Fuck I don't know where to start I am happy around my friends but when I'm by myself I'm always sad. I want to be on some anti depressants. Fuck It I don't even want to be happy, if I was then I'd lose my identity. One of my friends said I'm just looking for sympathy from others. Life sucks at times. I got some pretty weird and fucked up thoughts. I think about suicide but I know I'll never even ever attempt it. LIFE SUCKS! 19 fucking years old havent kissed a girl or even had a girlfriend. Ha fucking pathetic. I don't even look good. I am short, got an ugly physique. I've lost all my faith in God. Without sadnesss how does one ever fall in love? Alll love stories are based off sadness. The thing is I live in a 1st world country and I think I am healthy enough. But I'm still not satisfied. Ahhh I don't even know what I'm saying.
Even though some people claim they needed antidepressants because they have a "chemical imbalance" I would stay away from them if at all possible... They (antidepressants) don't make you happy, they make you not feel anything. They also have a huge list of side effects related to them. Most people that have depression have "situational depression" Change the situation in their life that's the cause and the depression goes away. Diet, exercise, proper sleep and a life style that brings out your best is the way to go. Happiness can't be found in a pill...
There are plenty of short, ugly guys who have girlfriends. If you think you're pathetic, you'll be pathetic. To change your situation, a change of mind would be helpful. Try being kind to yourself today
like Tyrsonswood said - eating well, getting regular sleep, and exercising daily (even if you just go for a 20 minute walk, it's better than nothing) can make a huge difference. try to get yourself doing these things regularly for a week or two before making the decision to try anti-depressants. you might find a big difference. it's also worthwhile to get some bloodwork done to see if you're low on iron or B12. you can try taking B12 without any worries - you'll just piss out any extra, but taking iron should only be done if you're deficient because it can be dangerous if you take too much.
Sometimes you just can't change your situation and you have to take pills untill the change will be possibile or you will fail miserably at everything that is possibile.
True, but that "failing miserably" is a sign that you need to change the situation. Depression is natural, it's your brain telling you to "get the fuck out of here" and into a better place. The un-natural pills just put you in a place where you don't care anymore about what your brain is trying to tell you. I told my Psyche Doc "I feel mentally numb" when I was on Cymbalta and he said "Numb is good, I'm going to double your dose" That's when all hell broke loose. Being mentally numb is not good.
Where's your "1st world country"? That may make a difference too. Along with all of the above. What do you do for a living? Background needed.
These threads don't need the whole pro-med and anti-med debate. The comments are never 100% accurate for either side. The use or nonuse choice is very individual and very personal. Don't confuse the guy. Slingshotz.....sorry to hear things are rough right now. There's been times in my life, that no matter where I turn, I get no relief. It makes it hard to find an answer, and to reassure you that you'll get an answer. One thing that is almost sure.....seeking externally only helps to a degree and sometimes only for a short time. Setting and reaching goals helps, exercise helps, good nutrition helps, having money helps, spending time with friends helps, doing your hobbies help, etc. Serenity is the key. Things like nature, music, bird watching, gardening, pets, art, a good documentary, books, well brewed coffee, is all very soothing. Try to slow down. Be patient. Tomorrow will come and bring new opportunities.
Well, Slingshots ... seems to me you're really wallowing in it, right? Self Importance, I mean. what's your main Feeling here? 'depressed' is not a feeling ... its a notion people have when they can't sort out their feelings. I 'll go out on a limb here and suggest yr main feeling is one of ANGER! that you're not an Adonis? that you're not rich? that you're nineteen? but whatever, I 'll bet it's anger ... go out in the woods and yell for a while. join a gym and punch a bag. the depression will go away whiule you do. of course if you THINK all the time it'll just come back ... find someone else to talk to ... even if it's old ladies at the shopping centre ...
I want to see a psychologist or something. I just want to tell someone things I've never told anyone. I got some pretty messed up, creepy, fucked up thoughts in my head.
Pills!! it like hiding from your real world, how can you deal with your problems when you have some thing that make you feel that they are not real?? Isn't that make you a coward? NO change without any force to change, if no one can make you to force that change then you turn to pills and that means you are not up to the challenge.
Look, I've been waking up every day wanting to kill myself or kill and torture others. I didn't felt anything but huge sadness. I used to go alone, at complete dark, moonless night into deep forest I didn't know just to feel fear. Just to feel something different than usuall pain. My memory was shit. I couldn't remember what someone said to me last sentence. I couldn't focus on anything. Once nearly overdosed because I just didn't care what could happen to me. I have fucked up school completly, from A's I've felt to F's. It was miracle that I've passed. Now I'm on pills, everything above dissappeared. It isn't perfect but it is way better than it was. There is one year left of school and I'm leaving country and going to uni. Without these pills I'd probably end up working at McDonalds if I didn't kill myself or someone other meantime. So please shut the fuck up and think before you say stupid shit.
Indeed, while some people may not like anti-depressants, they are literally life savers for others. Lets keep this in mind before painting with broad strokes.
If it's okay. May I ask you....was there a specific event or something that happened to you that made you this way? (You don't have to be specific or even answeer the question at all).
Where do you live? You can usually find something for free, although you might have to wait for a while.
most states offer free government health insurance, which also covers mental health benefits. you should check into that.
You got some serious pent up frustrations brother! Let me tell you a story, mine specifically. I was your age, hated the world, hated myself more, and couldn't sort out why I felt like shit all the time. Turns out, and I still don't know why, I developed Bipolar Depression. Now I'm not saying you have it. But talking to a councellor might help you sort that out if it is the case. But normal advice aside....you have to accept yourself, otherwise no woman ever will. If you don't like your physique....change it. You got pimples? You wash your face like its your religion. You fat? Run! Run some more! You got no muslces? Lift weights and pound the protein. Everything is in your control brother. You have to turn that introspective eye in on its self and tell your insecurities to fuck off kindly.
