I'm stoned right now, which explains why this is such a big deal to me but I feel like no matter what I do, in the back of my mind I always care what people think. I can't seem to just live freely without always thinking about the next thing I can do to impress someone. It's something I've been conscious of for some time now, and I'm trying to find a way to free my mind from this way of thinking. Maybe some of you were like this at some point? Maybe others are comfortable enough with themselves to admit they also feel this way? I'd love to hear what you have to say.. Peace, Love, Namaste TP
I hate this about myself... I too am self conscious regardless of what i tell myself. It might be my ego but whether i believe i "should" be comfortable in my own skin or "comfortable" with who i am it always leads back to the inevitable voice in the background. Perhaps it is anxiety? Maybe i was ridiculed as a kid? I shouldn't care but i do. My personality accounts for this though, i don't really know how to express myself emotionally. Who gives a fuck though, we are all going to die inevitably. As long as you are smiling, nobody can hurt you.
All people? that sounds fatiguing most people are barley worth a simple simile, and some deserve even less than that. Most people don't know me, I like it that way. People like me, the outer me they see. I don't really care what others think about the me on the inside. I have an outer me because there are great realistic perks to befriending people. I enjoy those advantages, because the cost is very reasonable. I learned that generally my whole me makes "people" upset and dislike me. "What ever meat-bags, just give me what I want." My outside self gives them what they want so they will invite me to parties, build a positive rep, introduce me to lady-friends, share good fortune, trade favors, keep me informed and not mind hanging around me. My inside me I don't care what they think. (other than my bf and gf who I really like to know and weight myself with their opinions) "greatest argument against democracy is the average voter" "Ask the majority of americans what the best coffee is and they will say starbucks, ask the best burger it will be macdonalds. Jeffery, in mass people are dumb."
I know exactly how you feel. I feel like Im wasting my own desires/goals to be my own person by constantly worrying about what others think about me. Though it sounds stupid and easy to many, self confidence is a hard thing to obtain to some people......it sucks.
