A ticket to play in God's imagination

Well - it seems I was able to hit the resume button again on my spiritual quest :sunny:

It was myself + fir3f0x again this time and I was on around 400ug LSD.

Again this was a very focused experience, very personal and directed.

The come-up was wonderfully smooth - seems classical music is the best for me to come up to... didn't even notice the transition into the shared consciousness this time, time just faded away and I got that special look... the look I now know is something powerful ready to show me an amazing experience.

I was first taken back to a vision of a multi-dimensional swastika, a symbol of peace and love that seems to be at the very core of either our universe or existence itself... "I've brought you here before".

That's when I knew who was showing me around :sunny:

The music transitioned to within the fibre of my being and off we went. Music that doesn't exist on this planet...

A good few here know the ineffability of the things you can experience, I have glimpses that I so wish I could translate into words.

Last time, one track was used specifically to show me the manipulable nature of time... I was rushed around different perspectives of various different trips and even through the eyes of those close to me all to the tune of a single track, with little breaks in it so that i could pick up on when I was being moved to a different co-ordinate in time.

This time, the majority of the experience was based around an incredibly personalised soundtrack which was distributed throughout time... including quite a few tracks I've never heard before... with the vocals manipulated to communicate certain messages.

It's like music is a form of communication...

At one point between tracks, I was shown everyone from their own perspective. It was like I inhabited countless numbers of people for a single snapshot of time - while this was going on (with my body inside house the whole time) - the wind was circling around me at a great pace like a gentle tornado. It was used to show me that this being is everyone.

It then asked me what I wanted to see and I cycled through a few ideas - I saw a couple this time and I have a feeling others are going to come in future trips.

I got to continue my "waking up" procedure on the other side. I got to see more and was guided by f1r3f0x's spirit. I got to see more vividly the surroundings I was in, it was as if a spirit version of my living room had been created to ease my transition and it was starting fade away... I was starting to notice the presence of others around me and I saw various forms of f1r3f0x, but one that seemed more favoured than the others. At one point she walked over to turn a radio on in this room, it was a radio that I've never seen before and a very simple music that I've never heard before. This music was different than anything else, even the other music that seems to be within you when you're tripping... it was like it was "even more" within me... it's hard to explain but it was definitely coming from somewhere else. I looked at my hand and saw it morphing into various iterations of what I would assume are past incarnations. They were all humanoid - but not all human. As f1r3f0x started to sort of fold into herself to perhaps form a ball of energy or similar... my hand started folding into itself too. This surprised me a bit and I think I pulled back a bit, perhaps I'm not ready to see that yet. It's very much like it only shows you what you're ready to see. I'm really looking forward to this continuing. The main colour over here seems to be a dark blue - while that's the colour, there's still light within it so it's not exactly dark - hard to explain as that type of colouration doesn't exist here.

I've been wanting to manipulate my visuals and those of others and the main focus of this trip was to show me that but also to show me how this universe exists and how things were created.

I saw that the universe is part of a multi-dimensional organism - it's one of many universes that make up the body of a baby God. We're still quite small and seem to be held in something like the combination of a womb and the baby holders you see that go over one shoulder and round the waist. I got to see the "mother" being that's taking care of us... incredibly beautiful experience.

This being then guided me through time, through different trips using my left hand as a kind of shutter on a camera to view different snapshots from different times... It gave me the answer to "what's the sound of one hand clapping?"... haha!

At some time during this experience, my grandfather came to visit... there has been some anger with me over how he died... it was as if he picked up on it when I was last in the shared consciousness and he came to me to show me how he feels and that he's in a good place. I was able to feel him, feel how he feels, the warmth and love coming from him was immense. He communicated to me through one of these customised music tracks, a wonderful message that I'm never going to forget :sunny: He set up a visual show for me to enjoy later in the come-down and moved on.

At one point I felt a different presence in the house, I wasn't sure what it was - but it was like a magnetic pull that was pulling me around the house a bit. After it had moved me around a bit, it pulled me into the middle of a room and it felt like my knees were being pushed out from under me, as if it was trying to get me to submit. As this happened, everything around me got darker and bloody... then I started questioning, "hang on, maybe LSD isn't a ticket to God, maybe it's a ticket to the devil"... when I thought this, the visuals were a bit hellish as if I was being threatened - "submit, or else". As soon as this happened, I thought that it doesn't matter how much of a visual feast or how much you can scare me - I will never submit. As soon as this happened, the darkness immediately went away and the light being seemed very pleased along with a comment similar to "keep thinking that way". I doubt the darkness is coming back for me, but I feel as though I have the support of something more positive if it does.

After this I was shown how to play with the visuals of myself and others... I think the whole environment is shared... so I guess most "real"-world visuals are shared to some extent... I'm not really sure yet. There seem to be both personal and shared elements to a trip.

This teaching was done directly linked to time, it used my fingers to move things around wallpapers on my TV and create new things. It was like I was being borrowed by this entity, or perhaps that isn't the right word - it was like it occupied the same space as me and it was giving me optional guidance. It was like feeling a warm air blowing through every fibre of your body - it was entirely up to me whether I chose to follow the guidance or not - so it wasn't a lack of control. Just help and demonstration.

This felt like it was part of it showing me how the universe was created too, although that's just my interpretation. It felt like the being showing me had an extra finger (5 fingers, 1 thumb)... yet it was only really using the thumb and little finger to move things around... every once in a while, the finger next to my little finger was being used too.

While those two fingers were being used, the other three were juggling a ball of light. It was like someone playing with a coin between their fingers, but ever-so-much more complex. I couldn't quite make out what the ball of light was, it was a light white/blue colour. It felt like juggling the universe while it was being created. I've since been told by my guide that it may have been a ball of condensed knowledge.

It was done at an incredible speed... I was learning the dexterity as I went... it was directly tied into time - so the slower I went as I was learning, the slower the music went. As I learned and could move faster, the music sped up to go with the changes that were being made.

I still have this speed and dexterity - it's something that's lasted outside of the trip... I can move the fingers on my left hand faster and with more dexterity than I could when I tried cocaine without even thinking about it. I can't do it with my right hand, so it's a side effect of this training I went through. I'd love to post a video. It's also sped up my typing speed and accuracy with my left hand.

At some point during this process, my arm was knocked in a weird way and a weird angle... I've had a problem with my left elbow for about 5 years since I was assaulted. I heard a distinct click from it. I twigged shortly after that it felt as though this problem with my elbow had been fixed and when that crossed my mind I got another quote "oops, clumsy meee!". I can confirm this feeling has followed out of the trip - it seems it's been healed :sunny:

All throughout this there were so many funny bits, God has an awesome sense of humour.

There were so many personal messages to answer questions I had (some direct, some cryptic)... things that addressed my fears directly and it's left me in such a good positive place.

This being was happy just for me to be accepting it and conversing with it. It was open and patient with no requests of me. The only suggestion I got from it was, "love something and you're loving me".

God's only interested in love... all these dogmatic ideas are human creations.

LSD was described to me as a ticket to play in God's imagination.

I'm looking forward to playing some more when I get the chance, but also looking forward to life - this life has a purpose and it's to contribute to the whole experience/existence. Everything is important in its own way.

If only everybody could open themselves up to this kind of experience, the world would be an even better place to be.

There are some dark influences in this world, but they're only created by the beings here. I did seem to get a bit of a warning about the illuminati which surprised me.

There is no external judgement... the only person you have to answer to is yourself. You analyse your own life at the end of it and it's all up to you. Live your life for you and only for you. Do what makes you happy, what you like, what you want to do. Stop analysing yourself through the eyes of others - they aren't you, they don't make who you are and they can't judge you. It's your show, live it!

Spread the love, it's all you need. Thanks for reading, love you all.

 

Wow! Great! There are different things there that correlate with Shamanic experience as well.

 

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That was spectacular. Do you know how many drops 400ug would be?

 

Thanks dude :sunny:

Not really any way to say, I'm afraid.

There are too many factors - you'd have to ask whoever laid the blotters or diluted the crystal.

I know my dosages quite accurately because I diluted the crystal myself in vodka.

You could take 10mg and dilute it in 100ml vodka... then a 1ml drop would be 100ug.

Or you could take 10mg and dilute it in 10ml vodka... then a 1ml drop would be 1mg.

Most droppers can be 20-40 drops per ml though... so it depends on the pipette too!

The stuff you buy lately regularly is in the range of 60-100ug... every now and again you get lucky and find someone dosing at 150-200ug, but that seems quite rare.

So if you're asking for your trip report in your other thread... with 3x tabs... you likely had 180-300ug... but it's possible it was more.

My fiancee was able to dissolve herself like you on around 90-100ug... different people react in different ways. If you're more inclined to letting go, then you'll get further with less :sunny:

Be safe in your journeys brother :sunny: