Here`s what I`m discovering: I can still masturbate even when I don`t have time to masturbate. My work schedule this semester from Monday through Thursday is rough. I put in 12+ at work, uninterrupted. Yesterday, I was obviously very sexually pent up as I was getting ready for work, but I was in a hurry. In the back of my mind somehow, I was thinking, if only I can get through the day, I`ll get some release when I come back home. But, I couldn`t stop myself, so I gave it a couple of strokes and felt eerily satisfied... I didn`t cum, yet that was all I needed at that moment to feel well throughout the day. It just hit me that I can always take a few seconds to do that, no matter the situation or how busy. If you have time to pee, you have time to jerk off. It`s a kind of edging. It`s really liberating to realize that I don`t have to cum every time I masturbate. Likewise, I have also come to the realization that, when I have a partner, cumming or even getting hard isn`t all there is to a sex experience. What do you do when you`re horny but too busy to get off?
I just bought myself a new wireless remote controlled bullet just for a busy work week. I can slip it in when I leave the house, or at anytime really, and just reach in my purse and hit the button when I want a thrill. And I don't have to cum every time myself I'm learning. Sometimes just to feel alive and sexual is a good enough feeling.