Hi! I am sitting in front of my computer, drinking beer and listening to an amazing band I just discovered, Allman Brothers. It makes me think.... For the last couple of days I've been browsing the forum constantly, despite having a deadline to write a research paper. The thing is, I constantly have a feeling that I need to change something in my life. I am constantly uncomfortable or bored, but not disappointed!, with the life I live. Often I search for changes that would put it in a track where I would feel like this is the right way, when I could say now I am living like I should, this is the life! I don't know. It might also just be a personal disorder, since relatively speaking my life is not dull and is full of changes. I am currently doing a PhD abroad, in an established institution in Italy, have a nice stipend that enables me to party or have hobbies, have good friends both, at home and in Italy, but despite all of this I feel uncomfortable with my life. Like I sad, it might just be a personal disorder and I will never be comfortable in my life. Just to state, usually the only time when I am not in a state of being eager for changes or bored in my life is immediately after the change occurred. Like after moving to Italy I felt good for a half a year but then the feeling returned. Once toward the end of the undergrad studies I had to take psychological testing when I was applying for a job at a bank. The psychologist told me that tests show I am immature in this sense. I think she might be right. But even though what can i do. You feel how you feel, and her telling me this can not change my feelings. Anyway, I started to browse this forum to get an advice on how to grow mushrooms. I am ordering them on Monday. I took different drugs before, but only had mushrooms once before. A small amount I chewed did not cause much of an experience. Hopefully this project will be successful. Will see... So, hello to everybody :2thumbsup: !
