I was in college, 20 years old at the time, when one night I had a dream. in this dream, I was stuck in a falling elevator fearful of death when I saw a button light up on the elevator that said "The only savior is up". i woke up with a sense of wonder and curiousity and told myself i wanted to know for sure if God exists. At the time I was also getting into the hippie life so I dropped out of college and took it upon myself to find God, given that in the bible it says "seek and you shall find." after I dropped out I went back home to Ohio & worked for a bit before I decided to head down to the annual rainbow gathering in the Cherokee national forest, Tennessee. I was exposed to lots of spirituality there that seemed to suit me well, interconnectedness, manifestations, positive energy, meditation etc. I traded my car for a djembe, tried acid for the first time, and hitched out to california then stayed there for 3 months. it was October when I met some kids in SF from Canada who owned a school bus and said they were driving down to the international rainbow gathering in Guatemala. I managed to go with them and spend 2 months in Central America. over the course of this journey I was under the impression that I would be able to find God through my actions and the way I was living, but it wasn't until after I had been on the road for 6 months, and was hitchhiking from california back to the east coast, that a truck driver taking me 1400 miles had the opportunity to talk to me about Jesus. No one had ever told me that the key to finding God was was through the acceptance of Jesus into my life. my life hasn't been the same since I accepted Jesus into my life. I was able to overcome many addictions that I had developed throughout my life including cigarettes, lusting for women, no self control, anxiety, desires etc. I now live in a way that strives to please The Creator of man, and it's all because I accepted Jesus into my life and now I can truly say that my soul is satisfied, knowing that His spirit lives within me. there is still plenty of work to do, but I just have to take it one day at a time. I'm always open to talk to anyone about anything, so never hesitate to write me here or by email - jinglesi2010 at yahoo.com God bless
Awesome! I'm glad you are doing ok. I remember when you said you weren't sure about school and what you wanted to do and all that. Glad things are workin out for you.
haha nice to hear from you rollin' ! I really had the time of my life of man, like, ecstasy I tell you.. life is good man, I found all that I was looking for! thanks for keeping in touch
not really Rollin.. I'm working a seasonal job right now I'd like to take off and do missionary work but we'll see what The Lords will is for me.. I have some pretty awesome pics too I'll upload them soon
Perhaps we can expand your relationship to the extent that gods presence will be unmistakable without the story behind it?
god, whatever that may be, has never been lost, nor can it be bound by the cage of human words. it is an invisible and non-physical thing. it, or they, are powerful and wish us well. but everything more then that, which is claimed by any belief, is a fantasy of the ego, voraciously demanding to know, what can never be known. you can "find" and experience its presence, in a way that is neither physical nor emotional, but it doesn't live in a church or a book. nor does it bare the name of any belief. however wonderful every name that has been invented for it, each is no more then a word, we as humans, have invented. i say this because believing it to be bound by books and words, is a deception by which many are led astray.
i don't own a god. i only experience non-physical things in non-physical ways. none of which indicate any relation to dominant beliefs. those, such as christianity, being dominant entirely because of their appeal to the ego.