I have been in and out of psych wards, trial and error with boat loads of meds, and even maxed out the legal limit of ect for my lifetime. Most of the time I'm completely fine and functional. I keep my house clean, I'm capable of keeping a full time job while schooling full time and raising my son (5 years old) on my own. I am normally sad and paranoid through most of this but, I cope. Maybe once every few years I can't leave my house.. for months. I just don't do it. I lose my job, I get dropped from school, I become months behind on all of my bills, and I don't speak to anyone. As of '09 I've exhausted medications. I've had horrible side effects with almost every one (which is what led to the ect). I feel I'm dangerously addicted to benzo's which sucks because it's the only thing that calmed me down. I was on a very heavy daily dose of klonopin the last time I was committed and I got a really smart doctor (sarcasm) that took me off cold turkey. Which is very bad and very dangerous. The withdraw lasted months. That's also where me not being able to leave my house came from. Before that I was depressed. But, I could be depressed outside too. I'm sure there are doctors that know what they're doing and care about their job. I've never had one. I get 5 minutes with a doctor who asks me what my problem is, I give them a 90 second description, and they give me several scripts with descriptions printed out from the drug company's website. It's so scary! I have changed so significantly from the drugs I've been given. I've had allergies that almost killed me. Side effects warranting further medication. And, addictions developed. I won't even get into how them shocking my brain has effected what little life I've managed to have through all of this. I don't know.. I don't think there's a question in all this because I don't think there's a solution to my problem. I haven't seen a Psychiatrist or Psychologist in years. I'm just trying to leave my house and rebuild again before I lose my house to collectors.
Oh, I totally smoke. And I'm slightly more sane for it. When I used to do acid, I feel, that bought me a few extra years between break downs too. But, I can't do acid anymore. Not until my son has a job and his own place, anyway.
sorry to hear that you have been going through this you may want to try visiting www.suicideforum.com to talk about this you may want to check out the book "curing depression naturally with chinese medicine" by bob flaws you should be eligible for free legal aid to help you with your housing issues. since you have a young child, I think you said, there are probably some provisions in the law to help protect you law schools will sometimes have their own legal aid groups, or you may be able to find them elsewhere hope this helps and that things can get better soon!
I feel for you. The mental health system is compleatly failing people. Todays McThearpy treatment makes thearpy nearly useless. Psych docs are just as you described. Each doc has their pet meds and if you have to see a new doctor he/she will think nothing of jerking your meds around on the first session. What the doctor did to you was irresponsible! If you have the ability to get away from a county clinic. Online forums might be a place to get some supportduring those times when you can't get out. Any book by Mary Ellen Copland is acess great reed. She suffered with Bi-polar and the meds damaged her liver forcing her off the meds. Back then the system had nothing in the way of alternative treatment to offer so she had to get creative and do it herself. Some other books I like are potatos not prosac and sugar blues. Both good books on nutrition for people with depression. I strongly suggest exercise if you can and meditation. Both can be very helpful. Support groups can be a great place to find someone you trust and understands what you are going through. I do encourage you to get out as much as possible. You don't want to isolate yourself and ruminate over your problems as that can lead to harmful thoughts. However, if you are getting parinoid and scard I don't want to suggest anything that would make things worse. There are also peer counseling and advocacy groups that can help you acess comunity reasources to help with your financial issues. I hope you feel better and find your path to recovery.
In terms of pharmacuetical drugs, you should be afraid. They are made at the cheapest possible cost with the sole purpose of making a profit with no regard for the patient other then sucking as much money from them as possible. Look into extracted cannabinoid oil. It will help rebalance your body and mind in a natural way.
This. Get a therapist, too. Not like the kind you've seen, even just a calm friend (or hell, stranger) who makes good conversation. You might consider trying things like yoga, tai-chi (probably spelled that wrong), acupuncture, massage, etc etc. Even just exercise helps me greatly, though I have a hard time sticking to it. But when the shit hits the fan, I do pushups 'till my arms fall off, and feel better.
All of these suggestions are wonderful, thank you. I actually have am abundance of exercise equipment in my house left by my dad and brothers. I have been playing with the idea of yoga for a while. I just need to do it. And, I'm definitely going to look into Mary Ellen Copland. Funnily enough, I have quite the liver damage myself. But, that was a result of one of my attempts. Sneaky Tylenol poisons you slowly.
Change your diet. Cut out processed shit and eat real foods, you'll become a whole new, happier, more energetic person in no time
I've been through some of the same stuff as you. They are just cycling through this list of drugs that don't really help, and then you have to get off of them and go through withdrawal. I can't offer much help, as I am going through a wave of mental disfunction myself right now, just want you to know you're not alone. I'm seriously thinking of joining a gym though to try some exercising to help with my anxiety.
You should! I've started exercising and it's been helping a lot. This morning, for example, I was having a panic attack so I just laid on the floor and started doing crunches. It didn't make it go away but it focused me a bit and I was able to chill out a bit and get my morning things done. I joined a gym but have never gone... But, I do run. Running seems to help and is surprisingly addicting. I hope I can stick with it. Good luck to you as well. And, thank you.
opiates remember etkamane on here? he was given suboxone for his phsyc problems. i have bad soical and other anixty and depression bad, my dad had it to and he killed himself. opiates are a life saver for me.
drugs are scary, especially when condoned and given freely. you've taken so many different types of drugs.... and that terrifies me. they gave you something, told you to come back and tell them how you felt.... that's so fucked up. you shouldn't take drugs and see if they help, you should know before hand if they'll help at all. D:
I thought suboxone was for quitting heroine. I don't know. Doctor says opiates are bad for my arthritis. Besides, I used to make tea from dried poppies (no seeds!) a few years ago. But, I can't imagine being in any way a functional mom while nodding out in front of my son.
