Okay, I dont know if this will make much sense.. Is it possible to subconsciously have an eating disorder? I'll elaborate. I like food, I'm picky but will eat a full plate. I have no other issues other than that. I've got a tiny appetite though so will skip meals during the day because I'm just not hungry. I dont hate my body, actually without sounding big headed, I think I've done pretty well considering I put on 40+pounds during pregnancy (18 months ago). So I have no food issues or body issues but after most meals, I am sick. It's just become a casual thing now, I dont do it to myself and I don't actually feel ill, its almost automatic as in it will happen in restaurants, friends houses etc. I don't know what it is, but a lot of people think I'm doing it to myself, which I really am not, I'm around 105lbs and don't want to be smaller than this. So, I don't really understand whether its a physiological issue or not, like if subconsciously I am doing it to myself, I don't know if thats possible. But its almost constant, sometimes a lot worse than others (some weeks itll be once or twice, others itll be every meal). Im genuinely concerned, so is my dude as he's one of the only people who sees first hand I'm not forcing it. Doctors didn't say much, just to eat less incase I'm making myself too full up and to drink more water... I had blood tests done which show I'm anemic but that's all so I am on iron tablets as well as my very green veggie diet. Also had allergy testing but nothing (dairy, soya, celiac/gluten, egg...think that was it)
You do not have an eating disorder. I've worked in this area - and see people with genuine mental disorders relating to eating. There are a plethora of books on the issue. This seems wise: eat less incase I'm making myself too full up and to drink more water. Nobody is perfect.
I'm just confused that's all. I had an eating disorder from the age of around 8 up until 15, technically it was still going on until I was 18, but I had control at this point and managed to over come it. That's why I asked if it was maybe subconcious because at times I feel like its almost triggered. I've noticed when my life is busier, it becomes more frequent. I don't know if its something wrong with my body, or something with my mind, or nothing at all. I guess I'm just very confused.
Some people eat when they think they need to eat, and think they need to eat x amount everyday. I eat lightly. I can go through a day eating a sandwich and an energy drink, and function. If you are eating what your body needs you will be ok. If not, you won't. I am making light of this, it might be a lot more complicated. See a GP, if you are worried.
I would say see your doctor. Hard to believe that you could subconsciously make yourself vomit without physically forcing yourself to do so. (imo)
