i used to but then i went to the doc, suboxone saves lives, helped my depression and anitxy alot. whoooo 400th post!!
That was sorta my point -- it wouldn't be that big of deal, as we wouldn't have to deal with the ostensible gamble that is life.
What if in your next life you are born into a reality where you are shoved down a spiraling tube of razor blades, 1,000,000 times a day, and, any time that you scream or show any form of discomfort, 1 billion years are added to the time that you have to spend being shoved down this torturous device? :smash:
Very imaginative, But if that was the way I was reborn,then my life at that moment would be the only life i knew. Therefore it would seem "regular" to be shoved down a spiraling tube of razors. Get what im saying? Its like a fish living its whole life in a bowl, for obvious reasons that sounds like a bad life to us, but its just the "regular" to that fish.
It's like the question ,Are you looking forward to living'. Is it now ? If not, it's not significant.
A Zen Master once said, "If you are living now, then you are not." His student replied, "If I am not living, then I am living now?" His Master replied, "If you are living, then you are not." His student replied, "You're an idiot." The Master replied, "I know."
I feel a bit guilty about writing koans. I feel like I am really throwing people (that take them seriously) into a "forest of shit" by writing them, excuse my expression. That koan is, to me, really about the contradictions in life and the openness to accept the inevitable paradoxes which many of us must. In the end, a koan is just a play on words for a lazy person like myself to explain something without using many words.
Alas, in contradiction you ended up used quite a few words to explain, but I like it. I am afraid of dying too horribly or fast that I cant spend a few seconds or minutes thinking about my life and letting go. Also doesn't mean i would wanna be buried alive / burned either!!
koan are beautiful, never fear to express them. ch'an (zen) is beautiful (as a forest of shit - so fertile), so mysteriously obvious; ineffable, yet o, do we try to eff it. truth is ineffable, and the effable is the fun-side of living. dying the result of living, inevitable, just as wonderful (sometimes painful, like life). always significant, even if only to laugh, lazily; a word here, a koan there, love all everywhere, then leave, unburdened. en-lightened.
I understand where you're coming from OP. I'm not in a rush to leave the human form, however I am excited/curious to see what adventure comes next But then.. I've always been one to run before I can walk.
looking forward to dying? Well sure, been waiting since i was 19 but no luck, not if i can help it now........