Love, death, eternity, torment, surrealism, enlightenment and telepathy

I had a rather large LSD dose on friday night... somewhere in the region 1200-1400ug. I wanted to push through my ego, to get rid of all my own barriers, to have a spiritual experience... boy did I get what I asked for!

My dose was so high, I ended up with COMPLETE synesthesia... my reality dissolved, my ego died and I created a brand new reality.

I have had some upheval in my life recently, new job in a new country meaning I had to leave my family behind while I get new living arrangements sorted. After partying a little hard before my departure, I decided it would be a good idea to abstain from drugs til I came back. The combo of excitment to see my family again, drug-free system and eating a good 6-8 hours before dosing probably amplified the effects somewhat.

There were four of us in for this night... Sproggy, FF (my partner), NB (the newbie) and myself.

The evening started really nicely, I had ordered some new speakers, a valve DAC and a valve based integrated amplifier specially for the evening - so started by setting that up, enjoying it and running off for a shower.

Then came the task of diluting the acid - that was funny, petrifying and exciting all rolled into one... not forgetting to lick the packet after of course.

I had prepared the playlist the week before and set it going while we dosed and excitement took the air... with the dose level and method of taking it - the effects came on FAST.

As the effects were coming on, the intensity grew and grew until we reached a miniature plateau - a little breakthrough point and incredible electric feeling. That little feeling you get when you pop through into shared consciousness, I can now identify it as. I had experienced it once before and one of my fellow trippers has been there many times - we both looked at each other and smiled as we both recognised where we were at that moment.

My partner was very slowly melting off the sofa onto the floor which was rather funny and a close friend chatting away, excited to be heading into his second trip.

From there I had a few visuals as the intensity grew - I can't remember quite what I saw then until it all got a bit too much for me and I had to puke... the sensory overload was just too much for my body. With this came the first truly intense visual I have ever experienced.

Sproggy seemingly knew this was coming, my surroundings darkened severely and he morphed into this behemoth of a monster - some gigantic brown beast with armour plating. Like a demonic version of a large dinosaur. Each of his toes had a head, one of which began to elongate from his foot and travel around under the ground around us (I could see through the floor as if it didn't exist). This thing shot through the floor, up into me and carried me through to the bathroom... all the while stopping me from puking as it had its mouth closed. As soon as I got through to the bathroom it popped up through my mouth and opened its mouth - allowing me to expel.

Once cleared, I was able to head back into the sitting room. This was the first time drugs had ever made me throw up and is rather unusual for LSD, so as my memories were fading away it still made me a little concerned and may have precipitated my next trip - a stage of torment.

Shortly before I needed to expel, I had somehow linked the feelings with the music and had to turn it off. When I went back into the sitting room, it was still off and I just slumped on the sofa with others tripping around me. I think there was a comment of maybe I had had a little too much or something similar and this led into a miniature nightmare.

I was stuck in a constant loop of my friends taking the piss out of me for having too much - it was as if they all knew exactly how to make fun of me by doing exactly the same set of movements over and over in a circle... with a giggle every time I repeated the cycle. I was incessantly following a silly pattern. I have no idea how long this lasted... I know I must have walked in and out of the room at least a dozen times, perhaps more, perhaps it was all in my head - I really don't know. It felt like I had done it hundreds of times when I started feeling physically tired from it. Thanks to the tiredness, there was a change in the cycle related to how my body was feeling. This let me realise what was going on and pull myself out of it. In my head I had been asking my friends to stop tormenting me every cycle, but I couldn't figure out if I had been through it before or not... so it went round and round. With the change, I finally figured out that if I had really been communicating with my friends - they would have definitely stopped by that point. So it must have all been in my head.

At that point I realised I needed to change something... thinking back, I should have put the music on - that would have certainly carried me through - but in a different way than the night played out I would imagine. So from another viewpoint - the change I chose perhaps gave me the experience I was looking for.

I decided to seperate myself from the group and run upstairs to lie on the landing. My memories were buggered - but at least I knew instinctively that to change my headspace, I had to change my setting.

We had already set up a duvet and blanket on the upstairs landing so I got comfy on there.

At this point, one of my cats decided it would be a good time to keep me company. I love how cats treat you on LSD - as soon as you "wake up" into the experience - they can sense the difference in you immediately and join you in your trips. I'd like to guess that they're quite succeptable to shared consciousness, or there's just something else about your aura/smell/behaviour/body language - I don't quite know.

But it seemed as though she had come to protect me, to look after me. From that point on, we went on quite a few trips together and it got to the point where we made this incredible bond and she recognised the bond too.

She had bonded with me as my spirit guide!

Looking back, it felt as if I had handed her my ego for safe keeping for the evening so I could finally let go of myself and dissolve into the experience properly. She protected me well and our bond was noticeably stronger in the morning too.

To create such a bond is an incredible experience.

This is when I was able to start dissappearing into some crazy worlds, losing connection to my body and reality in general.

The first notable hosts of various trips I can remember was like I was tethered on a string to my body or to my reality... able to push further and further away but still clamber back along the string if I needed/wanted to. It started off as a delay to this reality and I began to realise that my reality was whatever I wanted to make of it, I could do anything in this reality, see anything, experience anything. Then it was as if I could spin a massive selection wheel (like wheel of fortune or similar) in front of my eyes, stopping it when I saw something that looked interesting and diving into it.

In this headspace, I had some amazing visuals - I can remember some small snapshots - but unfortunately not too much. These were mainly incredibly surreal, yet the visuals themselves were ultra-realistic... higher definition than the real world.

By this point I had completely lost connection to the real world... I couldn't even make out my surroundings anymore.

Around this time my partner, FF, came upstairs to check on me.

I was still in my newly created reality so the only bit of her that was close to reality was her face. It was as if she was a strongly defined area of gas (I suppose when you think about it in physics terms - that's actually quite accurate)... this is when my heavily defined vector art visuals came into their own.

We shared quite a few trips together, we were in each others minds communicating - sharing most of our trips if not all. I can’t remember much of them up until the point I puked for the second time. By this point, I was so far gone - I don’t even recall puking - although I’m assured that my body did all it needed to, to keep itself safe.

This is where I sort-of crashed back (despite the visuals still going crazy) and convinced myself I had gone a bit crazy and done something silly... like I was stuck on the ledge of a tall building, or I was up a tall tree... or something along those lines. At this point my visuals became more strongly focused on my partner - asking her to guide me through it. Although she seemingly played along with my scenarios at the time, it seems like it was all in my head. I was being thrown visions of fire crews, police, ambulances etc etc... all paying attention to me.

This went through some peculiar visions as FF was guiding me back to various trips, all the while distracting me from my delusions. I took these distractions as attempts to distract me from my body having done something very wrong... but I couldn’t figure out what it was.

Shortly after, before my partner had had the chance to tidy up the puke - the cats began to indulge! This led me to visions of my own blood and the delusion that I had jumped off something tall and the cats were cleaning up my blood/brains, with my partner trying to distract me from the reality that my body was dying... perhaps with a view to keeping me in a happy eternity, rather than one that would torment me. She wouldn’t tell me what was going on, kept denying that I’d done anything silly... but I kept attributing that to attempts to distract me, rather than the truth.

As this was happening I started focusing on things like my heart rate... it was slowing down! As it was slowing down... each beat lasted longer and longer... time was stretching out as I was nearing the point of my death.

We were bouncing into longer and longer eternities, as each beat passed - each trip lasted longer. She took me through some fantastic visuals... I wish I could share.

There were two very distinct sides to the trips... it was as if we were bouncing in two different directions... perhaps oscillating is a more appropriate word. On one side it was more negative and a bit more grounded... on the other side was happiness, love and some funky visuals.

This, combined with the vector art visuals, created a lot of malleable yin yang imagery. It would morph and bend... the line being able to blur and push into the other side. I later attributed this to be the line between life and death or the physical world and the spiritual world... they blur and merge!!

I was “bouncing” either side of this line.

As I was getting closer to the point of my death, my heartbeats seemed to stretch out further and further... time was slowing down as my body was getting closer to drawing its last breath. My partner guiding me through this seemed to be bouncing time with each beat. For short snapshots, I would be back with my body, tied to the floor as if I had jumped off a large building and landed on my back (that's what I feared I had done).

These bounces took me through so many seeming eternities... so many past lives... so many surreal worlds.

The bounces were back and fourth between a good outcome to my death and a bad outcome... on one bounce I would see the outcome where I was still tied to the physical world, stuck with my dead body and re-experiencing my death. When I bounced to the other side, I saw what it was like to be free in the spirit world. As it came closer to the death-point, I had to make a choice - I now realise it was choosing whether to be stuck in the physical world (I guess, reliving my death constantly) or to release my body and let my spirit be free.

This is where the yin yang imagery came from, one side was me tied to the physical world, the other was me tied to the spiritual world.

It was like my partner was hinting at what was happening... but was unable to tell me. I had to figure it out on my own and make the choice.

It truly felt as if I was experiencing timelessness, only external movements of my fellow trippers made time move on.

I now attribute this to the choice I was being forced to make by my death... would I end up stuck in torment, forever attached to the physical world... or could I let go of the physical world and release my spirit to spend eternity with my loved one(s).

As it got close to the death point, I had a sudden realisation that she was a deity. I was being guided through death by a god! A god who cared a great deal for me... but it wasn’t just any god... it was as if all those around me had been god or gods - keeping me company on my trek through life.

When I reached the point of death, I chose to go with my partner into the spirit world. At that point, just before the moment of death I had the most powerful realisation... the only thing that matters in this life is:

LOVE

As I realised this, FF’s face morphed into a Helium atom which I was seemingly able to manipulate into a single point... as I died and let go feeling nothing but pure true love, it gave birth to a new universe.

My death spawned a new universe out of Helium and love!

She saw the creation of the universe and can still remember it.

After this, it was a little scary for a while... FF re-appeared next to me, but was completely lifeless - her body was there but completely inanimate.

Little bugger was playing with me!

It seemed timeless again, so it felt like a long time... but when she came back to - she morphed back into her spirit form and we started talking.

I had ascended into the universal consciousness and a wealth of knowledge consumed me, the memories of all my past lives... ones I haven’t lived... other universes... such an incredible influx of information. I felt so knowledgeable, but it felt so natural. There was no surprise that all this info would come to me and it felt like I had had it for a long time and always would have it.

We talked about many concepts that had resonated with our human minds, explored the ideas that these minds want to explore and just came to the answers. We very quickly realised that the universe is very similar to the story of The Egg by Andy Weir.

But then I also realised that if there was any possibility to do so, I would really like to communicate back to my mother some things as I was still tied to these feelings and I care for her. Even with the realisation that time is meaningless and she too would eventually realise this and join us... I had to communicate back to her physical form.

This yin yang visual based spirit version of my partner was able to manipulate time and insert me into various points throughout my death so I could communicate small messages back to reality.

It was done so well, my brain would mess with my memories as if I had been transported to a certain point in the time line.

I played with her seemingly being a deity and tried inserting messages/reference points at the wrong time. She noticed that!

At the time, it seemed like my partner was either my god or my own spirit... taking me through this traumatic experience and helping to guide me to choose the spirit world.

It seemed like a spirit was showing me around the universal consciousness, helping me get to grips with it... it had taken the form of my partner. Whether it was my partner / my partner's spirit or mind / myself / my spirit / something else entirely... I have no idea. It seemed to show its capability to be both angel and demon... it was going to tease me with some firey visions before I was broken out of that part of the trip by a newer explorer I was tripping with.

While here, in the main void - she went through a few different states. First made an aparition like a grey-skinned big-eyed alien... but not like anything i've seen pictured or on TV... it was notably different. This then went back to my partner and the yin yang motif continued, it was very defined... not the mess of previous melting visuals. She seemed to have intergrated some feline/foxy bits... then when she was ready to tease me and turned a bit firey, it resembeled so much the Firefox logo. But of course, much higher definition and constant fluidic motion.

After this we went to explore... it was a seemingly endless round-edged hall with pillars in the middle, full of drawers of universes... you just just pull one out and jump in to sample it... anything you could think of, a lot I’ve never thought of.

My visuals of this were incredible... ultra-high-definition ultra-reality... more real than real... absolutely astonishing.

This is the closest visual representation I can find to describe what I saw:



Each of the swirls is a new universe... a drawer you can pull out and dip into to experience. All possibilities exist here... from the craziest things you can think of, to only a subtle twist on your existing life.

The wealth of knowledge that envelops you when you cross into the void is astonishing... you remember past lives, so much information about the universe(s)... it just comes flooding into your consciousness. Too much for your normal brain to handle - it's such a shame I couldn't bring back more with me.

I've glimpsed enlightenment!

One surreal visual I can remember quite vividly was a world of inanimate objects... that had massive grins and had animated themselves... umbrellas folding in on themselves... with their own music, dancing (the music in the real world at this point was still switched off). Throughout this whole thing there was a music for it - even though there was none in the real world.

While I was up here & Sproggy out in the back garden having a cigarette... I remember popping into the sky of his visuals... as if to announce to the world... “Hello, newly awakened consciousness here”.

After exploring this void quite a bit, Sproggy popped upstairs to check on us and I remember shouting... “The Egg dude, it’s the Egg!”

NB popped upstairs shortly after that and that’s when I popped back to a clear-ish reality. I was still tripping pretty hard though - haha. I’ve never had a trip before where reality was quite so enhanced... things like strawberry licorice laces morphing into worms right in front of my eyes - while the rest of the world stayed normal. I have a feeling this was one of my cats visuals as I was playing with her at the time... she made it morph into a real worm and it glowed as it did. I swear she reacted to that morphing & loved it!

We headed back downstairs, talking about the trip and getting ready to put the music back on.

There was a little bit of an electrical short circuit with a mains cleaner I had put into the audio loop and I got a bit of an electrical shock from the light switch... this charged me a bit and I had quite a bit of fun playing with my own electrical field.

After we got rid of that charge and a while later... this is when the wallpaper on my HTPC started coming to life... not in a way I’ve ever seen before. But it was changing into a large set of atoms, albeit lower definition than I usually see... it was really quite quirky. Other things were happening like forms of long thing snake type things made out of light, crawling all over the screen. My eyes were hurting a bit at this point, it was like there was a new set of eyes trying to merge with my eyes.

Then I began to start seeing random writing appearing on the screen... I couldn’t quite picture what was being written... but it was in weird pastel/neon colours, writing things like gayboy gayboy and pictures of things like pedobear. Along with other things coming to life on the screen. Every time this happened... there would be a pain in my eyes... I thought maybe the contacts were playing up... but realised this pain was to do with seeing Sproggy’s visuals!

I was seeing the messages he put up on the screen!

This was such a fantastic realisation, telepathy is possible!

We went through loads of different patterns and messages... I was able to make them all out and describe them back to him. No verbal prompt from him or any other kind of subliminal messages... this was all coming from his head.

While I’m afraid we can’t offer any objective proof... we proved to ourselves that telepathy is possible... and that’s to someone who would need to rigorously test it before changing his entire belief system... this was not just some acid enhanced fantasy.

He did other things too, like writing my name backwards in a cartoon image from a projection on the ceiling with shadows.

It turns out he’s able to see the visuals of others too, when they open up their mind at least... he was able to describe back to me the void, quite a few other things I saw that night... but most interestingly, firefox... I hadn’t shared that verbally with anyone when he came out with it.

His visuals are much more cartoony than mine, lower definition and splashes of pastel/neon colours everywhere. My visuals are ultra-definition.

It was astonishing. I’m so happy that it exists.


At the end of the night... I didn’t recall any sanity checks at all - so I was a little concerned that something not so good could have happened. A while later the day after, I remembered at least three points where in the middle of all of this, I grounded myself - checked around to make sure we were all ok - told myself it was the drugs and would be fine in the morning and then just dove straight back in. I’m quite happy that despite such a heavy dose, I was still able to look out for myself.

I struggle to describe how many eternities I experienced in this trip... there were so many timeless experiences for which I was able to explore so thoroughly. Normally in the past, my ego has whipped me back to reality... not in this trip... not for a long time.


I came to a few realisations following this trip and through discussions with Sproggy:

The death scenario could have been a manifestation of my letting go of my ego and accepting entry into the universal consciousness.

Puking on LSD is rather unusual - especially on an empty stomach - could this have been my body reacting to the overwhelming stimuli or a physical upheaval of what I was unable to accept.

I wasn’t choosing between my family/partner... I was choosing between being stuck in the torment of the physical world and allowing my spirit to be freed.

The experience could have been my brains way of showing me that I can let go and nothing bad will happen in the confines of my own home with good friends.










Last night was very interesting... we were sent back to the universal consciousness!

With the wealth of knowledge that comes with it... we were in this cloudy pastel void with 2cb like sparkles all over the place... involved in some deep existential conversations.

When I woke, I started messaging him... he had the same dream and described the void back to me... same visuals, same conversations, same colours... he sent me the painting below and I shouted YES!

It’s awesome to feel omnipotent in your dreams haha

This is absolutely astonishing... part of me wants to tell myself this is crazy... but I’m just so excited this appears to be real... a week ago and I would have shrugged it off.

Just been speaking with him... there was a point that broke me out of the dream. I felt really strongly that I needed to pee... it woke me up and I went to pee - but I didn’t have to. It was really annoying and I didn’t get back to the shared consciousness when I went back to sleep. Just spoke to him... told him about this... he had to pee and it broke him out of the dream. I’m 600 miles away from him and his need to pee woke me out of a shared dream state!






It's left me with heightened mental capabilities... til now at least, not sure how long it will last. My brain is working quicker than normal, everything around me is slower... movement, people talking, etc. My memory and multi-tasking capabilities are improved. I seem to recall having this before once - it only lasted a day or two - but certainly nice little side effect of the come down.


This is the kind of experience you so desperately want to run around telling people about - it's a shame so many would think I'm nuts... if we hadn't proved to ourselves that we were actually communicating, I might have been worried about myself... lol

I was glad to discover that I could pull myself out of that endless torment... it was a seemingly endless loop, but I caught on to the repetition and realised that my friends were not that mean. I changed setting to get my head out of the loop and it worked, allowing me to tag on to one of my cats as my spirit guide for that night.

I must remember not to turn the music off in future... if I had left the music on, I would have been guided out of that tormenting headspace much sooner... it was just the panic of the sensory overload - I don't think I will succumb to that panic again in the future. But then, it’s possible the quiet helped me reach where I needed/wanted.


It's one thing to think you grasp the concept of the non-existence of linear time - it's something else entirely to have personal experience of it.




Vector art visuals:





Alex Grey has seen a lot!

 

Guess this must be a mega read lol... used to having comments by now. This is actually shortened! I could have written more...



There were some interesting conversations about this last night...

It seems... the cycle of torment was not mine... it was NBs!

According to the others there... I was upstairs when he was going through this. I still remember it so vividly, it seems like mine.

So either he was going through it and I was in his head... or I was going through it and projecting it to his body.

With the way the pacing around during this occurred and some sighing... it's likely I was experiencing his bad trip.

The surreal ultra-realitic cartoon of shapes with big grins, little legs and cartoon feet... folding in on themselves and re-forming... that was Sproggy's visual!!!

There was a lot more shared tripping going on that night than we realised... those last two when not even in the same room, so impossible to communicate to each other with any obvious cues.

AWESOME

 

It is a mega read There's a lot I could say, but short on time. I think it's fascinating that LSD in particular seems to generate cartoon visuals specifically (among other visuals). With improvements in brain imaging technology and more LSD tests perhaps specific types of visual imagination occur in specific regions of the brain . . .

as to your experience, it is fantastic and you are extremely lucky to have experienced it (0.0000000001%? of humans ever have/will?)

 

Thanks for taking the time

I think it's interesting that it usually doesn't create cartoon visuals for me... it definitely does frequently for my other half and sproggy... perhaps I'll explore more surreal worlds like that in future. I enjoyed it so much because it was so different and unusual to me... I just don't think like that, even on acid. Mine always seem to go the other way, into ultra-realism.

There was another shared dream state last night... it was darker than the previous one... I visited hell through sproggy's eyes to visit his uncle. I can't quite remember the details of whether I was talking to his uncle or talking to sproggy about his uncle.

When it took me back to my childhood a bit - it let me realise that the "i've been here before" feeling I had on my first trip came from my experiences as a child.

I used to feel presences in a room when I was trying to get to sleep that would make me uncomfortable... flowers would talk to me, some shout. Once when I was 2 or 3, I saw my dead great grandfather in the corner of the room and described him to my mother in so much detail it confused her / made her cry... apparently I had never seen a picture of him before.

I find it interesting what's happening with my shift from pure analysis to more spiritual things & how it links in with childhood experiences.

It's really forcing me to believe in more than I have done for a long time.

It's great, but I'm still struggling to get my head round such a dramatic shift in perception. I really look forward to exploring more in my search for inner peace / enlightenment / knowledge. I really feel like I'm going into these trips with the right mindset and I will always be making sanity checks to make sure this isn't pushing me to delusions.

The other thing I've noticed, specifically after this last trip... the NEED to understand has gone and been replaced with a stronger desire to experience. I think I've accepted that I will never understand all of this in this form, no matter how much I want or try to and trying in certain circumstances could send me into unpleasant experiences.

Just experience... enjoy... learn... contemplate it when the experience is done.

Don't get me wrong - I would still love to understand everything of course... :sunny:



I count myself exceptionally lucky that I'm able to experience this & so relatively quickly too!

Sproggy mentioned he's been down this road before with someone when he was learning it himself... but it took him 2+ years of tripping far more frequently than we have been.

I'm very excited to learn how to explore these realms - it seems like I'm going to be able to get back there - I've got a hell of a journey waiting for me!



From discussions... perhaps there's a cycle of rebirth that only concludes when you wake your consciousness. I would love it if when this life reaches its natural conclusion, it ends in these timeless voids within the shared consciousness. How wonderful an existence that would be!

It's funny that I'm starting to believe in an afterlife when only a couple of months back I would have written myself off as dust.

 

Just dreamt this and woke up:

"Ringo ran away, I was chasing him then a tornado/twister attacked and i ran into a house... Held on between door frame and woke up as the twister had destroyed the house ...I was chasing ringo at night!

Knew it was ringo because I was shouting for him...

Remember thinking "stupid dog" or similar"

Ringo was sproggys dog, he died of old age a few months ago.

I was chasing him through what looked like a housing estate.


Lets see what sproggy has to say in the morning

 

This was well worth the long read Tasty! Thank you for sharing! I always enjoy reading about psychedelic experiences of this nature. It sounds like you had an amazing time! Seems like you had to overcome a few "rough" patches during the trip, but hey... I've been there before.

I'm hoping to get this deep with LSD sometime in the near future. All my trips have been fantastic and I feel like I learned a lot. However, I never took more then 2 tabs (they were potent as hell though! lol). It's truly a fascinating molecule.

I did however have a psychedelic experience similar to your's on an 8th of mushrooms before. It was the strongest trip I ever experienced. Truly amazing...disconnected from my body...flung in the abyss. It was actually quite scary at times. I felt as if I had entered another dimension..another realm.

But anyways, thanks you again for sharing tasty! I wish you good vibes :sunny:

 

Thanks for taking the time to read Cory, good luck in your ventures

 

Looks like last nights was just a lucid dream... shame!

 

Read the whole thing, and enjoyed!! Very far out!

I have had some whoppers myself but 1400 Mic is on the cusp of "incredible" and "don't remember that week" awesome you were allowed to bring so much back! I never tested the telepathy, but have it many times. when you are sitting there doing it it don't cross ones mind to experiment.

and just so you're not alarmed you're probably going to notice that your wired little different, permanently, and for the better. you can't unsee Infiniti. Once you meet "God" you can't un-meet Him lol


But these things we acknowledge to exist, without anyones proof but our own. Love, Faith, honesty, enlightenment... Geez- no wonder the government doesn't want us to try acid

 

Yes... the last thing they want is their little worker bees realising that there's absolutely no point to earning them money and that all it's doing is destroying the planet It really feels like we're still slaves... just with a few pleasant distractions. To be fair, we can opt out and drop out... it just doesn't seem like a pleasant option... it's certainly not the true freedom those we work for have.

That Alex Grey painting "Gaia" is a brilliant expression of what it's doing to the world...

Thanks for taking the time to read, I know it's a mega report - so you really gotta commit to get through it lol... thankfully I seem to have been able to write it in a way that it carries it, so once reading - I made it hard to stop... lol! I like how expressive it makes me... normally I can't write like this!

It certainly was a big dose & not a dose I'm going to be repeating in a hurry... this kind of thing will be kept to a rare special treat and only when I feel ready for what I have no idea it's going to show me! I've been building up to a large dose... this was the aim... with that experience, I don't think I will ever need to go past this dose level. Combining that dose level with DMT - that will be astonishing!

What I needed was that final push to be able to truly let go and dive head first into the experience and shared consciousness... I feel I'll be able to reach that state on a much lower dose in future... like you said, permanently re-wired... slightly I really got what I needed / what I was looking for... I love how acid could deliver that to me. Awaken me, so to speak.

It's certainly rewired quite a few of my long-held beliefs... but all in a very good way! I'm very happy with what it's done to my method of thinking... generally more accepting, realising that life is more precious than I used to think it was, the possibilities of what else could exist... trying to accept that there may even be an afterlife or re-incarnation (I so desperately hope I will be able to explore the various planes of existence with a similar mindset to what I have now - I will really enjoy that).

Thanks for the warning though - I can see how some of this stuff can freak some people out. Sproggy's warned me that when I'm ready... I may very well be able to hear other beings in that void. I've noticed some other things aswell... perhaps it's a slightly different vibe I'm giving out... some are looking at me in a different way. Not bad, it's like I've got a more pleasant aura or something lol.



I love what I brought back - but still feel as though I had to let go of so much... it feels like I brought back 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% or less.

I only realised what I was seeing was sproggy's visuals because he was doing things on purpose to show me. He's spent quite a bit of time on this stuff and has incredible control over his visuals... I only picked up on it because he was taking the piss in his visuals... it was hilarious... and he kept doing different things for a good hour or more :sunny: I really look forward to being able to play like that.

 

Wow a lot of what you said really shows you some of the more fascinating aspects of lsd. Mainly how everything in your environment becomes a metaphor for whatever spiritual event is taking place inside of you.

And like your actions get put under a powerful magnifying glass. Like when you saying you kept doing the same thing over and over, until finally your body got the signal that it was tired, then you finally able to do something else. Interesting seeing the "mechanical" functions of body going on, while our consciousness is off in a distant land.

Dude I have cats too and they defiantly can feel my vibes whenever I trip. Its funny because they do different things at different parts of the trip. If Im in a deep spiritual place they are calm and meditative. If my visuals are going all over the place, and I start going in those weird places, they instantly start kurking out and start jumping around and don't know what to do with themselves.. That is really awesome you had that kind of bond with your cat. I feel they are closer to these places on an everyday bases. It sort of changes your everyday perception of animals.

I am glad you were able to let go and not be scarred. Your ego will fight you the whole way, but you got be willing to go beyond that. So congratulations for making it through. Interesting that you said the spirit was both demonic and angelic. I have heard that they are the same entity, only when the relieve you of your poisons they come as demonic, and when they come to help you embrace love, they come as angels.

It is always awesome coming down off such an intense trip and being back in reality, but you still have all the left over visuals and insights. Its like just returning from outerspace or something. You sounded like you had something pretty intricate visuals.. I wish you could of explained little dabs from eternity, but I know its nearly impossible. As far as the cartoons visuals go, I think its your mindset, you start to see them when your first going up or when your coming down. The main visuals always seem to be realer then real life for the most part.

Anyway excellent trip report! Really long read, but defiantly worth it. Thanks you for exploring these realms and sharing these tales. I know the experience will stay with you forever!

 

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw space cowboy lol ... told you that the ride is worth it ... still got alot of stuff to learn and alot of things to experience ... your journey is just beginning ...

i will get my trip report written up soon

peace and love my brother ...

Kori

 

Actually... it turns out - that torment was not my experience!

I was not the one wandering through the rooms, sighing... it was NB! After the people I was tripping with read my report, they noted that it was NB wandering around - but this stage I was already upstairs.

I was able to experience his bad trip as if I was him... simply amazing.

Cats are absolutely amazing - would love to experience being around some other animals on acid - it's such a shame zoos are such a depressing place - they would be both awesome and horrible to experience. She seemingly knew I was freaking out a bit or uncomfortable and she came over to protect me / take care of me... wonderful little girl :sunny: It's interesting how the egyptians worshipped them... it makes you think our supposedly more 'primitive' cultures were so much more in touch with their spirituality.

As for the spirit... sproggy said the exact same thing... they're the same entity and can choose what to show you. My partner is very comfortable in this realm I think it's possible we are all angels and demons... each and every one of us.

A lot of the visuals have slipped away from me, which is a shame... it seems like the main ones stick with you - the ones most important to your earthly being. I had a few that were incredibly vivid and they are all in my report above... it's the eternal void that I really want to share though of course... that painting from Alex Grey is extremely close to what I saw... an endless selection hall spreading out in all level directions... interestingly, it didn't expand up and down - just to the sides. I didn't see faces in the pillars and it was a lightish shade of blue, not red... There were alot more of those portals in each 'room' too... many many more.

But that painting from Alex Grey is just so accurate... I like calling it the universal cd changer He has spent a lot of time in these realms, I'm sure of it.

Even my partner's spirit was more real than real life... imagine the usual acid melty melty... but past the point of things swirling around you... to the point where it was constantly moving incredibly fluidly, yet incredible well defined with a solid line around the edge. She was able to shift into alternate forms, turn a bit catfish/foxish and then went a bit devilish with only certain portions of her figure going firey, including her eyes, top of her head... and a pointy tail popped up behind her.

The best thing I can link it to is firefox, but a slightly darker colour scheme.

She was flying around, doing whatever she wanted... taking me on loads of trips... guiding me all along the way. I've got a lot to learn!

Thanks for the comments and taking the time to read my essay

 

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I was watching something and just had a mini-realisation.

I've been complaining for years that "I" used to feel more connected to my body when I was younger... that there was less of a delay between me and the outside world.

Put it down to just getting older and delays in electrical communication or similar.

But... it comes back during and for a while after a trip.

Maybe this feeling of disconnection, this feeling of delay is related to the extra barriers built up by my ego.

When you get rid of those barriers, you're more closely connected with your consciousness?

How awesome would that be

 

Yes, a mega-read. And a slow read. Not like I can skim over it to kind of catch the gist or whatever. Amazing that you remembered all that! A higher level of Epic. Thanks, Namaste.

 

Thanks for taking the time

 

This was a fantastic read! I thoroughly enjoyed hearing about your experiences with your friends, and the magnificent connections you guys must have!
Where you mentioned how you felt your friend's experience made me think back to a mushroom trip I had with my best friend. I had a 4 gram psilocybin mushroom dose that day, and was chewed up and spit out like an old piece of juicy fruit. I remember him pointing out certain things he saw in the rooms and I could see what he described. We were very much in a shared consciousness. I'll never know if we saw the same things, and I highly doubt we saw exactly the same things, but when he said elephant I saw the damn elephant staring at me from the knots of wood in the walls.

I think there's more to the coin then we already can see, and the idea of human auras is tenable. Not everyone can see them, or even comprehend them, but everyone can feel them, whatever they are.. It's so difficult to tie words to these experiences, because often the words can contradict the feelings you had. It is very difficult to describe the psychedelic experience, and I think you did a wonderful job of doing just that. THIS is a trip report.

 

Thanks for reading and the comments :sunny:

It's hard to define what is power of suggestion and what is a shared visual... your own mind seems to twist the visual a bit to suit you.

It seems the more you practice, the more you can learn to separate which is yours or not.

Going back through some past trips with Sproggy, he's seen a lot more of my visuals than I thought... and it wasn't just power of suggestion :sunny:

I imagine everyone is open to the experience... it's just a question of if you realise what's going on or can differentiate.

I am VERY much looking forward to tripping at a festival or two this year, the group of people who will have opened themselves... it will be a fantastic experience!

I watched "Taking Woodstock" over the weekend... the LSD scene is done very well... I can just imagine that scene where he is looking over the crowd near the stage and what appears as though it could be music in combination with peoples' auras mingling around the center... WOW!

I'll have had a good few more trips by that time... I hope it will let me learn to differentiate more and perhaps manipulate my visuals too... play with them like a toy or moulding clay like Sproggy can do.

 

I have only experienced minor ego loss a few times on acid. When it happens to me my eyes are closed and I am experiencing visuals, but what actually triggers it is me trying to focus on the visuals very closely, then it feels like I (not my body but my 'essence' or whatever you want to call it) step through to the higher dimension. In this space I rarely remember all of it, but I must be different than you are in some way because what I see is not really something I can interpret in any way. It seems like I am being shown things but it's in a different visual language.