working w/straight guys, I crossed the line

Hi, I'm 21....Ill try & and make it short, a couple straight guys I work w/ felt sorry for me so they started inviting me out. W/one it was all cool (call him josh) met his friends, And did something they were doing that made me tweak and freak out to where he went in the room and calmed
Me down. A week past and and the other one (andrew) told me he heard about my freak out and that they prob aren't gonna wanna hang out no more. (everyone knows I have a crush on Josh and I play around w/ him) so me Josh and Andrew hung out again at Andrews house after work. We got drunk, Josh wanted to make a point to me that we're never gonna hook up, and I got it. Josh went home, and Andrew puts a porno on, and I end up giving him a blow job.... He told me to after I said no time and time again, but I did it anyway.....he has a wife and kids... After it was over Andrew says it can't get out to anybody, I agree, but I am afraid he'll tell somebody. I'm afraid too because if his wife finds out....they have a gun... And she's crazy. He's going to jail come january, and I feel like I need to get out of the job, I've been looking and applying but it's hard....how do I make it and what do I do till January if I can't find another job? Please help, I feel so lost and alone

 

act like it didnt happen and remain professional.

 

What if they bring it up again, they can tell when I'm lying. Their 6- 9 years older than me and street smart... Me I've been sheltered...These are the first straight guys I've ever been real and expressed me with. I just can't stop my anxiety around them cause they know everything about me, except where I live thank god : )

 

andrew's not a straight guy. and he's the one that cheated on his wife with a guy, why would he ever tell anyone?

 

He is straight, but would do a guy if he is weak innocent and pure. Or tight as the way he puts it. I asked him if he'd tell Josh cause them two are close and have that straight guy kinship that I feel left out of....I don't know for sure...but I think when Josh left he knew what Andrew was planning w/me. They smile and secretly talk to eachother with their eyes and they think I don't see that. When I asked him though he said "are you stupid? No cause then i have To prove to them I'm not gay" I feel like they tell me what they want and they talk for real between themselves.

 

straight guys don't ask another guy for blowjobs no matter how "tight" he may be.

i guess if josh knows that andrew is bi, then andrew might tell him.

 

I'm just not going to mess with them anymore, even though I was drunk and the one who gave the blowjob, like a whore : ( , their too sneaky and tricky. I guess I learned the lesson the hard way, business and pleasure don't mix.

 

And he can't be gay. Hes too....thugish lol he claims guys get turned easily by anything if it reminds them of a girl, Josh even backed him and said "you do have a sweet ass michael...but not for me" and then he looked at Andrew and smiled.

 

I do not feel attracted to Andrew at all....gross I don't know why I did what I did.

 

"And did something they were doing that made me tweak and freak out to where he went in the room and calmed" doesn't make sense.. think u worded the sentence wrong.

I'm straight and there is no way I'd do a guy.. especially because he shits from that hole!!

 

I am sorry to say, but a man is not straight if he can get hard for another man to suck him off! At the very least he is bi. I am a very openminded person myself, but there is no way in hell my dick would stay hard if another man was sucking on it. Whatever works for others is fine, but not my thing. Does not matter if he is thugish or not to be able to be aroused by another man makes him bi.

 

The guy is 'thugish and on his way to prison maybe a return visit. In prison only the bpttom not the top is considered 'gay'.

 

That guy is not straight.

You seem to be in a bad spot emotionally, causing angst and hanging out in bad situations where you'll do something you'll regret later which causes more angst.

Focus on the simple things in life and forget romance for now. Just get yourself together.

 

This is correct.

 

Did he ejaculate??