I'm So Fucking Lonely

I feel like no one understands me not even my girlfriend whom I've been with for 7 years I don't think she really cares. Every time she sees me crying she just says "Your crying again wtf!" It really hurts. I used to have a handfull of good friends but I don't feel like I'm on the same level as they are, they laugh at me because I'm a "hippy" I hate labels. I'm just having a really bad week with no one to talk to I've been stuck in this house for 2 weeks now, I have a car but no gas money to go anywhere, and even if I did go somewhere it would only make my loneliness worse because I would be doing it along I feel like an empty piece of shit.

 

I get lonely too. Even though I have a pretty great relationship with my girl of 5 years, sometimes I just feel so isolated and alien. For me, I think a large part of it is that I don't have pride in my life, or direction, or any idea of where to find direction.

About the friends.. are you sure they laugh at you; and are you sure you aren't responding to their teasing and joking poorly?

About the girlfriend.. maybe she just doesn't understand what you're going through, why you're so upset. If she truly doesn't care, maybe you need to reevaluate the relationship - but she may just not know how to respond or feel. Have you told her you feel like this?

Sometimes you just need to escape. Read a book you love, watch some favorite movies, browse the Internet aimlessly for hours.

 

awh come on man, theres nothing to worry about. go out and meet new people talk to strangers about stupid stuff whatevs! ive moved around a lot and havent kept in touch with any old friends from the past, I just moved here in Jan. so far Ive met one person but hey whatever

 

Don't feel bad, I'm married and I'm lonely....

 

try working on visualizing what you WANT to happen in the future. youd be surprised how much this helps.

 

are you crying because you are lonely, or for other reasons? you might want to try group therapy. there are community health centers that have low-cost or free services. you might also be eligible for medicaid.

maybe you could walk dogs part-time. you could make money that way, plus have the companionship of the dog. also, you could meet people while you walk. as long as your hood isn't too scary.

you could also volunteer at an animal shelter or elsewhere. volunteering can help you meet lots of nice people.

talking things out with your friends and gf might help. it might be better than just letting the relationships disintegrate. you might not get a positive reaction, but if you do, things will probably be much better. if they do things that really bother you, telling them can make them change.

maybe try to meet some hippies. there's a florida section on the forums, isn't there? the rainbow family forum might have some tips on meeting hippies.

oh, and you can keep talking to us here! hope that you feel better soon!

 

Yes I know I need to go to therapy, I've been to the community center a few different times and the only thing they want to do is dope me up with anti depressants and push me out the door. I was only getting one 30 minute session a month and the therapist sat there and stared at me the whole time. I told her that I don't know how to verbalize my emotions and she acted like she just didn't give a shit. So that put a bad taste in my mouth for therapists. I've applied for medicaid but I don't qualify....remember I live in the shitty state of Florida where the only people they care about are old people and illegal immigrants.

 

Yeah we've been together 7 years and we've sat down numerous times and talked. We come from two different worlds where she thinks depression is a bullshit excuse. I don't blame anything on her, she's never had to deal with something like this, I just wish she would be a little more understanding. I'm working on trying to get into a new community based health program but they have a waiting list and I've been told by a few people that it takes forever to get in.

I do need to escape. I used to enjoy playing guitar and reading, but when I sit down to try to do it I just can't seem to concentrate on anything I want so bad to get better mentally. I try so hard to wake up with a smile in the mornings and I tell myself that I'm going to have a good day, but you know how that goes. It's almost as if the flame on my candle has been blown out for good, I feel like an empty shell with no desires for anything.

Thank you for your concern everyone, you made me feel a little better:love:

 

hugs

I do know that feeling. I get it trapped with the kids in the house, can't really do much with them. Since I moved to Aus I really don't have many friends. Why I hang here a lot ppl to talk to in a way.

For your girlfriend have a chat with her, my hubby doesn't get it at times either. WE are here if you need an ear.

 

That's exactly how I've felt lately. Any time that I'm alone, and often when I'm not.

 

yeh theres a lot of us in the same boat it sucks to be lonely but we got to get out and do things cant just sit around man because if the body hurts the mind suffers even more so grab a few joints and a fishing pole and go enjoy the day some where doing some thing seems to help a little yeh and most of my close friends got girl frieinds now and they seem like they fell of the planet if you know what i mean

 

Yes, I know exactly what you mean. And all my friends have kids now and I really don't like kids they are annoying and my friends don't take care of them very well or watch them while they are at my house. One of my friends kids broke my fucking rockband guitar and now they don't sell them anymore...unless I pay $70 for it on Amazon. Fishing is a good idea I never really thought of that, I used to really enjoy it. In florida though you need a fishing license, but I think it's only $15-20. Thanks man.

 

well at least sping is here so we all should start feeling a little better i hope plus i started taking prosac it made a differnts in my depresion but u got to get out of the house and go meet new freinds and do things it helps

 

Bahh, it sucks I know!! If only we lived closer so we could chill and talk shit, lol.

 

Been there... doing that.

 

I'm sorry hun, unfortunately welcome to the club. Some days I wish I could just pack my shit and take off without telling anyone. But then I have the issue of nowhere to go. I've searched the web and contemplated joining a commune somewhere, but this depression or whatever it is has completely depleted my motivation and energy.

 

And we could have a few beers without worrying my girl at all! :2thumbsup:

 

I think we've mentioned similar topics before in other threads... Seems movement in the proper direction is mired in molasses. A lot of people are going through this.

 

Hey I feel you man. Sometimes feel like I don't really connect with any of my friends on a meaningful level. Kinda like I am just going through the motions. Right now I am just biding my time until I can live life to the fullest.

 

Lol, breeders, I dont know how they handle it. 10 minutes and I want to shove sewing needles in my ears to stop the pain. Oh you'd do anything for your kids? Err then can you start by wiping the snot of their face?

As for the crying thing, yiur girlfriend is just going to see it as attention seeking, oh here we go again, she's a chic too, should be one of the advantages of being a wesbian, not having to put up with that act, if you want a cuddle just say you want a cuddle, drop the stupod act.

As for depression, you need to feed the angry beaver more, its just going to get worse as you get older, spend most of the day sitting on sometjing that vibrates, rig up something connected to a lawnmower engine if batteries dont do the trick any more

Your friends tease you? In a snotty way, to hide the fact they lock themselves in the bathroom regularly and have a good cry?

Drugs are good for you, take lots

And you have it better than a lot of people