extreme ritalin addiction. how the hell did i get addicted to this shit

im 23 and was seeing my family doctor of 8 years and getting prescribed ritalin 30ct 20mg pills every month. Basically 1 a day and he knew my past addiction problems to oxys and such so he was only releasing 10 every 10 days.

Then all of a sudden i had a "GREAT" idea to start calling up new doctors to see if they are taking new patients, figuring they dont check up on old files.

Well in the past 4 days I have gotten 4 scripts for 10mg ritalins IR instead of SR and convinced the doctor i was in school and blah blah. First was 30ct of 20mgsr. went through those in 2 days. Then was 60ct of 10mgs and went through those in 3 days. THen was 20ct of 10mg irs which was harder to get this time.

And after sleeping for 2 days I woke up today and foiund a doctor right by my house and convinced him somehow Im just good at manipulation techniques and just got prescribed 2 MONTHs of 10mg IR Methyl.

120ct of 10mg
Jesus man i dont know whats wrong with me. I feel amazzing when im on them but when not I feel like shit.
This is all going to catch up to me it takes a triplicate prescription to prescribe these I dont even know how im getting them are these doctors retarded?

I know everyone call me an idiot but I was addicted to heroin and cocaine before and ritalin used to just ease me out but now i love the little buzz and fuck here i am.

any suggestions?

 

Taper off them.

 

why are these little shitty pills so addicting lolol honestly. If i could actually extract them so i didn't have to snort a finger long line of powder for every 2 pills they would be even more dangerous i just dont know how. I can only aquire ISP ALcohol and everyone says u cant do it with that.

 

How much of this "buzz" do you think is psychological?

 

AH amazing point tyrson. No matter what with any drug once addicted there is a psychological buzz, even when I used to be addicted to heroin I remember feeling like I was DYING and couldn't move but as soon as I knew for sure someone was on there way with my fix the symptoms (some of them) began to fade and I would almost explode with excitement. Then even preparing the drug gets you high. Addiction is definately a hard topic to explain.

 

You obviously need to not be taking drugs.

You may feel like shit when you're not on them because the shit is horrible for you and frys your brain.

You also probably have an addiction problem with them because functionally ritilan is a longer-acting cocaine analog, I believe.

If you told those docs you DIDN'T have a script, you could be in deep shit, and even if you didn't, you could be in deep shit, for some sort of subversion charge or something. If you're paying for visits or scripts with insurance they will surely catch you, if not, they will probably catch you.....

Cold turkey that shit.