For the Sake of Both Clarity and Amiability

First, it's intended that whomever deems it necessary to click on this thread to preview it, should––out of mere consideration for the time, sincerity, intention, and immense detail that went into the construction of this comment––so too deem it necessary to at least skim through it to understand its gist. I've even sectioned off each main point for easier navigation.

But the message will be here, whether deemed as frivolous and is avoided and disregarded, or deemed laudable and printed out and put in a frame. Though those who find it worthy of reading are highly appreciated. Those who need to read it most are even more appreciated if they do so. Now, on to the thread's nucleus:
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I. A Prelude to an Essay That Can Hopefully Clear a Turbid Air​

My personality and intellect have seemed to become a topic of discussion, disgust, or even adulation recently, and with some threads in which I've participated seeming to ultimately segue to a misappropriate discussion of who I am or what one believes I am, rather than what my posts are about. In this manner, I feel that it's necessary to expound on a few essential things with the prospect of staving off any further misconceptions about who I am and what I am, tout de suite.

I'll try my best not to hold forth and type a lengthy harangue that will deter people from giving this post its due consideration and instead simply turn a deaf ear to it, effectively making this comment futile and purposeless. If I do see verbosity showing itself, I'll assuredly formulate this comment in such a way as to make reading it more accessible.

II. A Brief, Brusque, yet Expressly Modest Exegesis on My Cognitive Profile​

So, getting to what's topically appurtenant to the discussion of my intelligence––which I feel some have seemed to really gild the lily about. My IQ, if you find that such psychometric testing is precise in what it purports to do, has been measured on three separate occasions and with two different brands of tests.

The first IQ test that I was given was administered by a clinical psychologist, who also diagnosed me with Asperger's syndrome during the same visitation, when I was 15 (in the year 2009); it was the WAIS-IV test (of which a synopsis can be viewed by clicking here) that I had taken. My score wasn't able to be quantified because of the test's short ceiling (of an IQ 160), but was assessed at ~162, or roughly 4 standard deviations above the mean; "profoundly gifted", the test administrator/clinical psychologist had remarked for what purpose seems to have been to illustrate what my score meant according to the formal psychometric nominal descriptions of different scores (which can be viewed at a website that can be accessed by simply clicking on this text) and to express his own opinion of what my score bespoke of me.

Another test that I'd been given twice was called the Stanford-Binet IQ test (taken in the year 2010 and again in 2012). In each case, a professional assessment was given that placed me somewhere between an IQ of 153-157.

So, for brevity's sake, we can conclude therefrom that my IQ is approximately 160 (e.g., a smidgen higher than the average IQ of a summa cum laude graduate from an accredited top ten university) or, in other words, I've an intellectual rarity of approximately 1 in 32,000 people; not that worthy of writing home about, considering I'm surrounded daily by people with whom I share an intellectual equipollence with, such as my academic coevals, a lot of my friends, nearly all of my immediate family, etc.

III. The Underlying Adverse and Abnormal Psychological Causality of That IQ and the False Impression of My Grandiosity​

My intellect is all presumably concomitant with my psychiatric impediments. As was touched on earlier (in Part II), I have been diagnosed in 2009 with a so-called "pervasive developmental disorder" (PDD), of the kind known as Asperger's syndrome (AS) or High Functioning Autism (HSA). While the diagnosis may have been rather belated, AS has obviously existed with me since inception and is genetically linked. Because of this, my neuropsychological profile is such that I'm adept at language, mathematics, memory, etc., (as a caveat, these are abilities not exhibited in all people with AS, but in my case the AS is, in my opinion, of an obvious influence to those aforesaid abilities) but profoundly inept at the most basic things of life such as social interactions, expressions or recognitions of empathy, and even carrying out simple life-sustaining activities, such as grocery shopping, which could necessitate another person's assistance.

Some may erroneously interpret my actions, which are what I usually see as being characteristic of normal and appropriate behaviors, as pomposity, pedantry or gasconade or even as viewing myself with superiority or others with inferiority. But what's there to make me superior when I cannot function normally or decorously at an even basal level in life?

If given the druthers, would you really choose book smarts, mathematical proficiency, and a high sensitivity to linguistic information coupled with being perceived as socially abnormal and with a pronounced paralinguistic ineloquence (or awkward body language)? Or would you rather be intellectually average but still having the capacity to socialize uninhibited or fettered by immutable genetically predetermined foibles in your neuropsychological function? If the latter, there should be no reason to take umbrage with my mentioning of my abilities in light of the unfair trade-off biology has bestowed me with.

In my life, I'm grateful to have been endowed with interests that have lead me down paths where cognitive performance is held to a higher standard than a gregarious demeanor or expertise in sociability, to wit: my love of science, reading, language, writing, etc. The latter of which is the only viable means through which I have the potential of displaying a passable normality. There are none of the intricacies of real social interaction present in the text; I can say what I want and be perceived as neurotypical, albeit sometimes turgid in my use of language or arrogant with my tone. These things, perhaps unwittingly to their percipient, constitute the tell-tale signs of what the matter really is, and it's not negativity or grandiosity on my part, but uncontrollable psychological dictation that we all have; some people's psychological composition––and thus their manners of behavior, as it goes without saying–– simply differ noticeably from the norm and, as per my own observations, this seems to elicit the wrong responses in those who are within the norm or unacquainted with anything peripheral to it.

IV. High Time for an Apology To Whomever I've Upset​

If I've made anyone of you feel fit to tied and agitated with me and my disposition, rejoice in the fact that I'm not at all implying that I'm better than anyone; I'm merely flexing the one attribute I have that I can definitively say something positive about.

Intelligence is a touchy issue for most people, I know. But I want to fit in here without having to become someone who I am not, by way altering my writing style, using a more socially apropos and abstruse lexicon (one that I've merely acquired by listening to other people and reading books, lest you think I'm the type to study dictionaries, scan incessantly for synonyms in a thesaurus, etc.).

Though no one has yet suggested the idea, I'm curious if the consensus here is that I should leave these forums for the better, or if no one seems willing to take my comments in stride and abstain from bitterness? I'll capitulate to this forum's justified desires and go without a fuss on my way out, or stay with rejoice if the consensus comfortably permits it. But one should always endeavor to at least try to understand the depth of a person before hastily casting judgement and chastising them.

V. The Epilogue That Seemed it Would Never Arrive​

As a postlude to this monstrosity of textual information that may have been perceived as possessing a seemingly unabated and insufferably tortuous duration, I would only like to say that I enjoy this forum, appreciate its members, and can hopefully be around long enough to see any of the wounds I've inflicted, both with my argumentation and with my 5 mile long posts which have surely caused at least a couple forum members' unfortunate hospitalizations upon their attempts to read them through, heal along with some putatively negative views held of me change for the better. That's all I have to say, and I hope that this post can serve to bury the hatchet with anyone I may be on bad terms with on these forums by dint of putting a new perspective on things.


À la prochaine...

 

uuuh...what?

 

I really really really dont care..

thanks for trying tho..

if you are butt hurt by that rep, then the rest the sharks are going to eat you alive..

 

My neg rep was in jest. Would a plus rep suffice to stop the bickering? I'll give you one anyway, orison. Being vindictive is tiresome.

 

You seem like a bright guy Ergative - but suggest you read some Hemmingway to sharpen up your prose style.Have fun...

 

Glad you cleared that up.

 

Thanks for the suggestion; I've never heard of Hemingway prior to your mention of him. His writing style seems to be more his magnum opus than what he has written, if a quick Google search is of any accurate indication.

 

Well it's all been said before hasn't it?

 

You write really well, hope you feel better, and are appreciated for clarifying to those who ...mocked you? don't know im sorry, this is the first post of yours i've read. Good therapy for you to put the real you out there. Hope you get the responses and the respect you deserve friend.

 

Yes Hemmingway was famed for his clipped and terse prose style - but he also new how to tell a good story.

 

"A bore is a person who opens His mouth and puts his feats in it."

-Henry Ford

 

tldnr

 

Thank you so much for your post and appreciation of my writing. This thread constitutes what was a well-needed catharsis. I'd be just as happy with it had I written it for only my own viewing, but decided I'd post it here for conversation. Its inception was machinated wholly under the wonderful inflatus that was the result of PCP and a quietus solitude; alone with only my mind in a state of refulgent bliss. It was indeed an epiphany that I had, I think.

 

Wtf ???

 

Thank you for the post. I'd take being a bore over a boor any day of the week, though! So, I'll give you a plus rep for the contribution to the thread.

 

Beats me. I typed the damned thing and am still scratching my head in befuddlement.

 

Methinks Ergative is having a little fun with us...

 

Yea, fun as in writing a dozen paragraph, five section exposition? There's no jubilant cajolery, jeering, trolling, sarcasm, or whatever else you might think constitutes as having "fun" with this forum's members. I wanted to let the forum know a little more about me and to apologize to people that I've either offended or made pretend to be offended with my sometimes excessively vituperative posts.

You guys should lighten up, a little. I thought psychedelics did something in the way of instilling kindness and congeniality into people. It does for me, so that's good enough, I suppose.

 

I think the point was to show they had a legitimate reason for being grandiose,
which turns out to be, I can't help it, I'm great.

 

I think the point of your comment is to show a legitimate reason for being derisive, which turns out to be, I can't help it, I'm an ass. I joke! I joke! Nothing like a little banter to assuage the unkindness.

Actually, your synopsis of my original post wasn't inclusive of the main point of that aforesaid post, therefore it wasn't a synopsis of anything but your own fabricated and probably more desirous alternative to what I had said.

So let me, the author of the post, clarify it for you. Instead of an insolent "I'm great and can't help it" perspective, the nub of my post was that I'm not grandiose, supreme, precedent, or any other superlative and when people interpret my posts as though that's my opinion, they're invariably wrong as it isn't my opinion and they should then stop with the unnecessary pandemonium and hysteria over something so trivial. My AS is sometimes a hindrance in effectively conveying what I want to say and in the way I want to say it. Accusations of arrogance, self-importance, or contumely typically ensue as a result. What's wrong with righteous and well-deserved high self-esteem, anyway? People's own feelings of inadequacy.

But let's assume I am grandiose. Does someone claiming that they're better than you cause some sort of psychological discomfort because grandiosity and arrogance may be a characteristic of yourself, per chance? "I'll be damned if this guy thinks he's better than me. Let me write this post to point out his foibles and make myself feel better :computer:".

Yea, that's the perception I get about people like you. But it's all good, my man! No need to get so petulant over something if it isn't true, yea?