i've been with my boyfriend since almost 2 years..i broke up with him once ..but then we got back together after a year and i love him. but i always feel that we're only good in bed. i've talked to my boyfriend about this. About how we should spend some time without the sex.(we do spend time off the sack..but its boring..we dont talk much). I recently met this other guy who has a lot in common with me..at a coffee house where i often go with my boyfriend.. he sent me a msg on facebook and we started talking online..i asked my boyfrien before replying and he had no issues then.. but when I told my boyfriend about us talking everyday ,he got pissed at me and told me to do whatever the fuck i wanted to..he found it fishy because it was out of the ordinary for me to open up to someone so soon. initially i had absolutely no intention to cheat on him. I started talking to this other guy A LOT. i told him everything bout my boyfriend and how i feel. we became reaaly good friends within a month and we started chilling together...and then one day ended up kissing each other. i told this new guy how guilty i was.. but anyhoo i went with it. we've been seeing each other .. im attracted to this new guy , but i love my boyfriend (i told the new guy how i feel) . anyway. i love spending time with the new guy but im not sure if its just the flutters of the first few days or something real.. im not ready to leave the trusted old path for the new path.. i told my boyfriend that i cheated on him. and that it wasnt just for fun..i was infatuated with him. he's ready to move past this..but i know i have sabotaged everything. He loves me more than i love him. i dont know what to do now. i am being as transparent as i can be to both the guys. i know my confession has done no good, has only hurt my boyfriend to the hilt. Im a mess in this area. Needs help.
