truth.. being active definitely helps, a lot.. thanks a lot for the kind words. when I got blood work done back in October, the only thing I was low in was vitamin D.. how fucking weird that you said that. avoiding alcohol is something I've been trying to do during the week now.. except for tonight :afro: guilty... It actually has evaporated a bit, I took some time away from the computer and got out a lot this past month. It's still there but definitely more bearable. Thanks for everyone and their kind words! and TNS, thank you for the poem.