I need something....I need

Yeah, sorry. No, it is not funny or a joke. I know that. It was in response to the bummer above it someone said....bad joke, though...I guess I picked that up from my dad. He used to say that all of the time, and I never knew whether or not to take him seriously or not. I felt like I was an emotional hostage with that comment when he said it, so I do apologize and won't say it again.

I am better today....Because I expressed what I needed last night, I am not as needy about it today, so it was good therapy to have this thread to talk about it on....

Thank you...and continue to post what you might need. If I think of anything else, too...I will say....

 

Hey, I'll go to an island with you. I'm pregnant and my two other little ones are also driving me mad. Well, we're all off to a vacation in a couple of hours actually...

Have to also say that isn't a joke at all. I actually also grew up with a dad who constantly said he was going to kill himself just like yours did, except he was more specific, "I'm going to go hang myself." And as someone myself who has suffered with depression and suicide tendencies, it's really not funny at all for someone to joke about something like that.

 

Wow... to both you and Rainy.. I just typed a LOOOONG reply and then had too many smilies so I went and tried to delete one and somehow I deleted my whole reply. Gahhh gonna try this one more time.
Glad you are feeling better today! Yea, it can help to just vent/bitch about things...
and don't worry about it... I just get a little sensitive over people using statements such as that one lightly. At least you realize it's not a "funny" thing to say.
For me.... my best friend since I was 9 and first boyfriend- he used to get depressed @ times, and randomly, every couple of weeks tell me and our other friends that he wanted to kill himself. We'd take him seriously @ first and then after years of that shit, we stopped taking him super seriously. We were together for a cpl years when we were very young and then when I was 17 him and his family moved 7 hours away. We weren't "together" in a relationship at this time, but still best friends and still loved each other and still talked about how we'd end up growing old together-sitting on rocking chairs on a porch together looking back on our lives when we are old. I fully expected that to happen. So, when he graduated from high school... I was a year older than him and I was 19 now... he was going to have a graduation party with his cousin, Joe, in Baltimore. A joint party. I went to a rave in DC w my friend John on a Fri. night...crashed @ John's...got up on an hour sleep Sat am and drove to the party in Bmore. Sat outside Joe's house for an hour wondering...totally confused of why NO BODY was there... until a neighbor saw me n asked if I was there for the party. I was then informed that Joe's cousin, Brian (my best friend) died last night. The neighbors had me in their house trying to calm me down for a while and letting me call my mom. That's how I found out that Brian had killed himself. No one could get a hold of me to warn me ahead of time cause I didn't have a cell phone then. Anyways, was one of the worst things that ever happened to me and btw, a week n a half before this happened, Brian had written me a long letter telling me he wanted to kill himself but kept holding off on it til the next day... I wrote him a long letter back telling him I'm here for him and he can talk to me about anything and I love him and I'll see him soon @ grad party. But I didn't call the police and I didn't tell his parents and after years and years of hearing the same thing, I didn't think he was serious and I didn't take him seriously. I regret it to this day and that's why I don't like ppl to use words like that lightly.

Thanks for agreeing that statements such as the OP said aren't jokes. Anyways, yea, for me... I'm just overly sensitive about stuff like that about the story I told the OP above...

Oh... you're pregnant too??? CONGRATS! How far along are you?? I'm just 9 weeks. Oh... now it makes sense why I saw a thread title of yours yesterday that said "want to see my uterus?"...hahaha... I was wondering! Wow...that's awesome. Do you know yet if you're having a girl or a boy? I have my first ultrasound scheduled for three weeks from now. Can't wait!

Also... I'm just waiting for the 2nd trimester soon when I know I will feel better and have more energy as I'm still nauseous sometimes and just overly tired (why did Cason have to give up naps? Sigh!)... Anyways, yes... let's go to a nice, sunny, tropical island right now!

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Sorry you had to deal with that.

Sounds very similar to the types of stuff that Brian put us all through... but like I said, he eventually did it.

Plus at least Brian was just a teenager.. it's much worse for a parent to do stuff like that to a child. Quite sad.

 

Yeah, saying statements like what we are discussing(I am not saying it again even in reference...LOL)...is like the boy who cried wolf.....Isn't it?
At any rate, I never look for sympathy...and do not want it. I talk to explain things so people have a bigger picture of who I am....We all are products of our histories to some extent.I will be just fine.

 

But it was a heartfelt "bummer..."

 

PM sent
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I know, and I was trying to cheer you up, but failed miserably....

 

i need a gf..

 

Keep typing up responses and then deleting them because they sound fake. Just gonna offer some (((hugs))) to moonglow and American terrorist eta: & tyrsonwood

Congrats to the pregos!!