Whats the point of waking up.

Life is so dull, I try and have fun as much as possible but life is on loop. Day after day i do the same thing, I turn in 15 applications for jobs and haven't received 1 call. 3 of my best friends are out of town for the summer, I have no car and only wakeup because I have too.

Im exploring suicide out of curiosity, I have had depression before and this is much different, I just want all this to stop. Im not stressed out I am perfectly fine I think, life seems like it doesn't want me anymore, it's not showing ANY love. Not just interjectional love but literal love. And everytime I try and pursue a girl she gets her distance, im not sure if theres a rumor or what. I am jsut being who I am and it seems like everyone is too good for me, I get along better with adults but why would an adult hang out with a fucking teenager....

Advice? Help?

Anything is appreciated.

 

I don't get along with people my own age so I talk with adults, although I'm meant to be an adult too. 26? But as a teenager it was the same.
The trick here is to not worry about life or assume that you need to do anything because of life.
Create your own personal dogma or religion and live for what purposes you desire.
And remember, boredom is just a dull era in time and will pass.

 

just take a deep breath.. be still and reflect. suicide is not the way to go. you say "every time," but how many times are we really talking about? teenage relationships are nuts anyway.. its just a numbers game to get a little action here and there and takes trial and error. i often got along better with adults too, but now that i'm a little older, i get along with my peers. hang in there bro.. the ups and downs are what its all about.

 

Well if I sleep too long, my back hurts. So that's why I wake up.

 

mine usually hurts going to bed, then its better when i wake up.. remember dont go to bed angry, and dont eat when angry.

 

I'm on baths at the moment just to help my back and it seems to work. =]
But once it cools down it needs another bath. =[
I have a wheat sack to warm in the microwave. They're good.

 

You can't wait 2 months to see the 3 best friends you have? They're gonna be pissed if you're not around when they get back.

Find something to entertain yourself and for godsakkes don't create a dogma on why you don't get girls. You'll just be feeding the self-fulfilling prophecy troll.

And most of us struggle on getting laid anyways, so that's no reason to kill yourself.

It's easy to get frustrated but you gotta remember to just calm down and live your safe & luxurious life. There are others who struggle just to put food on a plate, or live in real shitty conditions.

 

I have a feeling this is going to be long, sorry.. I have been through extreme depression before and still struggle with it, but suicide is not the answer. There are good things out there, you just have to search for them. You posting on here is just the start. You know that you really don't want to give up, right? All anybody wants is happiness. But that's why we have the right to the "pursuit of happiness".. you have to find it. After a bit of searching I found this site and found so many wonderful people to talk to who have made me happy again. By the way, I found I always got along better with adults too. You need to find people on your level, and when you do, those people will agree with you more and won't mind it, even if you are a teenager. Older people like to see hope in a younger generation lol.
However, I have to say that not everything can be found outside of yourself to make life better. Work is also required on the inside. "Peace comes from within." Everyone finds it differently. There is a light inside of you that is yearning to be released, but the darkness is covering it. But even one candle has the strength to light up a dark room. You do too.
With depression or anything like it, don't be afraid to tell people how you feel. There are so many people who would be willing to help if they just knew. Find a support group, search online- http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=home This is where I got started. Try writing down how you feel, keep a journal. Keep in contact with people, friends and family, people who love you. Try to discover new things. This world is full of beauty.
Never give up. You sound like a stronger person than others. You were strong enough to post this here. This is the beginning. Peace comes one step at a time. & We are here to help you walk along in this journey. I hope in some way this helps. Feel free to message me.

 

Thanks to those who took this seriously!

I think some of you may have interpreted my thoughts on suicide a little differently than I had thought though it's expected. Which is good

I wont kill myself, but if anything or anyone will kill me it will be by my own hand that's something I feel very strongly about, it's more of a samurai honor kind of thing. But I am talking of suicide because of the neverending gray. I really do appreciate the detailed responses and advice but try not to look at this post as "a cry for help" "suicide" "Plea for attention" etc. I use to go through simialar mental defects in the past but that's behind me.

I just feel like the past is getting closer.... Idk, it's hard to explain Ill try in the morning.

 

Totally serious metaphor (just in case) ^