexual/spiritual foreplay between you and Nirvana,
It's a fail safe mechanism,
you won't experience ultimate LOVE, with hate in your heart, (how could you),

You'll feel that what's hidden inside yourself, is ultimate LOVE,
and this LOVE, will be bursting with anticipation to join with the ultimate love, that awaits,
In the PURITY, that we've named NIRVANA,

and that's what the female inside you, has been building up to and waiting to do, all your life,
and if, like me, you've lived with self hatred, self harm and suicide,
then all the pain and hurt, that you've gone through,
ends in experiencing this ULTIMATE LOVE,
This is about you turning into PURE LOVE,
If you hit the trip, to all the right requirements, that the Universe accepts,

Love will be shining through you, with an indescribable intensity.



Indescribable,


overpowering femininity,


will be flowing through you,


YOU'LL BE THE FEMININE GODDESS/FORCE THAT EXISTS AT THIS SPIRITUAL LEVEL OF CONCIOUSNESS, READY TO MAKE LOVE WITH THE UNIVERSE.

THE LAYER OF THE SPIRITUAL FEMALE WOMB OF NATURE


IT'S THE GAME OF LOVE THAT ETERNALLY PLAYS OUT, AT THIS ULTIMATE, INFINITE, MOMENT BEFORE ENLIGHTENMENT

THE ULTIMATE INFINITE GAME, OF BECOMING PURE LOVE, AT THE INSTANT OF ETERNAL TIME.



It's enlightenment Level,

It's a game of eternal creation,

It's a game of eternal realisation,

Because the Universe always recreates,
we always find ourselves as eternally being,
Sentient beings,
On the crest of the wave of time,
Ready to gain Enlightenment.
then this makes it a game ,
of always figuring out,

that this,
is what's always going on,
That Life in the Universe, is,
and always has been,

"THE ENLIGHTENMENT GAME"

Round and round, as if in a circle it goes,
Again and again and again, for infinity,
we slowly crawl out of the darkness,
of being created anew, on a new planet,
(Are you getting it yet????????????)
(Hello Again)

So it might sound like a daunting, impossible thing, to try to do,
but when you think your minds ready,
to make spiritual Love with the Universe,
and you've figured out, that you have to, "sit down to do it",
Then look at it like this,

You've been the Universe,
being a being,
at this point in time,
an infinite amount of times,
and you/we, (eventually), manage to figure it out,
"as new beings," (how to gain Nirvana),
and we have figured it out, (as new beings),
an infinite amount of times before,

and we have figured it out, because,


"WE ARE THIS",


The way is there; if you look.
Clear the way.

When push comes to shove;

Be the pure LOVE, not the thought.

Become the purity of Nirvana, as it presents itself to you,




Hope this Helps,


Lots of Love


and BIG HUGS


Lottie

 

Hey SkyPilot ~ just posting that I was by and read enough. Hope it goes well with you there, I have beaten away some of my loneliness and am being a more real part of other lives. A bother, but it's all we can do. Cheers!

 

Cheers right back to you brother

You ain't no bother

 

Just wondering?

If anyone that read all five "ETERNAL GAME" posts.
Whether they begin to make any sense?
Cause I think at last, I'm beginning to get across what I actually mean and want to say.

Do they make sense?
Or do they still sound like Gobbledygook?

Which bits still don't make sense?

THANKS

Lottie

 

If your ever walking, in these here woods,

I found this old picture of me,

I'm the girl, bottom right, on the left of the two,
It's me to a T,
(Well, it is what I am),
Check out me dress,
It's all the rage,
The vagina with a bunch of flowers design,

My flower's an upright flower design,
Buzz, buzz, buzz,

Sacred Mushrooms of the goddess, secrets of Eleusis.
Look it up on Amazon,

Not that I've read the book,
I already know what's hidden inside, of me,





A few lines of salty zen, that's all!
It's not too much to ask!!!!!!




Knock, knock! knock at the door,
Ding, dong! chimes at the door,
Brrring, brrrring! ring of the phone,
Tweet, tweet, songs of the birds,
Buzz, buzz, buzz! buzz of the bee




What can you see????????????

Show me your zen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you see what cant be seen???????????
Show me what you know, of what's hidden
inside,
behind
and beyond.




This has been a zloty production
Thank you very much

 

Hey you... I just joined this site to contact you. Send me a message, please,.. RE "The pure sound of heart's resonance, which is supreme, and "normal reality", being unborn is without conception within the pure void".

ps, I'm on TVchx but don't really hang out there... Just read your post there from last year.

edit: my account here isn't activated for pm or something. I do hope you'll be in contact with me later.

 

Hey, sweetheart child of mushroom, I have to donate just to pm you? hmmm... not sure I'll do that!

We'll find a way, huh ?

 

Man has it pissed down,
Brings on lovely fresh mush though,
Magic mushroom mountain never fails me,
Has we talked before?
What's me favourite band?

I think if you make enough posts on hip you get member status,
If anyone knows, is that right?

We'll talk somehow

 

This is the best part of the trip. This is the trip, the best part. I really like..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PbpRlqqzSD4"]The Doors- The Soft Parade 1080 HD - YouTube

 

I don't know the details. Yeah rain here too. Haven't had mushrooms for 20yrs lol.

I never met another person who knew cosmic void of supreme vibration let alone another boy-girl who knew it too. We're like twins, lol.

Only thing I take issue with is claim to know what Buddha knew.... Now I'm not 100% sure but I read that Shakyamuni could manifest in multiple locations at the same time... without mushrooms!

Personally I experienced principles of creation and that's enough for me right now. Through will power and feeling of grace I escaped this perfect reality. 15yrs ago just one night like lightning stuck me and I went in to inner space of naked heart. We;;, actually I died, and, like you said, became nirvana, then pooped back into perfect reality.

Maybe in the future I'll have very pure heart but now I got twisted up a bit.... bllllhhhh that's life, huh?

 

Sis,

"Inner space of sacred heart"
You's good,

How's about this?
Just for you,

I Follow the road,
the winding path,
It cuts through moulded fluid,
Of timeless love,
Of dream like endless time,
Always walking down that road,
Its high banked edge,
The sudden sounds,
Tap, tap, rap,
my steps do rap and tap and echo and rap,
The running water past my feet,
Flows back into its bottomless unseen heart,
Through porous empty wells and cracks in time loves depths,
Deep, seep, trickle, trickle, drip,
Waters liquid state, permeates, replicates, time loves liquid flow,
Earth's solid mass and warping times mixture of love,
All in seeming rain soaked,
Love soaked, yellow street lighted, Tarmac blackness.
All, all Babbles and fizzes in my ear,
Tap, tap, creek,

(Piss poor Dylan Thomas rip off for yeh),

If I do know you ?
please say,
Take care whoever you are,

Dr_nurse


Hugs

Lottie

Thanks for sharing what you know,

 

I don't think we know each-other other than we both know the root of each other... if that makes sense ?

(Here's just a snippet of a poem I wrote (for my sister) because.... NO! Google I don't give you my permission to store my poems FOREVER)

(1)
Black coral trees in the blue ocean sky
Wind blows from nowhere & never asks why
The truth of this world is pure romance
Listen as I explain such superb expanse
(2)
Spontaneous expression of eternal grace
There is no other except Love's face
Even our thoughts and dreams at night
are clockwork of heaven & infinite light
(3)
Love exists pure eternally so
born as itself & puts on this show
Even I've spoken it's hard to perceive
As love all is being freshly conceived
(4)
...

 

Dr_nurse,




Beautiful expressions of Love,
Kind of rap style,
Hope your sister was chuffed,
She's a lucky girl,


Thanks, is the full version written down anywhere?


You took issue,
RE:
Shakyamunu manifesting,

Shak, he's just dust, returned to the eternal core of pure love thats Nirvana,
there ain't no part of him that could be grabbed by anything,
There's nothing in any being that can manifest, anywhere, or in any other time, (all time, past or present, is in the same pin prick of existence), ((there ain't nowt in any theory of rebirth, that teaching just fitted the ancient beliefs of those people's, in my humble opinion)),
Buddha is just experiencing the mind that fills the whole of the unending universe, coming back out from Nirvana, in the experience of enlightenment,
And that's what's been experienced by us, as new beings for eternity,
That's the universe for you.

Buddha doesn't exist.


If people think this place hasn't always existed, (in a process of eternal creation),
((New worlds being eternally created)),
And in a trip appearing as continuous existence of life in the eternal burning house,
If they think it follows any other patterns than the eternal creative loop,
Then they ain't enlightened,(IMO)


The universe is an eternal game in a continuously creating loop,(sort of),
All universals repeating anew,
is what's always there,
Is what's always been,
And we're always in the loop,
(As new beings),
Trying to figure out, what it is!
And we figure it out by gaining enlightenment!
How other trans that use mushrooms don't see it!
I'm baffled?
I really do scratch my head!
My third trip!
I was plunged right into the repetition game,
And I don't need many shrooms to see "it",

That's what I see!
(You might differ in interpretation),
But experiencing Buddha mind,
That's always the same experience,
For every enlightened individual,
For infinite eternity!
Throughout the unending universe, past, present, future.
It will never alter in its pattern of design.

You gain enlightenment,
Then it's what you always see,
That's just the nature of enlightenment!

Even logically,
What else could it be!
When you multiply everything by infinity?




It exists for ever
And always has.



Fuck! I don't know what else to say!
Just repeating myself!





Big Hugs sis


I'm being rude!
How do you see it?

So what you saying,
You had a semi enlightenment without mushrooms?
Or full?

When you used mushrooms,
Did you see the same repetition that I'm trying to describe?
Or something different?
Do you think using mushrooms contributed to your experience?

Can you describe your going in and coming out?
It seems completely different to what I experienced!

Questions questions

I understand if you don't want to answer any,
It's a very personal thing,

Yet more hugs,

I'm like a hug factory

Hug hug hug hug hug,
Hug hug,
You may have gathered I like jugs



Listen cause you made the effort to join here, I got a new chic profile,
Cause I know this stuffs personal,
If you want to P.M me there ok,
If you don't that's ok as well,
If you want to keep your anonymity,
I needed to make a copy of my posts anyway,
Search:

 

Hey up to you where we post. I think we fit in well, talking about this "cosmic" stuff, here.

Anyway;

Yeah, I heard it's different for everyone. I read about Japanese Zen monks describing a fruit dropping from the mind and taking root in the heart.

Personally I had explosive chakra energy that opened me right up, in an instant. I really wasn't expecting it, I didn't even believe in "super-natural" stuff at the time.

Let me explain... I'd smoked puff many times and also gone into the hills once time to eat mushrooms, but that was when I was a teenager, yet I had my "moment" (explosive chakra) some years later. Whats more I experienced the energetic body, whilst at work, at least 10 years since I dropped anything at all. You might think "chakra" is something in the imagination, and I'm happy for anyone to think that, but when it happens to you *you know* because it's *so* physical like tooth ache or something that cannot be ignored.

Lately I've been reading up on Buddhism and trying to take note of subtle things, well, last month I could experience ("read") the internet in my dream.

So, taking all my life experience in to account and mulling it over; I was thinking, "yeah I had that experience, I mean Buddha Mind, Brahman or Shakti, (btw can talk more in depth in private) but how can I know I wasn't just experiencing my OWN BRAIN?"

Bear in mind that my "big event", which was like being a photon zooming into inner infinite space of love, came as a shock at the time... so continuing about what I was thinking and mulling over recently, I thought " Some ten years later, whilst I was at work, I started to burn up, like a transformation, an intense fire or burning energy... and that wasn't in the brain (mind)... it was in the body"... That's one thing in my reckoning kinda like a "proof" for myself, and then, well there's many little things for example accessing online information whilst dreaming. Yo! the reason I can speak about this is because it happened to me. Who'd of even thought of something so bizarre! You think I'm crazy?,,, yeah sounds mad, right! Imagine going to sleep and dreaming you were reading a message (for example this message) in your sleep, then waking up, getting on this site and reading it for the first time and already knowing the content... even already learning new language in the dream and then reading that new language in the message! I'm a very rational person, and I hate not knowing *knowing the facts*, but rationally I cannot deny to myself what I know has happened.

So even though I had the big entry into an infinite void, the "big event", (which was 10x more real than "reality"), I still tried to rationalise it, I still do I guess. Right now I'm interested in Quantum Science. I'm not so smart that I can really understand it but what I can grasp fascinates me.

So many people say "only nirvana is real and this "reality" is false"... but I'm like "hang-on why can't both be real?" Maybe nirvana is the realm of anti-matter or something?

Anyway, I seem to be getting off track, Hmmmm let;'s see...

Yeah, Buddhism interests me but I can't stand all the morality and pointless stature worship. That's just not for me. If I want to worship something then I'll speak to a flower, or just feel it in my feeling. Actually, I'm no guru or "evolved" person at all. In many way I'm backwards and find it hard to relate to others and speak about petty stuff. Weirdly, I aspire to be "normal" I suppose. The modern world is so industrial that it's hard for a sage or person with so much water in their soul to be at peace. I tell you I find life difficult. Maybe I'll die young. I don't know. Hmmm, I dreamt how I will die already but I can't know the timing, lol. F*ck I don't care too much, who am I, anyway? LMAO.

Take care!

edit: If I wasn't clear let me say; you don't need t take drugs to get a spiritual high. We already are spiritual beings and there's no way to escape it. I thinks drugs are okay *if* you're not trying to escape reality. Haha... there's no escape! You will live for eternity! wooooo woooooo.

edit #2: Ahhh Looked you up on chixxy... should have done so before. I'm a bit random! ...Left a little something on your profile guestbook (no not a poop).

 

sorry I edited the above post over several hours. Sorry It's a mess to read. I'm random.

 

Dr_nurse,


I think the sudden enlightenments termed, Rinzi zen,
Using meditation, koans, and the like,
Where they tell tales, of the master giving a monk a whack with a stick and that brings on an instant Enlightenment,

I never quite know what to make of it,
Seems so completely different to my entry!
For me it rose up my body, and I had control,

I've practiced za-zen as the purest method of gaining enlightenment for over twenty years now, (as a non mushroom pure way to meditate),
It's what's right for me!
On the very rare occasions that I do hit it, so that everything falls into place
It's always a gradual merging of body , mind, universe,
Never sudden.
I've never seen or experienced anything remotely like, the sudden approach,
All my spiritual moments have been stillness, tranquil, joining.
Even my childhood spiritual experiences,
(Well almost, did have a near death experience once),
Ive never understood how instant flash like entry could possibly work?

 

My entry was like say:
When your experiencing a total eclipse of the sun, by the moon.
Now that comes on relatively slow,
Entering Nirvana's for me was quicker,
But it's that same kind of motion,
Covering the mind, with a shadow of love,
An infinite shadow of love,
Invading the mind,
Becoming that non existent pure shadow,
Releasing into it,
Its that same kind of feeling, as in an eclipse,
Going into darkness and soundlessness, nothingness, complete void.
with no material/spiritual base,
Cause Nirvana's beyond all those things
Then re-entering from the void,
As first "the great mind",
Then as the wave and waterfall,
As the sun re-appears from an eclipse.