Its harder than hell making the decision to walk.its taken 3 years for me to decide to walk away from my friend.what else can you do?keep dealing with it everyday with the thought that things will be different tomorrow?its a nice thought but it aint gonna happen.
You seem like a nice lady Jen and it must be really hard going through what your going through. I cant give any advice based off experience but my view on this is... your life is your life and your mums is your mums. Dont let your mum spoil your life just because she feels down. That is her problem. I know that probably sounds harsh but she needs to deal with her problems not you deal with it for her. You can only be supportive so far the rest she has to do for herself. It comes across ... and again this may sound harsh but its not meant in any nasty way... that she has/is mentaly abusing you and the only way youre going to stop it is get out of there. Would any of your family or friends put you up? Do you have a partner who you could move in with? Could you make it on your own? I hope things work out for you. Like i say you sound like a nice lady... dont let her drag you down. Keep your chin up girl