Anxiety

is it anxiety just like you get stoned and are paranoid about random shit (because this happens to everyone) .. or anxiety like in the pit of your stomach that results in negative consequences... ie: you not sleeping at night, not socializing much, not living your life to the fullest, etc. ?

 

i hate getting anxious for no reason but now all of a sudden i've been getting paranoid all the time and i quit smoking because of it and i'm still just crazy paranoid

 

both - i can obviously tell the difference. when i'm high and thinking all paranoid i can usually sit back and say "i'm stoned, that's irrational" but i take that paranoia into consideration even when i'm sober - i think that is a legitimate thing to do


but the anxiety i get, most often and recently, about school and debt and my future is way more intense. on more than one occasion i have had to leave where i was and get somewhere that i felt comfortable because i can't escape the spiral of "fuck fuck fuck, this is working against me, as is this and this and this. and if this happens it's gonna be fucking difficult as hell for me to do THIS, and if i don't do THAT i don't see how i can find happiness" blah blah blah

i understand that way of thought is just as irrational and a lot of my issues stem from time management and generally lumping things together rather than chipping away.

i have a lot of work to do to get to where i want to be in life, and it is extremely hard - what makes it more difficult for me is that i have the anxiety and occasional attack of "it's too much, i'm overwhelmed" and i virtually shut down until i can return to baseline. sometimes it only takes a few hours, sometimes a few days and it has taken me weeks before i have gotten out of certain thought loops

 

I just got back into smoking pot after a 4 month break due to anxiety while smoking... I still get a little anxious sometimes, but it's definitely gone down.

 

Yes I have......its part of the reason I smoke weed, because it helps me not feel anxious.

 

Once in class i was so anxious, its never been that bad in my life. I was shaking uncontrollably and felt like i couldn't breath, thought my heart was going to burst through my chest. I kept grabbing onto my friends arm to relax myself. I'm surprised no one asked me if i was alright because i'm sure i didn't look it. Guess no one cared

 

Look up 'trauma release exercises' and 'david bercelli', this most definitely helps anxiety.

 

i shall.

last night )friday night) i had a pretty intense near-meltdown. i was at work, by myself, like 3 other people in the entire restaurant with staaaaacks of dirty dishes and no one to help me at 3AM. I didn't get out of the place until 5AM...they were very lucky to see me at 4 on saturday - i'm gonna ask for a raise real quick. 38 hours part timin it...or just quit...i got homework i need to get done