I have suicidal thoughts at least once every other day. The only thing stopping me is being too much of a pussy to go through with them. I know I don't have the guts, but I'm just not happy.
if it makes you feel any better I think its pretty standard for most people in the 18-21 year old age group to experience a deep depression. I did. I can think of 3 of my close friends that did. Hipforums is filled with people in the same age group complaining of the same suicidal thoughts. Its to be expected. When you're in school and living with your parents you know exactly what you have to do every day and you do it. Once you turn 18 it takes a while to make sense of being an adult. Especially if you're still living with your parents. Hang in there.
Why.....What Is Fueling These Thoughts, Is It Money Issues, Love Life Issues, Neighbour Issues, Work Related Issues.??? Before We Can Respond, We Need More Details.... Cheers Glen.
I have a complete lack of hope for my future and extreme guilt and depression about it. I'm actually fairly certain I'd be struggling with those thoughts if not for my girl..
you might want to visit www.suicideforum.com , or maybe also www.befrienders.org if things get worse you should probably look into some kind of treatment the book "curing depression naturally with chinese medicine" by bob flaws might help you a lot regular, gentle aerobic exercise might help, also dietary changes and meditation talk therapy might be helpful to you, and also medication do you want say why you feel this way?
I went through the same thing. Then I stopped giving a fuck and just lived my life in the moment. Then I got pregnant unexpectedly and that put everything in perspective. life moves on and changes, even if you don't have any hope that it will I remember feeling completely stagnated at one point in my life. I didn't think I could ever pull myself out of that slump but it happens eventually.
I've just been through a lot more than most people my age. I've done a pretty good job of not letting it bother me, but it's just been a facade. I'm having a harder time keeping it together. I know what my problems are and for the most part, I know what I need to deal with/get over them. I just don't have the help, nor the support, I need in doing so. The only people that show any legit concern for my general well being or interest in helping are my new boyfriend and a guy that was my manager for a day on a few occasions from my old job. He was from another store and we switched with them every once in a while...he's got insomnia like me so he's talked to me all night sometimes and at least helped me calm down when I was upset if not give some sound advice. I guess I just need help making the things I need happen and a few people to cheer me up when I get down and I'll make it. Things don't just get better, you have to make them that way. This is just something I can't do alone. I really need to find a way to be able to move to another town. The only thing I have keeping me here is my boyfriend and if I move to somewhere near by, he'll drive to see me. I guess if I could come up with the money I needed for a month and some new friends, I'd be okay. Maybe I'll pick up and move with my taxes...? By the way...thank you all for showing concern.
I have suicidial thoughts since I remember. As long as it isn't affecting you too much, it is fine. Especially if you have someone with who you can talk, etc. You will be fine.
First of all: I believe it takes more guts to not do it. I had some suicidal thoughts rom time to time, but I don't want to do it, because my father killed himself and I don't want to be like him. I wish I could help you, but it's not possible through some forum posts. Maybe read this: http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml I have no idea if this is the case with you, but it might be. If you have a borderline personality disorder it might help you just to know if it's the case. It did help me. Because borderline often won't be diagnosed, so it's a relief just to know whats wrong with you. As I said, I don't know if you have it. But I'm sort of an expert with this particular disorder, so that's my first guess Anyways, I wish you the best and good luck PS: Sorry for my english, I'm from Germany.
PLEASE go and talk to your doctor about this. There ARE things they can do to help (and not just throwing meds at it). If they offer you meds, though, do ask lots fo questions before taking them (I was one of the Seroxat guinea pigs ... and it was NOT a nice experience). If you do decide to accept meds, though, do be organised enough to take them regularly and on time. If you take them one day then not the next and so on, it'll probable onnly make things worse for you.
I am sorry you are feeling this way. I have had suicidal thoughts before, and been in deep depression many times. I try to think positive. Count your blessings and know that things will get better. The world breaks everyone, and afterwards, many are strong in the broken places.
I advise you to look if there are any self-help grups in you area. Their purpose is to provide you with a place to talk about your problems with people who have lived through similar things themselves and can offer acceptance, support, understanding and advice. They usually have regular meetings and an agreement between everybody present to keep their discussions confidential.
