One thing I have come across on this forum is people who have had long term treatment with medications which is used as a cheap alternative to counselling due to the lack of funding going into the medical system, one of the draw backs of this is people\patients feel disconnected or even a problem to health care. what we have to remember is that depression and mental illness is still a very new thing and people are becoming more aware over time that this is a real problem but this still holds a certain amount of stigmata. You only have to look at how are lives run day to day everyone is trying to get places faster, people are afraid to talk to each other, money has become a huge need for many and this ties into fears, just look at what we have increased levels of caffeine, faster technology, energy tablets, body proteins, anti-depressants, even such things like Viagra and wide screen TVs all bring to us a need to move as fast as possible and have a need for the biggest and the best. So what I say to you is take your time, I have suffered from years of depression it wasn’t until I slowed down and thought about myself and what I needed in life that I started to prioritise everything and see what everything really looked like. I am not perfect as my grammar will suggest witch I apologies for. but from what I can see there is no perfect human or animal even trees have flaws in them but this is what make them different from all other trees, one saying has always stuck in my head and that is nothing in nature is even, this is also true in humans but we are always trying to obtain perfection look at everything we build from city’s to cars all trying to be perfect but this is an imposable task as we can only be the best that we can be and flaws are an important part of individuality. For anyone contemplating suicide please stop slow down and think about what affect will my actions have on others and most of all myself ? Suicide never addresses the problem maybe for the individual but the sadness and pain is passed on to others to bear. The worst thing I remember is waking up after a overdose the next day and realising no one had even cheeked on me and going to hospital a few weeks later to see what potential damage I had done to my liver. But what I learnt is that no one even knew that I was suicidal even my closest friends never new, half the time people don’t suspect it as a saying goes it is the people you lest expect, I have had friends who have seemed the most joy filled out of all of us and they both committed suicide one wrapped a make shift nose around her neck and chocked to death the other had taken a high dose of sleeping tablets and just weighted till he fell of the cliff. And in the end other people had taken there burden of sadness, there are other ways medication is just one of them take time out for yourself, see what other people do to relax, people watch in the parks or bars, write everything down, and the biggest mistake that is made and one people take for granted is talking to someone using your voice to hear your problems and to have someone listen is one of the greatest healing tools known to man, think of sadness or depression as a bad root you need to start from what you know and work your way down until you find what it is, most of the time it can be used for bettering yourself, I have had a long period of depression and suicidal thoughts which is why I have taken the time to write on here what I feel. the point I am trying to make is that everyone will be missed, you will be missed. eace:
