Not sure how to feel...

I've had feelings for a close and long time friend for awhile now and we've been through very personal and grand times. I helped him when a drunk crazy guy pushed him over broke a bottle and tried to stab him. I was fighting this guy and he just stood there while I in turn got stabbed a few times and my "friend" did nothing at all. This happened awhile ago but whenever he says I don't care enough I bring up that night.

He dared to say that I brought it on myself... I just wanted to make sure this lunatic wasn't going to stab him at all, not to mention it could have been fatal cause he froze up and was helpless. Now I don't know if I should ever help a friend or someone I love (other than my parents or grandparents obviously). It just destroys me whenever I think of how abandonned I felt that time, watching him just stand there. I feel so pathetic that this person is the best I could ever have as a long term, life time friend, closest person I've ever known. Still some of my best memories are with him. I would so quickly give my life and fight for all I'm worth to defend someone close, and expect the same. I just don't know to feel now that I've been told that "I brought this on myself.." Should I just forget him even if it means that I will be very lonely for a long time. I'm not even sure if this relevant to gay forums cause he was my best friend regardless and would have defened as much as family.

 

Sounds like you could have a better friend than this guy. Yes, you may be lonely for a short time without him, but you sound like a guy that someone would love to have. Someone to jump in and save him, someone that probably does all kinds of things for him. Keep him as a good friend, but move on to find someone else as a lover.

 

some people get like that, they just freeze up in a dangerous situation. you can't really blame them, i don't think it's something they choose to do. and later on they can feel embarrassed about it, and try to make light of it. which might be what the 'you brought it on yourself' was in this case. standing up for a friend is never a wrong thing to do. even if they react badly under fire, it doesn't erase what came before that.

i'd just let this one slide. you did the right thing. and there's no point in getting on his case about not reacting any better. he was scared shitless, he froze up, it happens. he's a friend and just let it go.