I've decided to go back and admit to it. I don't care what happens. I can't stop thinking about it. Every day I run the whole incident through my head over and over. I think I have literally played it our in my head from the point of view of every one involved - even other students that were there. I even played out in my head the guy telling his wife, what was going through her head, what goes through his daughters heads when they pass by him in the kitchen. It might not make things better for me but it is the right thing. He can get satisfaction and some of my guilt might ease. I think I'm going to start on the path of right action, right speech, right intention...etc. I don't think that I'm blowing this out if proportion and I want to do what's right from now on. It is amazing what can completely change a persons life. Not just mine - everyone who was hurt by my action. I actually still thought it was funny even up to my third post. It finally sunk in though. Thank you everyone for the advice.
I know some of my friends could do this. It kind of makes me laugh to picture someone doing that - acting like nothing happened. It would take a lot of balls but where would you stash your conscience?
I went half way in turning myself in. I didn't actually go personally to apologize. I wrote a letter of apology the the guy and his daughters, sealed it in an envelope and gave it to a kid from the dojo that I see at the Stop n Shop all the time to deliver for me. Yeah, I know I'm Chicken. I just don't have the courage yet to do anything in person yet. I might just leave it at that but I don't know at this point. My friends who were there with me when I did it are going back to the dojo. I don't know when they plan to start back, but they all act like it is no big deal and agree that if anyone says anything to them about it that their responses will be that they didn't know I planned to do it and ran because they thought they would get blamed. I'm not going back.
I Would, Tit Was Just A Harmless Prank Fueled By Youthful Excuberance, I Have Had Friends Do It To Me Many Times, That's Why I Appear To Take Your Side In This Incident, Young Men Do These Pranks On The Spur Of The Moment, Without Giving Any Thought To The Consequences. Through Out Time All Young Men Have Done Likewise, I Suggest You Go Back, What Is The Worst Thing That Happen, They Ask You To Leave....??? Cheers Glen.
This is why you don't do abusive things to people for your own abusive things to people for your own amusement. I wouldn't call it "harmless" GLEN The worst part to me is that this guy actually took the time to and enjoyed watching his daughters practice and now won't even show his face there.
I agree with you logically but I just can't build up the courage. I'm going to wait a while and let my emotions settle. I feel embarrassed not only for what I did but also because I know what would in my mind be the right thing to do and I don't have the courage. Also I'm starting to sound like a victim in my posts. I keep posting about my situation, how I feel, what will happen to me. I need to quit soul searching, man up and do what is right. Thank you for the advice.
EMOTIONS SETTLE...??? Sunshine, I Just Went Back To The Original Post, And It Was Made 7 Days Short Of 2 Months Ago... Cheers Glen.
Your Current Activity Is "Activating Registration"..., Does This Mean You Are Soon To Be A "Born Again" Member.... Cheers Glen.
My older brother just joined earlier, but how would that show on my account? I use my phone and he was on his kindle or our home computer and he has a different screen name.