Did MDMA for the first time with boyfriend?

two nights ago i took two mdma pills (took the 2nd within 4 hrs) with my boyfriend. nothing kicked in for him when he took the first pill but he finally felt it when he took the second pill. anyways it was my first time, and he'd done it before. i felt fucking amazing. initially i just laid there for a long time feeling great, content and staring at the ceiling. then maybe two hours in after the second pill my bf and i somehow just started talking about really personal things. i'm not sure how it started. tbh, that was the most open we've been with each other after 3-4 months of dating so it was nice. but now that i'm not on mdma, i'm not sure how i feel about what he told me, or if i even heard correctly because there were moments where i felt confused like i wasn't processing things correctly.

he told me he used to sell other drugs besides weed (pills, coke, cant remember what else), and he did them as well. he said coke was great and did it a lot for 2 months when he started and just stopped when he moved. for some reason it makes me feel uneasy and im not sure why even tho he hasn't done it since then... it's been a couple years. he only deals weed now and that alone makes me a little uneasy. tbh i just worry about him. when we were on mdma, i was finally able to talk to him about him selling weed... asked if he actually makes any profit off of it to which he said no, however it ends up being cheaper for him to smoke :s idk if that's really worth it because in the end he has to drive around his area to people who wanna buy and to me that seems tiring. and when i say i worry about him, i mean i worry about him getting caught or whatever.

another thing he talked about while we were opening up to each other was about his ex. i forget how we got to talking about her... it was probably related to another story. he said they dated for almost a yr when he was around 16, then they broke up (forgot why) and then bumped into each other in 2010 or 2011, then dated again... except she was seeing him behind her boyfriends back. eventually she broke it off with him (my bf) and i THINK my boyfriend rambled something like "and she was the one, i was supposed to move in with her but then she dumped me..". in that moment that is what i thought i heard but i didnt question it. he was also talking about other things that was bothering/upsetting him from the past or present. i'm not sure how srsly i shud take what he said about his ex (if that is what he said). could he still be hung up on his ex? she's been dating some guy for 7 mths now and she lives back where he moved from (6 hrs away). or was it just the drugs?

 

It was a very painful experience and still recent enough to be fresh.
Time and love will heal this wound. Don't over-react and blow it.

 

mdma is a wonderful drug. you are blessed to have had the experience

 

Ahh the magic of MDMA. I think it's great he shared that with you, I really do.

 

how come?

 

How come it's great that he shared something deeply personal with you?
If you don't understand, then perhaps he needs to be with someone less selfish.

 

He is still hurt about this and it's eating him up inside. If you would have reacted differently, this would have been a great opportunity for growth for both of you and your relationship. If you loved him in the true sense of the term you would cherish the fact that he let himself be 100% vulnerable with you and showed you his wounds.