Loss of emotions and care for things

Hey, how's it going? I say this throughout my work day a lot and not once have I cared for the response coming my way. I have realized that I, for an unknown reason to me, do not care for anybody or anything now days. I work as a delivery driver while I take a year off from school to build funds to finish. I have noticed that I have to force myself to be normal in social interactions, if someone is being funny I laugh to seem normal and to not look like an ass. I visit my grandfather not out of love or compassion, but out of my own personal agenda. I visit him so that he keeps me in his will, isn't that sick? I am waiting on my mother, who I once loved and would do anything for, to finally kill herself, which she is so 'wanting' to do.

This is probably a weird point to skip a line at, but I hate people who don't do it occasionally. Anyways, I do not think I would shed a tear if she did die. I may seem off putting to you, but I am just as stunned and surprised as you are. I go to work only so that I can pay bills and keep my phone up to date with the latest trends in cell phones. I guess that is one thing I care about, my fucking cell phone...wow. I smoke weed every day to stay somewhat happy, I love to hop on the pill scene. I just wish I knew what happened to me and how I can fix it.

You can write a reply on here with some kind of personal experience hopefully, or an educated answer/response.

Thanks

 

I feel you, bro.. sounds like life is happening at you.

 

This sounds like a major case of depression to me I suffer from BiPolar and am often struck down with depressive phases. I cannot tell you what to do however as we each have our own way of dealing with this. I take meds to try and lessen the effects of the mood swings.

Have you tried to think back to where this started in my circles it is called a trigger could have been a death, break up, major change in your life that was not in your control. It could be you hate your job or your current circumstances shit the list is endless.
First things first dont be afraid to ask for help, go see a professional or give someone a call there are links on this very website I just dont know where but I have seen them.

Sorry cant be of much help but do feel for you..Just remember stay alive and stay safe this will pass but you only have one life if you take it there is no do-over

Jay

 

I guess you could see a therapist.

Any ideas why you once loved your mother but don't now?

Getting your mom to help would be a good idea.

you could direct her to a suicide hotline

 

Maybe take a break from the weed?

Smoking constantly will deplete your seratonin and make you feel like kind of a zombie.

 

stop licking windows..and look through them instead

 

Keep ya chin up life comes at you fast huh

 

Do you have any other strange symptoms or things happening?

I'd have to agree with staying away from the weed for a bit, though.

 

Hi, I'm a naturopath and counselling is part of my degree. I think your problem is taking too many drugs. Weed will make you depressed if you smoke it everyday. Pills will deplete your serotonin and throw your brain chemistry out.

There is a dark energy that comes from drug users. It is commonly reported from their family members that they become self focused, disinterested, depressed and uncaring. Yes these symptoms are consistent with depression alone, but the "darkness" in your post (not caring if your mother lives or dies) is the evil that ends up implanted in the heart and soul of drug users.

I hope you are not offended by this, but look into some of the horrible crimes people commit. Child abuse, robbery, murder, domestic violence etc and you will find in the vast majority of these crimes drugs are the underlying cause.

You urgently need to stop all substances and I can promise you that the sun will return to your world, you will feel love for your family again, you will feel a new sense of peace and contentment.

I have had a lot of experience in this area. Please believe what I say to be sound, true advice. I sympathize with your situation, and have no doubt this is the answer. If you do not improve and people find your behaviour to be strange, please see a doctor. A personality change can mean a problem in the frontal lobe. I doubt this is the case but I must cover all possibilities. Good luck and please msg me if you need my help.