I am a cheat.

I chose to kiss him! I don't mean to say that it was an "accident" .. I could've just hung out with him..but no... we Ended up kissing. i could've stopped it..but i din't. It was a choice i made...and its wrong i know..

 

I think you both have serious issues. This is the most deranged thing in this thread. You have a lot of to learn about love. This is nothing like it.

 

I think its easy to get caught in the moment when ya not sure what you want ya just need to step back and get a look at the big picture we are all sexual beings with too many choices these days especially with the internet and it looks like thats where your trouble started .
don't get to emotional about it it is what it is and like i said he just want,s to ball ya so its about what you really want .
lifes a long learning process be honest with what really makes You happy but also do some research on what these guys are really like don't just look on the surface I've been married for over 20 yrs and when i first met my misses i looked at here kind nature and thought to myself she was the one . And she still is .

 

Nice to hear that!
but I never fell for my boyfriend because of his appearance or anything.. My mom always had a problem with me dating him because she felt he was not attractive too bad .. i used to tell mom that that's not the kinda person i am..im not that shallow. All my folks had the same problem! I never let them influence me.
anyway I don't think he "loves" me. He probably hasn't understood that yet. He just doesn't want to let me go. I'm sure somewhere deep down he wants to end it too.. but he won't..because he has no other choice.. And im not just assuming shit! i gathered all that by the things he said to me.. his actions ...everything. I talked to my closest friend ( who's his closest too!) And he thinks there's no love between us..and he thinks i should get out of it if that's whats happening.

 

after all the argument, explanations, When he was about to slap me i closed my eyes... and i thought (Really thought) he wouldn't slap me.. But.. Smaaaack!
Faaiiine! i got attracted to someone else.. (and i've never let myself wander like that! ) But that was only cs i wanted to talk to someone the way i wished to talk to my boyfriend! i dint want him to Just be nice to me .. the time we did things in the sack..okay he was nice to me.. but i just couldn't feel the "love" and i tried a lot to work on it.. But i'm not ready to waste so much time! he has a very easy life i don't! i have to stay up and work..and then if the next day.. i do Everything to satisfy him (sexually) and tell him im too tired to "ram" X( he tells me im starting to lose interest! blah whatever i'm done explaining things to him! fuck it!
Thanks everyone!

 

I think your starting to get it now ! Don't waist your life just putting up with shit but always remember its a two way street and life is not a fairy tail. You get what out what you put in both with love and life .
First you need to make peace with your self .
Then move on and don't dwell on the past .
I wish you well with your decision .:sunny:

 

Thank you for giving me your point of view

 

Why is him having no one to turn to your problem? Are you staying out of love, or out of guilt? If you don't really enjoy chilling with your boyfriend, what exactly is it about him that you love so much?

 

I broke up with him last night.