Help! Bad acid trip/situation recovery

i need some sort of advice, I will try to briefly tell my story although, as imagined, it is hard to put into words.
i met this guy at a festival last summer, we had the same friends and took a bunch of lsd together. Iv done it plenty of times, tripped hard, it was really good. we came back to our town and started falling in love and dating. then a month after that i brought my little brother to a festival with me and him and we all took some again. during the middle of the trip everything started to get really bad for me and i realized that its because i had cheated on this guy to partake in a threesome a few weeks before this (something i always wanted to d)o. i dont even remember the 3 some happening because i was so wasted.

As i am peaking it just slipped out, i told him about it and why i wasn't having a good time, i think its becasue i was getting a little scared too. well as you can imagine it got really bad, i didnt think an acid trip could get that bad. He was shocked and walked away and was just mean to me of course. It got worse when me and my brother went by this guy and ya i cant explain how horrifying it was. idk just a one out of a thousand type of bad trips. It scarred me,bad. That was almost a year ago, and now that i think i have my commitment issues under control me and this guy are dating again. We are really great together, he's ten years older than me and so kind and intelligent. But yesterday i ate a pot cupcake and it was really strong and i started to trip bad again whenever i was around him. IT seemed like the same bad trip as that night a year ago, same thoughts. Im used to the weed bringing back acid trips thing, that has always happened to me. But it's like i can't even remember that first really good trip with him, only that horrifying trip. Im afraid ill never get over it or maybe i havent changed yet completely. I mean are we doomed? Im afraid to ever trip around him again..im just afraid the acid is seeing something that i am not and that this relationship just cannot work after that... i dont know what else to say except for i need help!!!!

 

I seriously doubt you properly addressed the issue of you cheating on him. There are many layers.

 

...Was my post deleted? Was it abusive or otherwise unacceptable? Someone should tell me so I can avoid the same mistake in the future. I was trying to be helpful.

 

Raga- I didn't delete your post. I dont know what happened. I'm glad you replied, thanks for the comments !

 

My post was deleted as well Raga...

But to OP I think another acid trip with your guy may help.

Just cause you're having flashbacks from weed to the bad acid trip doesn't mean you will have it with acid. Just make sure you both are in a comfortable enviornment and both in good spots mentally.

 

people are so personally possessive..
so you fucked someone else.
youre taking LSD and you still dont get it and neither does your man..
Are you sure you took LSD ??..

the post was deleted because there was more than one.. Seems to be a common thing with the OP.

 

K, my original comment was this:

The OP clearly has issues she has not worked out. If use of weed or any psychedelic is bringing up an issue of anxiety, it means that issue is latent in your mind. It is justified or swept under the rug when you are sober, but that doesn't mean it has been "healed"/"dealt with."

Before progressing further, you need to do further self-examination: more meditating, more honesty, more talking honestly w/ your partner...see what manifestation of attachment or fear is causing you to still be upset.

And it goes w/o saying, don't cheat on people.

 

I see I'm a little late but this info is what kept me from having bad trips when I first started takin dose, I know most of its true, not sure bout all so if someone corrects me listen to them. All hallucinogens really do is trick your body into thinking its dying. I wont go into details cause I'm sure you already know most of them.

The rumor that LSD stores itself in your spine or fatty tissues is shit, anyone whose ever taken care of LSD for an extended time knows how delicate that chemical is, the LSD does in fact go to your spine but most of the chemicals that cause the hallucinations are destroyed very quickly or absorbed into your body to induce the trip,(that's how I was told LSD soaks in please correct me if I'm wrong), your body isn't exactly a freezer.

The truth is LSD flashbacks aren't really the release of the chemical from your spine, its just you reliving a "Near-death experience", some people say the rumor of LSD in your spine comes from cracking your back and the leftover nonessential chemicals in the dose triggers your memory and you flashback, this is probably bull as well, haven't proven it but I can tell you that if your getting real LSD-25 then there should really only be chemicals created from ergot in it, most of which are destroyed in heat.

I'm rambling again, look long story short of it is bad trips from hallucinogens usually happen because you think they will, sometimes your dealer puts in too much strychnine, sometimes they aren't careful enough with their ergot fungus and can make there LSD all death and no trip. Be warned, most dealers now are just little kids with chemistry sets makin LSA and callin it LSD.
To help with your flashback problem I believe I have a bit of insight on that as well, I still get flashbacks from my first trip when I was 12, I took too much and had permanent tracers from day one. When you have a bad trip you have two EFFECTIVE options, both involving treating the trip like a trauma incident. You can either replace the memory with a much more "deadly",(so to speak), memory, or you can fight back, learn more about your "Trigger" for flashbacks, if its whenever you take drugs around your boyfriend, you need to look deep in your own psyche and find out what it is you did to him and why you yourself haven't even forgiven yourself. Just remember this, all hallucinogenic flashbacks really are, is a weak form of PTSD, and if you give youself some therapy,(as raga said meditate, confess, remain honest), then you will soon learn to conquer your flashbacks, after a while you'll begin to either see better more controlled flashbacks, or none at all.

Just be careful with dose, I may not know much about all the newer hallucinogens, and I may be a little corrupted by the sober one, but I can tell you nothing good will happen from taking too much too often, perma-trips are not fun, I can attest to that. Stick to 3 hits LSD-25 and if its LSA you can venture to 5.
Never forget rule number one of LSD: Always on sugar, never on paper.

Have fun Tripping!
Dropper

 

Strycnine is also an urban myth. It is not used or created in the LSD production. I promise you a little kid with a starter chemistry set can not make LSD. It requires a college level understanding of chemistry, as well as access to equipment that would also require a college education in order to not look suspicious acquiring it.

Ergot poisoning is not the same thing as LSD, I think you are confused.

 

Always on sugar, never on paper?

...Is this a thing? I have never before heard of this "number one rule".

 

LSA doses are too big to fit on blotter. Also no one makes LSA, it's always just eaten from it's natural source, HBWR or Morning Glory seeds.

Also your dosage suggestions make no sense since I can find LSD strong enough where 1 hit can be too much for some, and LSD weak enough where 5-10 is required. Also you should not take as much of a relatively large dose of LSA as you would of LSD, LSA is much more toxic to your body.

 

uhh .. just tell him .. and accept your mistake .. which chances are unless youll marry him is quite meaningless ... if you were able to cheat on him must mean something .. humans let good times fly right through them and hold on to pain so tightly .. its one of our defaults ... being an older smart man he will probably get over it . and understand you wanted to experiment .. try having a threesome with him and another girl .. life is meant to be free ... you sound caged up by emotions and felt responsibilities ... just live girl .. who cares what you do .. sex meshing the spirits of people .. it can cause disorienting effects when with the wrong people...

 

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