what drugs do to your spirit/body??..need help

Hello everyone,
I recently got involved with using oxycodone due to a back problem and eventually i was smoking them and doing around 60 mg a day for 1-2 months. I'm getting off them and haven't done any for atleast a week and plan to stay off of them.
My question is what do drugs do to your soul or spirit? When i was going to use them i could see and feel fairly clearly and enjoyed it but once on them i couldn't feel a thing, even 7 days after being sober i'm still having difficulty feeling my body and soul like I used to. Everything still feels stagnant, depressed and locked up. I'm getting in some serious hiking, running and weightlifting but i'm just not the same.
Does anyone know whats going on?
I've been seeing my spirit guide on a consistent basis the past 3 days(good sign), i'm just really struggling to maintain my body it seems. I don't work this time of year due to my occupation (landscaping) but am trying to draw and whatnot.


Does anyone know whats going on with me spiritually, due to the drugs and detox?

 

IMO, i think drugs can show you the path, but can never take you there.
Though i don't believe theres a definite line between 'good' and 'bad' for anything, i believe there are some drugs which tend to 'expand the mind' and others which may be used by some to 'escape your mind'.
It sounds like oxys are closing yourself off from others, and the beauty of this world, but im not saying the experience has not been part of your spiritual path. As the Buddha said: There are many paths up the mountain, but they all lead to the same summit.

 

give it time, you're just adjusting to a pretty big change (being stoned vs. being sober), and it'll take you a while to feel 'good' again.

you sound like you're on the right path - just keep doing what you're doing. 7 days isn't a long time at all, your body is still working through the change.

 

Opioids make many changes to the mind and body. The obvious ones aside like addiction and withdrawl, here are some other things which may occur. First of all, you may ignore small pains which then become bigger. I need not go into great detail. Secondly, the scratching leads to abscesses. Also, because one may feel comfortable staying in any position for longer than normal one can develop aches 'from nowhere.'

Now to the unseen effects on the brain. All drugs of abuse have some effect on the monoamines of the brain (dopamine, serotonin, epinephrine). Playing with these neurotransmitters on and off, or for a long duration makes them behave differently, so it will become hard to 'feel normal' for a long time after. This is most especially true of those drugs like Meth which are dopamine agonists of long duration.

After opioid withdrawls you may feel entirely naked before the world. And it may take some weeks to develop a sense of skin before the world again. Many people become religious at this time.

I personally find that dishonest. One should become of their religion when the times are good, one should find their deity in the peaks and the troughs, not just in the one or the other, but then I am of nondualist school of tantric thought.

Best thing to do is to be moderate and taper, and regain your self control over a duration of time, since you didn't lose it overnight, you should not expect to regain it overnight. Some new habits, interests may be in order, not just of a spiritual kind. Sometimes studying a musical instrument can provide as much of a religious path as a religious path. Same goes for any study.

Instead of berating yourself for something which may have been initially out of your control, replace the interest for drugs with something else which is soothing and solace providing.

I was an opioid addict (morphine - 100 mgs a day for three years) If you have other concerns PM me and I'll be glad to help. (Like how to make withdrawls easier). I check here every week or so so if I don't get right back then please don't be offended.