My belief of my dumb decision and bad trip

Some of you may know about me taking 25i 10 hours before having to pick my dad up from work. If not see this thread (http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=457930&f=126)

I have a belief about this trip.
The decision i made was very unlike me. I'm usually cautious when it comes to these decisions.
But if you refer to my thread, at this part.

I believe that a higher power, someone or something wanted me to experience that night. I've spent a long time thinking about this and i have come to a conclusion that maybe that was something throwing me into the future of what my continued erratic drug use would turn me into.

I believe that it was a sign. That if i didn't slow down or quit my drug use over all that i would one day get deja vu and be in that exact perdiciment.

Since that day i have been sober from the belief that a sign was brought to me from someone or something to slow down.

Any thoughts?

 

judging by that other post, sobriety is probably a good choice for you.

 

It is possible that in the very same event a higher power willed it to happen, and it was simply a stupid mistake that you made. If you have a spiritual worldview then there's no particular reason to think that one event is of divine occurrence and not that all events are of divine occurrence. All things can be considered the work of a higher power, and can all at the same time be your own choices. The idea there is that you are part of the higher power. It acts in, through, and all around you, and it is everything.

 

I try to alway have a tripping partner. If things get to freaky someone to watch out for me. Pyschedelics often do lead to life changing experiences.

This may have subconsciously influenced your trip.

 

I would definitely take it as a sign. Do you know how many people end up frying their brain from taking too many drugs. Don't get me wrong, I love to do drugs, but you can't race through them like an addict!

I have a "blue moon" clause that I use whenever I do illegal drugs (besides weed). Once in a blue moon! This keeps me from living in an altered state of hell!

 

My thoughts are that you're using this "higher power" to justify your poor decisions and behavior.

 

good posts

 

i think you were just trippin balls dude! Some of your account is reminescent of dissociatives where your thinking becomes delusional and your brain makes sees the connections between things that are totally believable.