I'm so lonely...

I've noticed tha a lot of young people have a rigid idea of what a social life is supposed to be like, and are all depressed when it isn't like that in real life.

You make your own happiness. Do what makes you happy. No one wants to be around a person who has to be constantly entertained.

If you have self confidence, people are attracted to that.

 

a reasonable amount. arrogant people are just as annoying as whiny people.

 

Pick your mood up and go out and do stuff where you will meet other people. The worst someone could do is tell you to go away when you confront them.

 

Yes.

 

Baby!

 

I feel quite a bit better now. I'm not usually that depressed about shit. I guess the late night, school stress, and loneliness combo was a bit to much for me to handle at that point. I've got my whole life ahead of me, and it scares the fuck out of me. Since I'm in grade 12 now, I'm finishing school at the end of the year. Since I'm quite a free spirit and I want to get going on my own life and such, I want to move out at that time. But at the same time, changing from the familiar environment I've known most of my life, even though it wasn't always all that pleasant, (long story for another time.) the prospect of moving out scares me. This, compounded with the fact that I do not have anyone to share these feelings with, stresses me. Sometimes I just want someone to hold when I'm feeling down.

Luckily I'm quite good at picking myself back up quickly. I rarely feel depressed for more than a day or so these days, and often times it doesn't even last a day. Rather, the sad, lonely feelings somehow become blind determination.

Also, when I said I was very smart, I wasn't bragging. In fact, I wish I could become a little less smart. Intelligence isn't always a gift, and not something to brag about either.

Funny enough though, people seem to like me quite a bit, even if they can't quite comprehend me. I have no lack of "normal" friends. It is the close friends I miss. As someone said, they are quite rare.

On the subject of a girlfriend though, I've basically only have myself to blame. It is not that I am to picky, as long as the girl is reasonably good looking and has a nice personality, I'd be quite happy. The big thing is, I don't get out much. Scratch that, I don't get out at all. When I said I have to meet a girl, I didn't mean I need to meet "the one", I mean I have to meet a girl, any frikken girl. You can't do that when you move between two places, your house and the ocean. (I surf, and the places I surf doesn't really have that many people around at all, let alone girls.)
I don't have the money to go out. Going out is expensive, and if I had to spend all the money I get in a month on going out, I'll only go out once every two weeks, and that only because I don't drink much. Come to think of it, if I DID get a girl who is interested in me, I won't really be able to take her out on a date! (Although, I'm sure I'd be able to do something simple, like a picnic. I've got a few ideas on dates minus price tag...)

But right now, the real truth would be, I don't have the time. I'm pretty much more swamped in work than I've ever been, and until I'm on vacation in April, I won't be able to do much about the situation, unless I just plain get lucky.

But, as I said, I have a way of picking myself up very quickly, and now, like most of the time, I'm alone, but not lonely.

 

Double post. Stupid computer.