I have fantasized about getting spanked from I dunno, a young age (11?). Anyway, my current boyfriend is into it but I don't want him to do it because he is half my size and younger and just doesn't fit my image of a spanker. So I have been looking at craiglist or spanking parties (but I don't think I could go by myself ). The problem is I would feel like I would be cheating on him if I let someone else spank me, even if we didn't have sex. At least, I would have to keep it from him and I am a honest person and couldn't do that. What can I do to resolve this situation? I should add, it is on my mind daily, I really just want to try it at least once, to see if it is more than a fantasy.
Seems to me you know exactly what to do, but you're looking for verification from strangers to cheat. Break up with him, you know you don't like him. No, the fact that he does everything you ask of him, is not love. BTW, do you like your titties slapped? How big are they? What about your ass? :drool5:
OK, I have 2 suggestions for you. The first, have you considered self spanking? Some people, myself Included, can get very powerful self gratification from it. Others just cant make it work without a spanker, but it may be worth a try to give you a chance to experience a little something on your own and see just how Into it you are. Avoid the whole moral conflict for now through masturbation so to speak. By the way, have you ever been spanked in any for at all? Secondly, time for some self reflection. How do you really feel about this bf and are you being honest with yourself about why you will not broach the subject with him? If you really care about him you need to talk it over and see how he feels and if the two of you can come to a consensus on how to proceed. If you can't talk intimate things over with him how are you going to maintain a relationship? Plus you never know, he may surprise you; some of the most intense doms I have encountered are quite unassuming until they unleash the fury on you ass Either way good luck and I hope you get your ass blistered!
"self spanking?" - that's silly and selfish, a guy should do it he's into it, but you still don't want him to do it? now you're being unreasonable and if he doesn't turn you on doing that, maybe you could fantasize your father doing it? (freud would say) or get a new spanker, i mean boyfriend
There comes a point where you need to decide what it is you desire, particularly, and if you categorize it a "want" or a "need." If a "need" that your boyfriend cannot fulfill, perhaps it's time you did both of yourselves a favor and let him go.
