Help, she does not want to talk to me, what should i do?

I am a newbie @ this forums, and I would like to be my humble self here for advice.:bigcry:

My friend and I have been friend for almost 2 years. Last week, she sent me email and said we won't be friend.And I better not to contact her. If she feels she can be friend again. She will propose it.:argue:

I replied her back without much though and explanation and promised won't call her again. Now I realized I need to let her know how I feel and my side of explanation.

1. She mentioned after I reduced my medication. A sot of pain and anger has been revealed in me. But I realzed I was detoxing from medication. It isn't fair to choose my bad time (detoxing) and reasoning it. After 2 weeks, I feel not in pain and angry again
2. She said I am angry and bored and sad. And I understand I am only angry to injustice & people do hurt my family; Bored- may be; sad- more it is frustration of my personal & career progress.--It is in a good precess, but not as ideal as I like.
3. She thinks I will attack her- I never hurt and attack anyone since 2009, except my medication adjustsment & detoxing. It is not fair to judge me without evidence. It is not fair to make assumptions on my part- saying I did things without evidence to back it up.
4. I am not resentful with her. But I have to admin my emotional connection is weak and I have been make it stronger, for the shake of my friends and I.
5. It is not fair to asked if I (male) am to have sex with a man for 5% of a company. I am not even bisexual. In addition, I am a virgin. It is not fair to compare me with Joan Harris at Madmen.
6. I admit I can't connect the dots. I realized I am not sensitive to her & push her buttons. I am very sorry.
7. I JUST realized I did too much complain, but she did too. (I may be wrong)
8. I found out sometime I did think, but I can't explain clearly. This is why the last time we had argument I try to explain it and make it worst.

I wonder what can I do right now. If I don't contact. I can't express my feeling. It took me weeks to sort out issues & deeper meaning. But I already promise I won't contact her.

Without her, I felt like losing both my arms and legs.

I also wonder if we get back together again. What can we do? How can we improve the situation? How can I be a better friend.

Any advice and suggestion would be helpful.

 

Honestly, I didn't read this whole post. But dude, seriously, you got to let her go. Why would you want to be friends with someone who doesn't want to be friends with you? Just lay off, if she cares she'll come back

 

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i feel like there's a really long story behind this post. without it i doubt anyone can give too much help here.

 

Get a tattoo to commemorate this special time in both of your lives.

 

Find someone that wants to talk to you.

 

I don't even know how to start

 

I am going to get a tattoo on the Black Friday.

 

Most people only talk about their issues and not listen to me.

 

forget her

 

If she fears for her safety that's fair enough, but if you know you would never hurt her no matter how angry you got, she should have known that and been with you through it all. She doesn't seem like a good friend if she's just ditched you like that. So i think you should contact her and explain yourself, but if shes still doesn't want to talk to you just don't try to talk to her again.

 

Really? That was a joke. I know I was a little harsh since you are obviously hurt but if I got a tat for every girl that didn't work out I would be covered head to toe by now.

It is a big world. It may take time but you will find someone who appreciates you.