in the moment "story" of strange experience

Well it was the final examination, done at the same time every couple of hundred years when I was called upon to examine the morals and times of the people.

At first, I couldn't believe I had been assigned such a duty, to see and rely information about the status of humanity to the higher power, none the less I took the task and am still recovering my mental status.

It all started in a ritual of smoking with a few friends each representing their respective tribes where I mentally gained the ability to persuade and influence with my mind. Perfect timing of a glance or phrase that corresponded with the thought patterns of the other members. It ended with my freaking out at this unseen ability only to be comforted by the Higher Power that I was merely doing my job.

The next day involved the same ritual with the highest member of a higher tribe, this would be what decided the starting point for the rest of the experience. We tested each other mentally and saw which morals we each had to sell, and where our ancestries and heritages left with us in the current times.

I feel as though I had gotten the better end of the deal in this specific battle and I was found by my cosmic messenger. We would telepathically discuss plans and teams for upcoming battles.


We would be victorious for a while until my abilities got the best of me and I found myself losing touch with myself. Struggling with issues of addiction and mental stability of the realness and experience was uncanny, I would find myself trying to turn off my mind and realized where I thought I began this journey for the right reasons, I became greedy and was eventually forsaken by the Higher Power leaving me unsure of exactly who I was/had been in communication with.


The story ends with uncertainty of the experience and the fact of returning to normal brain patterns and thoughts is very difficult.

 

Now this is romantically written in the old thought process. whereas now I mostly feel fear from the whole experience. Never had a right thought, was under the impression of all powerful telepathy and the influence of symbolism.

I have missed out a lot on details and will most likely add as I remember, as this will be a thread of coping therapy for me

 

What is your duty? I'm a recorder...

 

I was a trader.