I'm Spiritually Happy but I think I might be Mentally Depressed

Basically I am smiling all the time and happy as can be but when I start to think I sometimes plummet into sad. The thing is though I'm still happy when I'm sad. I'm so happy all the time that when I feel normal it's like most peoples' depression. Whudduhfuckrite? My life right now is fucked up and it might just be that getting to me but my life has been fucked up before and I just stopped caring but it still obviously effects me just as everything does. I feel like I'm losing myself but losing yourself is just becoming something else and maybe I am changing so fast spiritually and mentally that I don't know if I will turn out for the better although I do feel as if I am but my brain might be afraid or some shit. I am confused

Does anyone else ever feel this way?

 

I too have felt the contradictory feeling of uncertainty, I do think it is a depression thing .....
- though looking at the state of the World; in so many areas, another way of looking at it is that is a form of enlightenment and awareness of that wiTch is about.
I too have been to dark places and immersed myself in the complexity of reason, and after consideration, believe that caring too much is not always a bad thing.
The way I deal is acceptance - That though this may not be the general, it is the norm, for me - and though tarred with the brush of
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OOTMD0fo8ts"]YouTube - The Fool On The Hill remake Beatles 1967
I am always uplifted be the philosophy that even in the darkest night – there shines a light...
Failing that I look to my paperweight that has the inscription “I know I’m in a World of my own – it’s OK they all know me in here” – Works for me ..
< Peace + Love - Protest + Protect - Save the Planet >
eace:

 

Lay off the ketamine.

 

I've done k about five times in the past three months. It's not the k.

 

told ya so many drugs at such a young age would fuck ya up :mickey:

 

It's not drugs. Why must drugs be an assumption when I said I have my own problems in the real world?

 

because the amount of drugs you talk about taking would stagger anyone

 

At first I was like "wtf how?" and then I realized that I have basically the same thing. I think most people call it bipolar or some crap

 

you are young, it is natural to feel this way at a certain point. The fool on the hill was a great song to post lol

 

I have the same thing. I'm internally and independently happy; but my life is currently nothing to be proud of and makes me very unhappy in a more cerebral way.

I often wonder if I'd rather be happy but miserable with my life, or miserable but happy with my life.

If so, most people have no clue what bipolar is =P

 

well whatever the hell it's called, i don't believe in mental disorders but i'm just reaching for any word that could describe it

 

Maybe it's a self-confidence thing? I, for one, will still accept you if you stop worrying. People are just too controlling and judgmental in my opinion. All it does is make us duller than we could be if we learned to let go.

I used to worry, but now I don't care. Maybe it's the fear of being alone and outcast, that there is something mentally wrong with you for not being somewhat depressed... But if you can't be you and have people like you, then what's the point? I can take people's friendship or leave it anymore. And when you find out that there are people who will just like you for you, then you have real friends and it's a lot more fun.

 

There are no problems in the "real world", they are chemo-electric brain
dilemmas.

 

Naw I have no problem with confidence. God made me in his image and Christ as our saviour wants me to be me!

Just kidding I'm not a Jesus Fanatic. But yeah, my confidence is fine and I'm myself all the time. Thank you for the advice though

My brain is real.

But that's besides the point. I've discarded my negative emotions and I'm feeling fine now. :sunny:

 

Yes, so is chemo-electrical activity. Just saying that is what drugs have to do with it.

Naw, it applies here too, but glad it's working for you.

 

There is a link to homeostasis with this, your body tries to balance its emotions therefore you have the need to be sad to balance out your happiness, also I believe some people torment themselves unconciously in order to fully appreciate the happiness that is so hard to find these days, this is just a thesis that makes sense for some of my own actions.

 

I concur but I think u have that backwards we find are self unhappy so for balance we have to make are self happy in a wage unquantifiable ways…


The idea struck me just now with my morning coffee and a smoke could it be that it’s something to do with genetics we are in essence hunters gatherers this agricultural thing is very much a new thing. So when we do find urself in one place/situation for an extended period of time we feel stuck trapped if u will it could just be a drive left over from the old days designed to make us explore for possible resources elsewhere, grass is always greener on the other side…but these days this idea of dropping everything and moving on is unpractical so we have to make do with escapism whatever that maybe.

 

Maybe one may hae led to the other.