SinisterBotanist's 2C-B Trip Report: Cathartic Outpour of Psychedelic Love/Colors

So last night I had the privilege to use 2C-B wow

The last time I actually experienced a psychedelic was just over a year ago with psilocybin mushrooms. (Between then and now I have ingested various RCs at low doses as well as MDMA but did not get any effects likely because of my SSRI use, which had been discontinued for quite a while at the time of eating those compounds)

The mushroom experience was quite powerful, but I was turned off by its supreme cosmic-ness and lack of being 'useful' in everyday life. I was looking for something to use that would let me be grounded in my body and to fully express my emotions and such, without getting a mindfuck. And bam that's 2C-B for ya.

I down a 17mg capsule of 2C-B (HBr salt, mind you) at approx. 10 o' clock. I must be honest, I was extremely nervous. I just didn't know what to expect. I knew there was little I could do about the nervousness, so I let myself feel it out until the effects became known. I said Francious Fenelon's prayer, which I adopted from Leo Zeff's psychedelic psychotherapy. I passed time by reading this neat little scrapbook my mom made me, filled with various pictures of important days in my life and kind words as well. The plan was to get introspective and try to sort out what career would fit me best, as that is what I have been thinking about a lot recently.

I listened to plenty of music awaiting the first effects, which I took to be some pressure in my cheekbones. After about an hour or so since dropping, I started to try and check out the drug's activity by looking at some artwork. The reds of Monet were quite vivid, and often certain paintings appeared to be painting right before me on the paper. If I tried, I could get patterns on surfaces, but otherwise the only visual changes were of colors, and that is how I prefer it.

I got on the computer to look at some more artwork (which by the way, was stunning) when suddenly it struck me.. there are some emotions I have been holding back. A very close friend of mine recently had her baby die before she was delivered. I had painted something for her hoping it would help ease her pain and show that I cared and wanted to help somehow, but I had not had even cried over the death of my friend's child. (Zeppelin's The Rain Song was playing, appropriately) I was suddenly hit full force with the incredible pain of having to lose a child, and saw that she was feeling this everyday. The feeling was accompanied with a beautiful synaesthetic blending of waves of physical sensations all over my body and vivid colors. I cried and cried and sent her some texts about what I was feeling. She was glad to hear that someone realized the pain that she was in. I told her how proud of her I was. I cannot explain how strong and magical a mother's love is. We've used LSD together, so she was not bothered by the fact that I was tripping. I regard this as the peak, and it was probably two hours in.

After sorting through that, I played Stravinsky's Petrushka, which has become a huge favorite of mine recently. There was so much joy and color! This later section of the piece and onward especially moved me.

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I could really get 'into' the music and feel its raw emotional power. The harmonies, the joy, the colors, and my bodily sensations formed one absolutely breathtaking experience I can only hope to experience again.

I enjoyed much more music (it would unfold as oil paint!), explored the sexual aspects of the chem (obviously great), and then bundled up to go take a peak at the meteor shower outside. While the stars were beautiful , there wasn't a lot of action so I headed back inside. I wound down some with a bubble bath.

This night has been profoundly moving. I feel extremely blessed to have partaken in such a delightful experiment. I hope to explore 2C-B in slightly higher doses, because 8 hours of this could not in any sense be bad. It does not make any sort of assertions about the nature of the universe like mushrooms or acid potentially will, it just totally opens up your heart. It has a gentle, feminine, earthiness about her that I find totally marvelous. It is my favorite drug now. I am quite excited to explore 2C-B some more.

Note: I did not take the time to sit and explore my career options. That seemed to be quite a dreary sober activity. I do not expect for a career decision to come out of a single psychedelic session, but I am leaning towards one direction at this moment.

 

Sounds like a pretty amazing time
The one time that I got the effects you mention from 2C-B (melting colours, gently suggestive imagery) was the time I enjoyed it the most. Sadly it hasn't been like that more than once for me.

Either way it's good to hear that the dose was decent for you. I'm sure your friend was happy to hear about your connection to her emotions. It's always pretty incredible when a psychedelic shows you something that has been hanging around in your mind for a while without you noticing.

I enjoyed that music too btw, I hadn't heard that piece before but I quite like it.

 

You mentioned Leo Zeff (and the photos). Thinking you may be interested in this: http://www.maps.org/conference/ (early registration ends 12/21).

 

i would certainly welcome 8 or more hours, but one disappointment from 2cb is that it only lasts 4-6 hours for me.

but you could respond a lot differently than me. i hardly trip from less than 30 mg HBr

 

I'm a bit too tired to comment more than, really well written post on a most excellent experience. I too am a bit surprised at that level from 17mg, I've not had less than 25.
Still, pretty wonderful stuff.

 

You say it does not make assertions as acid or shrooms potentially do, could you further explain that? I mean, I want to try hallucinogenics very badly but I'm worried about having a bad trip. I'm dealing with a lot emotionally and mentally as I've been going through some hard times; my goal is to liberate my mind, not drown it in my existing fears. Do you think this 2C-B could possibly be the drug I am looking for? Please let me know your thoughts, I'm glad you had such a great experience <3

 

^^^you're about the 10 millionth person on a forum that wants to trip but is afraid of a bad trip.

that's 90% of what you hear about bad trips...newbies being afraid of having one.

ok, now that i've ranted a tiny bit....2cb is generally regarded as a psychedelic that is unlikely to give someone a "bad trip"
though i will say that my wife had some challenging moments on it while in public

 

Thanks, that helps but I guess like with any psychedelic it all depends on your mindset going into it, correct? Your chances of having a bad trip increase if you are stressing about it before hand.

 

Well, I was stressing going into this trip, but I realized it wasn't anything to worry about. Pre-trip anxiety melts away once the drug starts kicking in and effects start coming waves and you progressively get more into the experience, it's pretty awesome. I mean, so long as your in ideal set and setting. If you're inexperienced and take a psychedelic drug at a theme park or something, things usually don't unfold the way you'd like to.

What I mean about the assertions: With mushrooms especially (at least in my experience at 3.5g) there is a tendency for the trip to deal with the supreme cosmic order of reality. I mean, when I was on mushrooms, I literally understood the meaning of the universe, and that is such a mind-bending and euphoric and glorious and such a deeeeeeply profound experience. You might even be looking for an experience like that, since you want to liberate your mind. Psychedelics will not and can never enlighten you to a permanent state of bliss or anything, but they offer a window into such places, where there is no separation between spirit and matter. I honestly think everyone should experience it, but I personally do not feel the need to go that far out again, at least at the present time.

2C-B did not really have anything to say as far as the nature of reality, it was just very practical and aesthetically pleasing (though nowhere near the visuals of my shroom trip..). I am quite sure that higher doses of 2C-B can get me back into all-knowing mushroom land, though.

 

Makes sense, I think I am looking for something along the lines of a mushroom trip as you described. I just don't know if I'm ready for something so intense since I've never done psychedelics before, perhaps starting at an extremely low dose would be the best way to start as it is with any drug.

 

Well there are two schools of thought on that.

Some feel that having one or two small/medium dose experiences prior to going all in with a large dose trip is best.

Others feel that the best way is to just go with a good size dose right out the gate.

Both approaches have merit.
Dipping your toes in does help acquaint you with the effects and all, but bad or uncomfortable experiences are more likely on lower doses, especially for a first time. There is a point in high dose experiences when all the crap that would cause you to be anxious just isn't that relevant or you are able to view it from a more detached perspective.

Going all in and taking a big dose first time is often good because psychedelics really do have different effects at differing dosages and often a low dose experience will leave you underwhelmed or you get stuck in the thought loops of mind and are reluctant to venture back again.

Down side can be if you are overwhelmed by the immense flood of sensory and emotional/mental input. Some folks don't handle that aspect well. The secret is to just relax and allow the experience to unfold. Trying to control and resist the effects is very often the source of bad experiences.

By going all in you crash past a lot of BS and get the full experience and then the light-bulb goes on and you say to yourself
"Aha, now I understand.:sunny:"

Main thing is, as you mentioned, mind set, and setting.

 

i think you're touching on a main difference between tryptamines and phenethylamines. something like mushrooms is a lot more likely to take to you "all knowing land" than something like 2cb. 45 mg of 2cb was quite a strong and great trip, but it's not as "cosmic" or enlightening as mushrooms can be. i've had very profound experiences on 2ce though, which most people don't find to be all that life-changing. i did - so it's not impossible with a phen, but they are quite different than mushrooms.

 

I miss mushies, it's been well over a year since my last trip.

 

^^me too